booksasBOYFRIENDS. (:

officially closed.

2008-11-22T16:17:00.002+08:00

i've got like the WHOLE day to blog now. lols.

but...
i hv a new blog at wordpress.
so i'm jumping over there to blog instead.
lols. srry for all the mess...
i was trying to decide if i shld make my new one personal or not.

but now, i don't really care anymore.
it's like i'm starting all over again. but that's okays.
i know i hv to be careful of what i say.
however, i'll just say whatever i deem fit of doing. lol.
which means...
i'll just trash everything there.
and i'm ready for the consequences.

so yeah, it'll be personal again.
hahas. just hope i won't offend anyone... X:

okays. so details of the camp & whatever happens after that will be at...
3xclusivelysky3.wordpress.com

cya over there then!
goodbye forever. (:

TPRAWKS - PUNKREDFOUR. xD

2008-11-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

punk, punk, punk, punk RED~~~

woots! punk red - grp four rocks! xD
it was totally... AWESOME! (as quoted from PL-Grace.)
hehes. seriously. i had so much fun till i lost my voice from all that screaming & cheering. xP

and of course, there will be photos! xD
i took alot more during the last day. ^^

ahhhh. yesh...
i spotted this guy from TPDE.
he's one of the helpers during that lil' hip hop lesson they gave us rawkers to learn.
and standing diagonally next to me.
i secretly think he's cute... but the goddamn thing is that idk his name! DD:
omg. lols. really want to get his number lehhs...
i forgot to ask when he went off... at the sports complex there. ):
wanted to get it on day 3 but i didn't see him at jam & hop. then, i just saw him today again.
aiya, i was too stunned to get his number uhh. crap.
i wish i can see him again luhhs. *sighs and prays*
please~~ ><"
hahas. xP

anyways...
grace was about to cry luhhs.... awwww~ ><"
cuz we had such an awesome time tgt uhhs.
and then, time flies when you're having fun.
and we all have to part... D:
it was kinda sad uhhs. i nearly cried because i missed them so much! X:
the energy was so darn high uhhs!
i really enjoyed my time at TPRAWKS.

and i think our PLs are very, very caring uhhs.
well, not only ours... but like ALL the PLs.
they're all so anxious for us uhhhs.
keep asking if we have our food already anort, take your drinks alr mahh...
anyone need utensils mahh... who still want some more food lahh...
damn nice siol. it's like wherever we go, they'll keep count of everyone in the group to see if anyone's missing lahh.
then, everytime is them who starts leading us to cheer for our team!
and they're just damn hyper and enthu lahh!
*sniffs* i'm so touched... (':
they cared so much for us! xD

so, to all PLs, esp. to Grace, Amelia and Kai...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR TAKING CARE OF US FOR THREE WHOLE DAYS.

*bows* arigato gosaimastu! ^^

ohyeah. just go to http://tp4me.blogspot.com/ to look at more photos of the 3-day camp.

as for my own collection...
i hv quite a few. (:
but blogger hates me, so i won't put it up here... but in friendster.
it'll be up there very soon. ;D

all i can say is that... TP ROCKS MY SOCKS.

and i'm most likely to go there once i get to start choosing my courses. ;))

for now, i'm in a rush to go off...
more details in the nxt entry. cya peeps! bye~ X:

sing your hearts out! grins

2008-11-15T18:08:00.003+08:00

it seems like, to me...
i am actually fucking lazy (as always) to maintain my new blog.
hahahas.

it's like you've got loads to do...
and it's actually kinda boring when you can't edit the templates...
like to make it look better & more pretty.

blahhh. can someone out there help me?
LOL.
i just realised no one knows i'm here. hahahas.
nvm then. lol.

and i've finally changed my phone...
but the crap thing abt it is the keypad... it's kinda hard to type lehh.
or maybe imma nt used to using a slide phone. hahas.
it's the w760i. ((:
quite pretty uhhs. i chose red. xD
wanted the omnia, but too expensive... so i got this instead.
at least, this has walkman! ;P
hahas. (though it's like kinda cheap... and it lags abit. :/ *sighs*)

and now, i'm like singing my heart out at this website! xD
hahahas... for all wannabe singers & karaoke fans, this is for you!
go to : www.karaokeparty.com

hahas. i'm having so much fun trying to sing...
my best score so far is 6184. xP
i'm nt that good in singing (besides, i'm like sick... still having coughs), but this is really a whole lot f.u.n! *grins*

... anyways.
i went out yesterday uhhs.
limping all the way to the doctors. lols.
then i went to play para.
AHAHAHA. the best things was...
I COULD STILL DANCE. :DD
that was because i didn't really move my feet. LOL.
just tried staying at one spot to move.
hahas. i'm a pro, man...
injured alr still can dance! woots! xD
i love myself. weeee~~ ^^v

the only game i wished i could really play was DDR. DD:

--> DDR= arrows on the floor pad= dancing/stomping with YOUR FEET. <--

OMG. O:
that's the problem lorrs. ohwells...
hope i'll get well soon, then i can get back there to choing practice!
wooots! xD

heh. and then, met up with my dad to change muah phone...
then he sent me home, and went off to work.
basically, i'm somehow better now, even though i still walk like some crippled person.
lol. X:

my princess wanted to come... lols.
but i told her not to alr, cuz imma going home.
well, i miss her and just really wanna meet up and chat & para tgt. lols.
ohwells, another time bahh. (:
till my feet heals.

AND JOU.
omg. she & rory went to malaysia. and didn't tell me... T-T
lols. and apologised after when she gt back. hahas. ^^
at least, she's back! xD
yays~~ *grins*
(sryy that i could go pick up joey & nicole with euu~ ><")

and now...
i've been getting a lil' bolder these days.
i wonder what's with me sometimes. heh. xP

i'm practically stuck at home today.
my foot's getting better though... :D

and the drowsy medicine doesn't really work on me anymore. yays? ;))

pictures...
i haven't got the hang of using my phone to take good pictures of myself & the things ard me yet.
heh.

lols. and should i actually let anyone know that i still exist here? ><"

ahh. i'll think abt that later.
now, i just wanna go sing my heart out at that webby. (x
and then, try to do my new blog a favour by making it look nicer. lols.

so, cya guys! and have a nice day.
i'll be back pretty soon.
( i shall go get dinner before i start singing out loud again. HAHAHA... xDD)
buhbye~! (:

i stay in love...

