just another post, i guess.

hahas. i'm blogging just past midnight.
well... it's like all my bros are asleep.
and so... i'm just here for some quick updates.

can't sleep...
with so much past memories in my mind...
(that's keeping me awake uhh.)

lols. ever since this year began...
i've started to take all my BGRs seriously.
like more seriously than last year's one.

every guy i went through left me many memories, both good and bad.

just that right now...
i'm getting so much unwanted attention.
and it's really bugging me. ugh.
my poor phone. lol.
and thanks to jou & rory, i got them to get lost.

all i just want to find is a decent young guy who loves me for who i am...
regardless of my past or what i've done.
like... to be able to accept whatever flaws i have.
because it's most likely that i'll do the exact same thing for him if i'd really love him.

*sighs*

where have all the good and sensible guys gone to...?

ohwells. i shall elaborate more on this once i get my lappy back.
hehes. (imma using the desktop, just so you know.)
like summarising my whole life this year... X:

for now, i would seriously like to remain single.
(yet keeping my fields open. heh. LOL. xP)

anyways...
the Os is just one day away.
and yeah... i'm afraid i'll flunk alright.
(and head str for ITE.)
i'm no longer biased against the sch or the ppl there...
nt cuz i knw i'm going to land in there, but more like...
it's more practical based, like errr... the courses there are more hands-on.
and i'm into that kinda stuff. so yeah.
(and i think, heard & see the ad.. that ITE grads can get a job faster than poly & JC students!)
so, double yeah. ;)

i'm studying, yes.
but... sometimes, nothing seems to get into my brain! DD:<
and that upsets me.
trying my very best to read up as much info as i can though, like right at this moment. lol.

i just can't find the determination or motivation to study lehh.
it's like i know this is very freaking impt... but.
the way i'm looking at this... (from a third person view.)
it's like i don't ever really cared at all.
i wonder sometimes if it's because of the slacky enviroment i'm in.
or i lack the family support...
(since my family is abt to break soon. that's what I THINK and SEE.)
idk. seriously.

and goodness... i still have trouble finding out abt myself.
who i really am. what traits to do i have.
my good points.
(i know all my bad points though.... heh. oops.)
most importantly, what do i really want in life.
i do have goals & dreams~ but i just find no spirit in me to chase them.

sometimes... i even ask myself why and what i'm here for.
you may say that God had send me here, down to Earth, to learn abt life and go through obstacles or whatnot.
but, i just don't get it.

lols. maybe it's because...
i've turned into a free thinker again.
not saying that i believe that apes are our ancestors because science can prove it...
more like... i'm open to all religious beliefs.
and i do respect them.

okays. nevermind me randomly crapping. lol.
i tend to digress sometimes.

ehhhh.
I MISS MY LAPPY!!! T_T
and playing audi.

i swear once i finish my last paper... i'll come home and change...
then go lan choing play audi liaos. ROAR. D:<

lolololol~ sorry. imma being random again.

ohyeah.
i still have this weird feeling that...
soon, i won't be wearing the uniform i have been wearing for a decade alr. ><"
after the Os and collecting my results. lol.
actually... i think shss' uniform is one of the best looking uniforms in singapore lehh. ;D
i really do like my sch's uni uhh! x))
kekes.

photos...
i hardly take them nowadays...
but there will photos here very soon! kekes. xP
just watch out for me lahh~! heh. (x

anyways...
i wish all Olvl candidates good luck and all the best! :D
ADD OIL.
and most imptly... don't get too stressed out!
kekes. (:

i shld get to bed alr.
i was up chatting with jou till 4 plus last morning...
and i had to wake up 7hrs later.
which means now, i'm hungry and tired. LOL.
so... my butt's getting outta here!
buhbye~ <3