2008-11-14T04:43:00.001+08:00

hey there! i'm back! xD

actually, i've been REALLY LAZY to blog lahh.
hahas. and yesh, i moved this blog to a new URL.
it shld be easy to find... lol.
just go to google & search.

but then again, i don't think i'll get anyone here anymore...
since i've only told like a very few ppl abt moving this blog.
hahahas.

as for my new one...
it's also kinda dead.
cuz imma is oh-so-lazy to get the links, cbox, and ads up.
i wanted to change my blogskin too...
but blogger hates me touching the template, so after many tries, i gave up. lols.
i hope someone out there can help muahh...
(i'm seriously dumb at html and all that shit.)

i wonder if i actually can handle the new blog well...
hahas. everything there's almost summarised. lol.
nt that here isn't either...
i just put more of my soul here. heh.

and i know like i'm 9 days late...
but...

CONGRATS TO OBAMA. (:

hahas. at least now, there's a change of colour ruling.
LOL. and i actually hope America would prosper (hopefully) under his rule.
go obama! you've gt my support...! (even though you wouldn't knw me.)
hahaha~

and...
TO HELL WITH THE OS MAN. ^^v

ohyeshhh~ my Os are officially over.
and now, i'm waiting for my results.
i hope i can actually make it.
i knw myself. i didn't study much.
but i procastinate and just take advantage of my luck.

ohwells.

anyways...
i'm changing my phone soon. lols.
idk what i shld get ehhs.
omnia or that 8gb sony ericsson phone? ><"
(still deciding...)

damn, it's been such a long time since i updated.
crap... now, i have so much to say. X:
but i can't think straight sometimes. lol.

have been doing spring cleaning ard the house.
we start early since we have the WHOLE house to clean...
hohoho~ D:
and recently, i've just cleared my room.
all the lil' shennanigans i've kept in the past of my childhood life...
(lil' slips of paper, keychains, notebooks, & all that 'crap'.)
it all resurfaced when i started cleaning...
and it brought back good memories.
sometimes... i wish that i was stuck at that certain age, and probably nvr grow up.
hahas. ohwells. but it doesn't work here in the world we call... reality.

gosh, i just had gotta throw them away.
my mum lorr.

there were the more recent ones...
all in a thick file. my foolscap journal of sec3.
(some of my memories are here, in my blog.)
i just thought of looking through it... and everything that happened flashes in my mind.
the scenes... those flashbacks.
in all good & bad.
it hurts trying to think sometimes. lols.

then, this year's memories.
they're all here...
and on paper, everywhere in my personal notebook.
soon, i'm going to sum up my life here. hahas.
and take a (very horrible) trip, back down to january one, 2008.

anyways... i'm like awake now, cuz i couldnt sleep.
4plus in the darn morning. i know.
was hoping for those two to come online. lol.
i don't see them anywhere lehh. awwww man. D:
nvm uhh. hahas.

(they've been really nice to me. but sadly, one's in the US & the other in Britain.
none in singapore. none here! rawr.
and because it's so virtual, i don't know how to like them... lol. :X
like the bgr kinda thing...
both are great, and wish i could keep them both.
but seriously speaking, if i HAD TO CHOOSE, i would rather remain single...
and wait for my Mr.Right to step into my life.
i honestly feel that they are just faking it. but i've gt this gut feeling saying that they aren't.
omg. that is why i'm so confused... and yeah, can't sleep. eeeps.)

hmmmm.
so my previous-to-current love life's situation is probably like...

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you~

lols. it's part of the lyrics. by mariah carey.
the title's my blog title. heh. ;)
this keeps happening to me all the time.
always, after a breakup of mths later.

that only one who reminds me so much of this.
the ex i'd really loved.
the one i just broke up with.

not -------.

up till now, i'm still thinking of him.
lols. the song tells it all uhh. i don't wish to repeat.
it may take years... or even never to forget him...
but it's hard to give up the love i had once for him.

*sighs*

that's probably why i still can't find a nice guy to love again, perhaps?

.
.
.
.
.

and also, WHERE DID JOU GO TO?!
she didn't reply my msges... T___T
and i missed her... lols.
checked out her blog to find out that she didn't want to be disturbed till today.
blehhhhs. babe, if you read this... PLEASE GET BACK TO ME.
i'm worried for you uhh. ><"

ahh. yesh. i would also be busy nxt week.
attending TPRAWKS at TP. (duhh.)
it's almost like an orientation camp. lols.
and i'll be taking much photos!
hope i'll be able to make a whole lot more of friends! :D

and then, there's the anime fest happening at suntec.
imma going for that one. ^^,
but i'll have to buy the tickets.
the ticketing website.

lols. one more!
i'm also going for this event at zouk!
(not zoukout lahh. too young liaos. Dx -sian-ed.)
hahas.
by SP derhhs. ;D -their DVTM course. *it's new!*
lols. happening this 25 nov.
and again, here's the ticketing website.
(that is if you're interested.)

so, i'll be like freaking busy lahh~
lols. again, idk if i'll have the time to blog. hehes.

okays.
i shall stop here.
it's darn long, isn't it?
i feel like typing alot today... so yeah. heh.
and... i must get going. if not, when i get discovered...
it's BAD NEWS. O:
omg. so yeah. cya ard then peeps!
manylovesfrommeasusual~ <3-zaryl.

keep your love locked down. (happy halloween!)

2008-10-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

this song totally rocks!

lol. it's part of the lyrics of 'Love Lockdown'...
by Kanye West! :D

(i heard on MTV news that he was REALLY upset that this song got leaked out even before it debuted as a single...)

and i missed his concert 2 nights ago. T_T
how can i go when i'm still having my Os?
then i'll also miss Wang Lee Hom's concert too.
(i LOVE that guy and his singles uhh. he's awesome man...)
sadly... i can't go. )x

ohwells.
the Os is quite a bane in all sec4s & 5s, i guess.

lols. also, it's the last day of october! O:
which is also time for me to greet everyone a...

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! ;D

*gives a spooky laughter~*
hahas. trick or treat!

bet everyone in the US are enjoying it. heh.
and here in sg... it's probably those ppl celebrating in the clubs and parties.
even in audi & hs5. (all the online games lorr.)

ROAR.
my mum was such a spoiler to my mood.
i was really hoping i could go out today with jou...
and then, it's because of THE OS... she didn't allow.
just another 2 more papers...
i need a break too.
but she wouldn't let. T_T
(then she herself went out. wtf luhh.)

upset like mad, y'all. D:<

i intended to cross-dress. kekes. ala JT style. ^^v

nvm alr. Dx
ohwells.

but ehh....
hohoho~
(oh yes, i got my hair cut like a boy's.)
more like err... xiao zhu in the ding tang shen tan 9 pm show which just finished on chnl 8. X:
lols. in english, it's : Piglet in the Crimebusters X2, 9pm show.

i've yet to take a good picture of myself yet. xP

just wanted a change in my hairstyle. (:
hope i'll look fresher in my new look! ^^,

(i'll do a cross-dress and take a pic of it too. LOL. *big grin*)

that's why i decided to dress liddat for halloween. X:

anyways...
i've yet to really study for SS.
it's a killer subject, i tell you.
idk how imma gonna start revising for that, man...
lols. ohwells. just try, i guess.

tried re-dl audi.
STILL CANNOT.
omfg. ftw. i seriously wanna give up liaos.
i heard from derrick that, all the songs are back in audi!
and it's season 2, that's why! OMG. xD
hahahas. i was so anxious to go dl again.
but then, there are just some files missing and i'm seriously fed up to go dl again.
RAWR. i'm not some computer geek, so i give up.
i rather go lan & play.
hope they have no problems over there... please.

stuck at home now.
haven't had my dinner.
lol. and i got my lappy through my bro.
thanks, bro. (:
hahas. i'll be using this for a while only uhh.
nevermind uhh. at least, i gt to use it! ^^,

and i can't wait to get my new phone after the exams! xDD
YAHHHHOOOOO~

LOL.

ohyeah.
i'll be moving soon...
still deciding if i shld make it public or not. lols. X:

anyways...
that's all for now. (:
i'll get going soon. cya when this is all over.
the Os, i meant. and i'm going to regain all lost time to go partae!!!
hmmm. i'll be so ready when the time comes.
buhbye~! ;)

just another post, i guess.

2008-10-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

hahas. i'm blogging just past midnight.
well... it's like all my bros are asleep.
and so... i'm just here for some quick updates.

can't sleep...
with so much past memories in my mind...
(that's keeping me awake uhh.)

lols. ever since this year began...
i've started to take all my BGRs seriously.
like more seriously than last year's one.

every guy i went through left me many memories, both good and bad.

just that right now...
i'm getting so much unwanted attention.
and it's really bugging me. ugh.
my poor phone. lol.
and thanks to jou & rory, i got them to get lost.

all i just want to find is a decent young guy who loves me for who i am...
regardless of my past or what i've done.
like... to be able to accept whatever flaws i have.
because it's most likely that i'll do the exact same thing for him if i'd really love him.

*sighs*

where have all the good and sensible guys gone to...?

ohwells. i shall elaborate more on this once i get my lappy back.
hehes. (imma using the desktop, just so you know.)
like summarising my whole life this year... X:

for now, i would seriously like to remain single.
(yet keeping my fields open. heh. LOL. xP)

anyways...
the Os is just one day away.
and yeah... i'm afraid i'll flunk alright.
(and head str for ITE.)
i'm no longer biased against the sch or the ppl there...
nt cuz i knw i'm going to land in there, but more like...
it's more practical based, like errr... the courses there are more hands-on.
and i'm into that kinda stuff. so yeah.
(and i think, heard & see the ad.. that ITE grads can get a job faster than poly & JC students!)
so, double yeah. ;)

i'm studying, yes.
but... sometimes, nothing seems to get into my brain! DD:<
and that upsets me.
trying my very best to read up as much info as i can though, like right at this moment. lol.

i just can't find the determination or motivation to study lehh.
it's like i know this is very freaking impt... but.
the way i'm looking at this... (from a third person view.)
it's like i don't ever really cared at all.
i wonder sometimes if it's because of the slacky enviroment i'm in.
or i lack the family support...
(since my family is abt to break soon. that's what I THINK and SEE.)
idk. seriously.

and goodness... i still have trouble finding out abt myself.
who i really am. what traits to do i have.
my good points.
(i know all my bad points though.... heh. oops.)
most importantly, what do i really want in life.
i do have goals & dreams~ but i just find no spirit in me to chase them.

sometimes... i even ask myself why and what i'm here for.
you may say that God had send me here, down to Earth, to learn abt life and go through obstacles or whatnot.
but, i just don't get it.

lols. maybe it's because...
i've turned into a free thinker again.
not saying that i believe that apes are our ancestors because science can prove it...
more like... i'm open to all religious beliefs.
and i do respect them.

okays. nevermind me randomly crapping. lol.
i tend to digress sometimes.

ehhhh.
I MISS MY LAPPY!!! T_T
and playing audi.

i swear once i finish my last paper... i'll come home and change...
then go lan choing play audi liaos. ROAR. D:<

lolololol~ sorry. imma being random again.

ohyeah.
i still have this weird feeling that...
soon, i won't be wearing the uniform i have been wearing for a decade alr. ><"
after the Os and collecting my results. lol.
actually... i think shss' uniform is one of the best looking uniforms in singapore lehh. ;D
i really do like my sch's uni uhh! x))
kekes.

photos...
i hardly take them nowadays...
but there will photos here very soon! kekes. xP
just watch out for me lahh~! heh. (x

anyways...
i wish all Olvl candidates good luck and all the best! :D
ADD OIL.
and most imptly... don't get too stressed out!
kekes. (:

i shld get to bed alr.
i was up chatting with jou till 4 plus last morning...
and i had to wake up 7hrs later.
which means now, i'm hungry and tired. LOL.
so... my butt's getting outta here!
buhbye~ <3

graduated in 2008. from shss.

2008-10-14T14:12:00.001+08:00

LOL.
yeah... i've finally graduated!
WOOHOO~

... last friday lorr.
lols. well... i do feel a lil' sad.
seeing that the best memories i had was during sec 1 and 2.
and of course... even though our class isn't that enthusatic as 4G or 4E...
i will still miss the ppl in my class... losers or not.
besides, we've been together for 2 years.
there must be some feelings among everyone. (i hope.)

the class photos throughout this year was in a CD format.
LOL. nice luhh. hahas.

now...
the school's just owing us our YEARBOOKS.
we've graduated alr, yet they have nt given us our yearbooks!! D:<
ehhhhhh...
AND OUR CLASS PHOTOS.
OMG. i'm going back to sch to complain sia!

and also to check the sitting plan of my science practical exam. X:
(it's this coming thursday.)

omg. yes, the Os will officially start next week!
with english as the first paper! o.o

and i've been very on & off with studying.
so... i'm actually quite worried. ><"

lols. and ricky...
he kinda made it clear alr. so... yeah.
i get the msg. ohwells... let's MOVE on! X:
(i still do get a lil' emotional when i listen to the songs that we used to hear & sing tgt. damn.)
it'll take time...

hahas. the week after my last paper... i'll be busy like a bee! ^^v
i have plans... 2 poly camps to go and an anime convention at suntec. ((:

and then, i'll party like a rockstar! woots! ;D
go out and find someone to be mine!
(with my kind of standards, of course.)

anyways... again, i won't be here until nov 11/12.
(i might blog in one of those days. LOL. :X -with a bang! xP)
even though i'll be at home... =="

and i'm just here for a short while only uhh.
not dead yet. lol. (:

ohyes. even my bros says james is interested in me.
like really WTF. i know. but i don't care if i'm sending the wrong signals to him.
i just want to take full advantage. HAH. (blehh.)
sucker.

ohkays. i've gtg luhhs! cya peeps~
(wish i can play audi ASAP! ><" go lan shop play or something. hahas.)
till the next time when i'm free to be online...
buhbye~! <3-loves:zaryl.

a school day spent at home.

2008-10-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

okays.
i have to say it.

*sobs*
T___T

i miss ricky!~

eeeps. ><"
he hasn't been talking to me.
and idk what the heck happened between us. X:
(maybe he's busy with studying?)
it's like we're not even really talking now. *sighs*
i'd really wish to call him... but i'm afraid i don't have anything to say.

and then, when i miss him...
i'll just turn flip out my phone...
and go in to the inbox...
and find his smses.

o.o
well... i do keep them. (:
hahas.

anyways...
i get to use my lappy for today~! ;D

YAYS.

woooooots!~

and because i get to use it, i'm currently mass downloading chinese songs.
LOL. from baidu.com.
and it's taking a LONG~~ time.

and putting most of my favourite songs that i like to hear often...
into this TWO GB mp4. (that james so willing offered me to lend me.) HAH. X:
and IT'S HUGE. the space, i mean. so, why not take?
(wahahahas. yes. wo shi tan xiao pian yi. so what? i don't have the money. so i don't care.)
but, in any way, thanks alot. (:

hahas. that includes my collection of Audition songs!
( i've finally put up their link on my sidebar. ohyeah~)
and the latest hits right now! ^^v

ohyes.
my mum's going to shanghai tmr.
hohoho. like not again lahhh.... i'm in charge of the house. O_O
and the munnayyy~ DD:
omg. the plenty of household chores to do... x_x

and i'm currently making notes for physics...
and studying as well... (:
lols. it's like the science papers are more in my Olvls schedule.
and so, i'm focusing more on that.
btw, my science Olvls practical is next thrusday... 16 oct. O:
very near uhh...

well, i think combined science practical is much more easier...
and i have the confidence that i will pass! (if i don't pass WITH FLYING COLOURS.)
LOL. X:

as for amaths... i'm like ignoring it. ><"
i know i shld try at least... but when i take a glance at an amaths paper.
i immediately turn to emaths instead.
ahahahahas. xP
so yeah. as for emaths... i have TONS of paper to complete.
OMG. ms ong gives us SO freaking much...
idk if i'll ever finish lorrs.

also...
i have no more tution alr!
so yeah... i'm on my own this time.

lol.
however, i don't think i'll be able to get 15 points and below.
not even 18 points i think.
considering my grades during prelims...
though i'm trying my best to work harder... haiish.
ohwells... we'll see how it goes from there.
(and i'm prepared for the 'worst' anyway.)

hmmmm.
has anyone tried the new wasabi flavoured shaker fries & burger?
omg. i hate wasabi. so don't ask me to taste it.

hahas. and...
the 2nd SuperBand contest is already over....
the RABBITS won!
woohoo.... tuzi! LOL. ((x
apparently, they're all girls. omg. and i didn't know till they spoke.
HAHA. X:
well... they dressed up like boys. and so convincingly like a boy.
so yeah. paiseh lorr.... ><"~

ohyeah.
i've actually been at home this few days...
to seriously study kays!
so i didn't get to blog...
i just wanna slack today. hahas. X:
soon, i'll get back to work. don't worry. ^^,

btw again... i'll be graduating this friday. (:
BUT.
i... WON'T MISS THIS darn SCHOOL.
seriously, i can't wait to get outta there.

AND CRAP THAT.
i miss playing Audition. T.T
my skills... my character... my acash...
UWAHHH~ DD:
lololololol~...

hah. anyways... i'm getting outta here to continue my downloading. ;P
and eat muah dinner! so... till the next time, byebye peepo! (:

2008 FORMULA 1™ SingTel Singapore Grand Prix : SUCCESS!

2008-09-30T12:13:00.002+08:00

i wonder if anyone has posted something for last weekend's events.

woots!~ *screams*
yeah, i'm talking the F1 night race in Singapore!! ;DD
check out the main F1 website too...
the details are all there!

OMG.
i have like sooooo much to say~! LOL.
the F1 weekend really ROCKED! :D
ESPECIALLY ON 28 SEPTEMBER 2008!
-the final race!!

OMGOMGOMGOMG.
FERNANDO ALONSO WON FIRST PLACE!!!
AND THEN, LEWIS HAMLITON WON THIRD PLACE!!
*SCREAMS!* WOOOOOOOHHHOOOOO~

okays.maybe i'm overreacting...
but i was fking high during the last 3 laps~~ xDD
i don't go for Nico Rosberg. he won second place on the podium.

i guess that applies to all Singaporeans who had watched the race too~~

it's the FIRST TIME for Singapore to host the F1 Grand Prix Night Race!
and damn was it AWWWWWWEEEESOMMMME!
woooohoooo~~
spent one whole year just for this race~! omg.

even like Nike, Fila and Puma... they were all in the hype too!
selling stuff like shirts related to the race.
hohoho~

and though i was at home watching the race...
it was just as exciting! woots~~
i was glued the TV for the whole freaking race.
hahas. those as spectators at the race LUCKY LAHH.
they must feel like alot more hyped than me siol~! xD

the adreline rush was AWESOME.
i can totally feel it at home! ^^
and it was like... thoughout the whole race...
alot of changes had happened...
the whole race was just dramatic lahh~ phew!

Nelsinho Piquet was the first to get out of the race lorr.
he tio accident on the sides....
(HENG STILL GOT ALONSO~~ <3) ;DD

then one ran outta fuel...
some more car crashes...

AND THE BEST PART OF THE RACE WAS...

FELIPE MASSA RAN OFF FROM THE PIT STOP WITH THE FUEL NOZZLE LAHH.

WTF.....

so, there and then..... he lost his 1st place on the grid. =="
too much time wasted lorrs.
of course... ferrari didn't make it in the end.
too bad... CMI~ LOL.

6 racers got outta the race...
and massa was last. hah. X:

i like the trophy~! wahahahas. xP
it really looked nice mahh! ^^v

my bros suay siol... they gt tution...
ended up watching the last part of the race only.
wahahahahahas. :P

fiesal (& my Septmeber issue of CLEO magazine) was with me throughout the race~!
^^, -thank you for your company~ i really had so much fun~! ((:

(apparently... he's my new buddy! introduced by jou~ iLy, girlfriend! <33~
i must say he's really nice... and kinda cute. X: -in a way. heh.)

anyways...
has anyone realised how AWESOME the skyline at night in Singapore is?!
OMG. i tell you... the camera angles were superb uhh!
(esp. if you'd watched it on TV. still don't believe, go take the Singapore Flyer at night & you'll know...)
they captured the night view perfectly... ;DD
usually... i'm on the falt ground, so i don't take notice.
until... last sunday!
hahas! seriously!
... even the Prime Minister said that he watched the race, not only for the race...
but he was watching out for the skyline here!
COOL~~ ^^v

RAHHHH~
I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR'S F1 GP HERE IN SINGAPORE TO HAPPEN AGAIN.
i'm going to be soooooooooooo hyped when it comes!
wahahahahas~ xP

and y'knw...
jou actually had 10 tix to the f1 race.
like WTF. omgomgOMFG. O:
but she didn't feel like going since she dislikes crowds....
so yeah. what's worse is that when i told my mum abt it...
she was like... WHY DIDN'T YOU TAKE IT?!
don't waste mah!!

i was like wth.... why didn't you say so earlier or something...?!?!
(but the fact was that i told on the night itself... so yeah... hehheh.)
i though she wouldn't let since....
you know... the Os are nearing & blah blah blah.

so... that's about it for my F1 weekend! ^^v

and now... today.
lols. i haven't been updating....
but i'm here now right? LOL. mainly for the F1 race...
i'm still very hyped about it! ;DD
ALONSO & HAMILTON~~~ <33 (kyahhh~)
MASSA isn't bad too~~! xDD

mainly those 3 were the ones i supported for during the race. ohhhyeah~ ^_^v
kekes. they are just HOT lorr. X:

anyways...
did i mention i got back my phone alr?
lols~ mr.k was very nice lahh...
he returned me my phone last friday. thank you, mr.k! (:
and i think... he'll be the second reason that i'll come back to visit my sch for.
(the 1st one is my bros.... they're currently sec1 here now.) lols.

nth much today...
i might get see jason today. idk. ><"
lols.

oh. and my mum bought me 2 pairs of flip flops & a skirt during her trip to KL.
thanks, ma! xD (<3)

and i wanna watch the House Bunny~ xP
hehes. a chick flick definitely. (:
out in cinemas tmr lorr. hahas.

been sleeping in class today.
slept late last night. was up thinking abt my problems... lol. X:
ohwells. at least... fiesal was there to help.
arigato~! ^-^ (tyty for being there!)

OHYESH.
not forgetting to wish all muslims...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PUASA! :D

lols.... they all got half day today sia~ so gd! O: -ohwells.

~blogging from the library of course! hahas.
last post for the mth.
but i've gtg lerrhs.... ><"
so... cya soon! buhbye~! (manyLOVES.)
xoxo.

i'm in school!

2008-09-23T11:59:00.003+08:00

lawls~~

to blog lahh... duh.

i can't blog at home anyways.

so, here i am norr. heh.

whenever i have my free period... i'll be here blogging. xP

ohyeah! the chnl 8 7pm drama series just finished yesterday. lols.

happy (and a lil' sad) ending... ohwells. (:vry nice still though.

and today...

i'm actually feeling down.

hahas.

well... i've been having mood swings since the September holidays.

and i guessed that no one knew abt it.

(except jou. lols. she's my girlfriend mahh.)

....
i've been trying to pick myself up...
but i guess that's just nt helping. lol. X:
i have only vry little help.
and that, to me, isn't enough.

when i just want a listening ear...
i get criticism.
it's nt tht i'm nt willing to take it in...
is just that... now, i have a bunch of problems to settle.
and all those just add up to my emotional burden.
i can't deal with all of them at once...

now...
even my parents aren't really caring anymore.
by right, i shld be feeling happy.
yet, it seems that i can't help it... but feel a lil' sad...

*sighs*
(goes emo-ing at one corner....)

lols. i'm going to keep myself busy with notporn. ;)
(did intro the website before~) -kekes.
i went to lvl 30 something before i gave up.
wahahahahas. xP

another very short post.
and i was randomly ranting abt my shitty life just nw.
lols. if you'd noticed. ><"

okays. i've gtg lerhhs. sch's almost over~~ O:
till nxt time! cya~ <3
study hard horr, everyone! X:

my random post! (:

2008-09-19T10:32:00.003+08:00

i'm like in sch blogging now uhhs. LOLS. xD
(and the spcaebar for this keyboard sucks.)
lols. i hv to press like really hard lahh. =="

anyways... i'm back here just for a short update.
just to let you guys knw that i'm not dead from studying yet.

and actually, i kinda forgot my sch acc de password to login...
so hw did i get in?
(though some acc. lorr. LOL.) -nt gonna say~~ lalalas~ ;P
and nw, i'm downloading the latest IE 7 & msn plus live siol.
wahahahas. yeah... this comp HAS MSN. ;DD
woots!

and i'm just here in the library, posting a vry random post.
lols... during my free period. since i've alr dropped POA. xP

oh. my mum's in KL now.
she went off early last morning & won't be back till like...
say saturday night?
hahas. i mean the gd news is that...
(i can go out after 6pm. at least for dinner. kekes.
and my bros can come home like probably even later...)
but the bad news is tht...
i'm IN CHARGE of the WHOLE HOUSEHOLD now. O_O
which also means....

I HAVE TO DO ALL THE HOUSEWORK. OMG.

lols. i've just gotta do it!
if nt my mum would NAGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~
like there's no tomorrow.
hohoho. X:

&& thank you jou! xDD
for that huge, jumbo lolly poppy you gave me!! <3
red & white~~
LMAO. not national day horr.
(okays. i'm just being random again.)

and my PHONE.
T___T
i dun wanna say abt it. ):

btw... he's been a lil' quiet on his side...
i knw we need to study... bt can't he just try to talk to me a lil' bit?
(and for the fact that my phone's been so quiet so far too... i'm just upset. ><")

ahhhh~
that shld be abt it...
since i've gt nth muich more to say. heh.
and my free period is almost over... so cya peeps!
till again~ :D
buhbye! <3

i am going away...

2008-09-12T17:07:00.001+08:00

to a farwaway place...
and~ never coming back again...

LOL. X:
no lahh. just kidding only~ ><"
hahas. i WILL be back uhhs! (:
(i sound as if i'm going to die or something liddat... do i? :O -lol. :X)

so yeah, imma going mia/hiatus from blogging.
and audi-ing too.
basically, the virtual world here. (:

i'll be back on nov 12 though! (well, ard there uhhs.)

anyways...
i knw i haven't been blogging recently....
that's because~~~

... my mum found out that i slit open the laptop bag which shld cost abt 60 bucks or more.
(it's an acer laptop bag. :X)

and so she confiscated my lappy.
like (nearly forever...) until my Os are over.

hohoho~
which is like only ard a mth plus away only.... ><"~
(and i shld SERIOUSLY hit the books.)

so... yeah. the last time i blogged was during the hoildays. (:
hahas. and now, i'm back! FINALLY.
(since i wanted to blog so badly~~ DDD: )
quite long ehh...

lmao~ :X
so yeah. as usual... i have stuff to tell! ^^v

so... this week-long holiday, for most of my time....
i stayed at home. since i was sick. ):
went to sse the doctor alr, eat finish all my medication lerhh~
still a lil' sick norr.... (coughing lorr... *sighs*)

still didn't really like study. :X
even though ricky gave me a wake-up sms. lol.
okays. i don't really wanna talk abt that uhh...
(because i just showed my dad my result slip this morning...
and he was indeed really pissed with me! Dx
beacuse my prelims really SUCKED.
and... errr.... he kinda grounded me until my Os are over.
[yeah, again.] lol.)

oh yeah, i did mention abt going out with my mum to get the ingredients for her mooncakes right? lol~
you know what?
(she gave me 10 bucks from her sales for her mooncakes! woots! xDD)
and dan msged me... and the day after.
surprisingly, i didn't expected that.

lols. ^^v
ohohohoh.
i planned my first -eDc- outing uhhs! ;D
kekes. (it's MY first time wad. xP)
woots! ~~ <3
fun uhhs! at least for me, nuer and mich.
because we were the only ones talking/interacting there....
lols. shawn and prince (does he even have a real name, hmm?) was like so quiet uhhs.
(emooooooo~ LOL. ;P)
btw, shawn keeps talking to his phone. =="
i noticed that. lols.

dan was working... so only he wasn't there.

hahas. and there was carolyn and her friend too~
(she didn't know who i was! T.T) -LMAO. X:
ahahahas. it's okays uhh. ^^

and then, i brought the snow skin mooncakes (with the red wine berry paste inside!) along!
kekes. ;D
shared with everyone... but only nuer, mich & prince ate it.
(he ate such a SMALL piece nahh. ==" but it was better than nth right? lols.)

ask if anybody eat alr... all stone there quietly. lols... ><"
and thank you nuer! for sharing your coke with muah! ;DD

hahas. and... does she know what you did that day, hmm? o.O

wahahahas. X:
anyways... after that we headed to the arcade~
i got to play my one game of PARA.
woohoohoo! xD
WOOTS~! <3
(i so very long neber touch the machine liao lorrs! hehes.)
i got my crowd worrs~! ^^v

and then~ i rested outside the arcade.
with them accompanying me too. lols. and deciding what we shld do next...

and so we decided to play dare & dare.
(no truth. D: )
hahas. it was kinda awkward for the couple in our grp. xP
kekekes. the bottle always kena them.
(i love my bottle. v^^)
muahahas. &&-- it was not bad uhhs. lols.
they are more on the 'safer' side of the game. (:

because i brought board games along, so they all played with muah! LOL.
we took a very long time to finish the game lorrs.
prince & mich played chess.
me, carolyn, her friend and nuer played snakes & ladders and ludo.
(that areoplane game norr. :D )

shawn went off in the middle of our games...
to find dan.
they went to funan 1st... so... they took a longer time to come.
and~ dan ended up not coming lerhhs. lols. cuz all need go off lerhhs. lmao.
(he's my guild leader, btw.)

hmmm.
everyone i knw is going off the virtual world too~
since this is time for exams to come pretty soon.
and for us, the graduating students, the major exams. aka the GCE OLEVELS.

and i wonder if anyone did catch avril's concert in singapore last sunday. ><"
because i missed it! D:

lols. and~~
i miss being in love.
which also means, i hate being single.
can't deal with BGRs right now... but that doesn't mean i don't need one now! ;)
lmao. but something on ricky's blog made me realise something...
and that... X:
now, i'm so going to get over him. lols. trying my very best though.
wish me the best of luck.
and this time, i am seriously serious.

lol. if i miss out anything...
it's till the nxt post lohh. bleahhhhhs~
muahahas. *grins*

cya & buhbye~
i really will miss this place. and you guys! <33
all the best for your EOY exams and OLEVELS!
(and whatever tests/exams you guys are gonna hv.)

bibleblack is the new christianity.

2008-09-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

LOL.
i mean NOTHING at all. X:
not discriminating the christians nor God at all.
i just think that this slogan ROCKS.
(cuz it kinda pop outta my head...) heh.

well, thanks to someone.... i knew this.
(google it to get what i mean. ;) -LOL. NO LINK. xP)

hahas.
anyways...
i've seen the doctor. and i'm on my way to recovery...
(i hope.) X:
still blowing my nose and coughing badly.

but i gave the remedial a miss today.
too sickly to get up. ><"
*sighs*
and then... there's sch holiday hmwk.
i've also gotta catch up on my studying uhhs! D:
haiiyo~ X:

and my auditionsea isn't working still.
followed blackbear's instructions lerhhs... still cannot. ):
i am like so saddened until i don't feel like fixing it anymore.
(yet i want to play audi BADLY.)
it's the holidays mahh~~ play audi for awhile oso dun let. T_T
just wondering if the lan shops are able to load audi...
haven't been there to try it ehhs. heh. X:
(going soon, i guess. to check it out.)

ohhh.
DOMOKUN HAS HIS OWN SHOW.
omg uhh. i saw it on kids central! LMAO.
(my bros' were like calling me outta bed just to let me see him in animation!)
HAHAHAHA~~~
damn funny and cute worrs! <33 (hahas.) xDD
&&-- his voice is DARN LOW.
(according to my bros... ==")
so, imagine him go... ' DOMO~ ' in a low, low tone! ;P
*giggles* ^^v
i love domokun!

HE IS MINE.

lmao. okays. nvm that. heh. i'm just being random.

anyways...
my mum's making loads of mooncake now!
for her friends... as she's intending to sell all those to them. ((:
like the baked one and the SNOW SKIN ones~~ xD

( I LOVE SNOW SKIN MOONCAKES. <3 )

ahahahas. *grins*
and and~~
we went to get the ingredients to make the mooncake yesterday uhh!
lol. i'm glad my mum bought the red wine berry paste for muah! ^___^
weeeee~~~~ it's darn yummy! ;DD

ohhhyesh.
i'm going to (attempt to) make snow skin mooncakes!
and they are sure colourful! :D
mini-sized luhhs... heh.

who wants to test them?

LOL. no poison horr! i not that evil! o.o

and i've got a lil' exp on doing mooncakes horr! x))
(helped out my mum years' ago. AND i've not forgotten the skills, kays!)

hahas. ^^,

hmmm. oh.
guild outing!
i repeat:
it's.... this sat. 1pm. city hall.
and.... bring money! ($10++) and a small brolly.
we're.... either heading to the arcade to play, or slack and play cards/board games, or go kbox?
hahas. (if anyone's interested actually. ^^)

just enjoy each other's company when we're out lahh. ;P

this time....
i feel like i was the one organising. hahas.
hope everything will go well! <3 ;D
AND PLEASE. DON'T RAIN~! ><"
(can't say no rain.... cuz i still want him!! <33 LOLOLOLOLOL.) xDD

there's this pesky ex of mine coming back to me again.
lol. so many ppl are coming back to me.
i just don't see that one guy i need.
he is then the one i want back... but he isn't coming back. lol.
so.... yeah. got nth much to say anyways.
cannot harbour hopes le mahh. ohwells. X:

ohkays. and it's time for me to go!
need to slp more mahhs. and imma need plenty of rest. heh.
as for my audi... i won't bother it too much liaos. xP
major exams coming soon anyways. and must start studying...

nth much for this few days...
nt very in-the-mood to blog either.
just that the holidays seems to go by so quickly lehhs. ><"
racing against time to enjoy it is tough siol! O___O
ohwells.
see ard soon peeps! manyloves<3.
xoxo.

finally sick.

2008-09-01T19:37:00.004+08:00

lol~.
yeah. i'm finally sick.
hahas. with all this 'bad' weather... i'm bound to get sick sooner or later.

hahas.
and firefox and/or starhub is allowing me to download the 6050 game client alr! ;DD

omg. i just HOPE it'll work on me~! ><"~
i really wanna play lehh.
(i've already missed out on the BU event yesterday lahh. Dx)

sian... i've just been very down on my luck lahh.
cannot play audi.
prelims' results are like blehh.
and now, i'm sick.

how worse can things get?
anyways.... what do i owe you guys?
hmmmm....

ohohohoh.
i went out with ricky to catch WALL.E.
after the teachers' day celebrations in school.
(not bad lahh. me and echa practically slacked the WHOLE freaking day off at the canteen. xP)

ohhhhyeah. ;DDDD
WALLLLL.EEEEEEE~~~

^__^v

wahahas. went to cathay orchard cineleisure to watch it.
i think the seats sucks lahh. not very comfortable derhhs.
not as comfy as thoses in AMK hub uhh!

and what sucks the most is that...
they don't have a 7-11 or cheers there!
wtf. the only provision stall sells like expensive but familiar food there...
even though it's just next to the cinema.

trying to knock the socks outta us. =="

....
go to ricky's blog for his review uhh! xDD

hahas. as for me...
i share almost the same thoughts as him. X:
you'll really have to understand the storyline to get it...
(or go read the sypnosis before watching.)
'cause at the beginning of the movie, there's almost no dialogue at all.
just simple animations. (:

lol. for me... i didn't really understand uhh.
(my brain's a tad too slow i guess. hahas.)
who wants to watch with me again? x))
i promise to keep silent! O:

and they are just CUTE lahh! *grins*
if only they were available in soft plush toys.... ;P
weeeee~~~ hehes.

after the show... i went to play one round of para.
LOL. i think the arcade needs space.
cuz it's really cramped there.
the drums machine, the para machine and the DDR machine are like all squeezed side by side in one line lahh. =="
and when i move... i keep hitting the girl playing the drums beside me. ><"
it's BAD. D:
(timezone ppl skcus.) LOL. X:

hehehes. anyways... after that... we parted. (:
and on the train... my old flame texted me.
asking me to go to his place.
i did... we talked and talked until i was like late to go home. =="

he kinda indirectly made me sick too.
RAHHH. YOU OWE ME ONE.
plus the weather... and then i still go swimming with my english tutor...
wild wild wet. yesterday. LOL.
which made my illness worse? X:
(cuz it kinda rained in the beginning uhhs. and then the cold wind...) DD:

ohohoh.
not to forget!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!! <3

X: blehhs.
i never loved the teachers.
lol. but they've been around helping ppl since civilization started.
and they kinda indirectly shaped the ppl for the world. (:
so, sometimes... they deserve the LOVE. ^^
and also for their hard work!
hahas. though i've been bad, i would still like to thank them.
(sounds cliche and hypocritical of me ehh? LOL.)

which reminds me that... it's the start of a new month! DD:

SEPTEMBER is here!

omg. which means....
olvls are like REACHING SOON. O___O

anyways... here's the quiz rickky asked me to do.
and it's my second time doind a similiar one! hahas.
machiam like blogthings. lol. xP

1. The person who tag/pass you is?

Actually there are two. My nuer (serene.) & rickky. :D

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

Him?! errrrrrr. SHHH. *whispers* besties at the… moment. Aiyo… my cpl in audisea lorr! X:

3. Your five impression of him/her?

hmm…

For nuer it's : -> Good at DB4, loves ME and her prince ;), kinda lazy? (kekes.), must be quite chio… & lurbbes tuhh twiit oso n0rhzxz~~

For rickky it's : -> OMG. FANTASTIC at BU & c6 in all modes, loves being random with me, loves the football team: chelsea, cute at times (shhh.) , and HILARIOUS!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

hmm. Nuer: nth yet. Rickky: giving me this quiz so I don’t have to type! xD TYVM.<3

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

Nuer: iLy! <3

6. If he/she become your lover you will?

Wa! okay ^______^v (but I want nth to do with my nuer. Ltr her prince come hamtam me. Hahas.)

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

Eeeks. SPEAK MORE WHEN WE’RE OUT TGT. Hohoho. Lol. ><”

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?

I will be VERY sad :( ! or even depressed.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?

So far~ that hasn't happen yet :D (don’t CURSE me horr!)

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?

Talk to them? LOL. But he’s in either in audi, busy or afk-ing. (there’s something else but… cannot say yet. HAH.)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?

Still good. *grins*

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

RICKKY’S ANSWER.>>>They will feel an aurora of coldness (: -omg. So true. Only in rl luhhs. Kekes. Nt the point. Ehh… they will feel vibes of happiness! (when I’m in a good mood.)

13. The characters you love of yourself are?

I can dance like hell, easy going, (____) insert good quality here. HAHA. Let the others do it.

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?

I’m lazy, always late, irresponsible and selfish.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?

Shits. Idk who yet.*thinking* Maybe Usain bolt? (GOSH, HE’S FLASH THE SECOND.)

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them :

I will always love you. And you’ll always be remembered by me and my heart. XOXO.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.They are :

1. DERRICK. X:

2. NUER. :D

3. echa!

4. joujou!

5. TWINNIE jielinn! ;D

6. michelle! Darkx3~

7. mimi!

8. PRINCESS jiajia! ;D

9. shihui!

10. leon! X:

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?

Someone in the same guild! ;) –eDc-xDaddie! (dunno rl got tgt anort. Lol.)

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

Female :D

20. If number 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

Whoa. CANNOT. O.O –ltr her cpl go mad! Besides, they are completely strangers! D:

21. What is no.2 studying about?

She’s like SEC TWO. I stm & cannot remember what they study liaos. HAHA. Kidding lahh.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

Last day of school. (:

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?

Hmmm. I nt very sure siol. Parapara songs & anything that’s catchy, I guess! (LIKE ME!) xD

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?

Yes! ^^, ~one older brother!

25. Will you woo no.3?

HAHA. If I’m les. Which will NEVER HAPPEN.

26. How about number 7?

I've already said it! IF I’M LES. And, HER CPL WILL KILL ME DERHHS. O.O

27. Is no. 4 single?

Yepp. And she’s dying for many more boy toys. *winks*

28. What is the surname of no.5?

LIM LORR. ….no lahh. Idk actually. Twinnie, tell muah lehhs! ><”

29. What's the hobby of no.10?

Most probably smoking. LOL. or something else? hmmm~? X:

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?

Do strangers get along well? – that depends. ;)

31. Where is no.2 studying at?

Yishun Secondary School.

32. Talk something casually about no.1?

Errr. errr. He’s RANDOM like muah!

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?

==” – I will die under xDaddie’s (______) insert choice of weapon. ROFL.

34. Where does no.9 live at?

Eh! I dont really know.. Maybe around er… tampines/pasir ris? X:

35. What colour does no.4 like?

GOTHIC COLOURS. ^_^v

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

Arhh. Good friends luhhs! Both are SANTAS of their own. Kekes.

37. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

HAHA. I have no comments. Go ask soranokira. ((:

38. What is no.6 doing now?

HOW THE HECK I KNOW?! Dotsdotsdots.

most of my answers are like similar to ricky's....
just that i edited here and there. lol. xP
&&-- i'm ready for more! ^^,
hahas.

hmmm. no photos yet. idk how to transfer pics frm my samsung & nokia phone to here.
T.T -uwahhhh.
(i'm sorry...) X:

okays...
i'm visiting the polyclinic tmr afternoon. dun care if i got energy anort.
gotta force myself outta the house.
heh. cuz i cannot take the nose blowing and heavy coughing liaos.
adds pain to my lil' headache i have... and to my body...
lucky, i took panadol, so it's not that bad.

and i've got sch on wednesday morning!! O.O

gonna take a HOT bath before i eat my dinner~! :D
see ya peeps! <3loveyaw! x))
till the next post~ buhbye!

i wanna jump down...

2008-08-28T20:04:00.004+08:00

and end my (virtual) life.

OMG LAHHH.

i am like seriously PISSED.

~~STUPID FUCKING BLOODY AUDITIONSEA.~~
NO. it's asiasoft!

ah. ~~fuck.~~ it's BOTH.
PLUS starhub's connectivity.

*&#!^&%#$@Q^%#$^%@
#&^%@&!%@%&!$@!$@!!!!

..............
i super duper 'pek chek' (angry.) with audition lahh! =="
more than 2 days never play audi le lehhs.
omg uhh. OMG UHH.
(i'm apparently addicted to audi.)

RAHHHHHHH~~~ *growls some more*

i feel like taking a knife. and go to their headquaters. and kill the person who didn't do the patch properly.

or maybe i should just scream at him/her to fix this ASAP.

lol. X:

WTF SIOL. T___________T
it's making almost everyone who plays audition depressed.
esp. starhub users. DDD:<

singtel users good lahh~ theirs are working already. ):
(i think some lahh. :X)

i've been to the playpark forum for auditionsea. and i saw the thread: the solution!
but horr. sadly for muah. it...
DOES NOT WORK.
*spewing vulgarities alr*

can't just they fix the freaking problem already?!?! D:<

haiish. siannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

.
.
.
.
.
.

anyways.
my luck has been down ever since the monsoon season started.
*sobs*
... audition's nt working. can't download second life. (a game.)
and viwawa's not giving me the luck to win. x((

i was wishing things would turn out better the next day... but no.
it STILL stays the same.
diao lahh. DD:

plus prelims. =="
i REALLY screwed up my prelims uhh. X:

die le lah.

*shakes head*

i am probably gonna get lectured, whacked(?), grounded (even going online too...) and my phone confiscated. ><"~~

i only passed my languages nia.
somemore, it's only borderline pass. =___=

*sighs* -i didn't study well; for like revisions for diff subjects.
and now... i'm almost totally demoralised.

i am trying my very best to pick/buck/wake up now. ><"

don't even dare to let my parents see liao. X:
eeeps. it's damn sad siol.
i flunked my amaths & combined humanities. (as expected/usual.)
i'd just borderline failed my emaths & combined science. (so close lahh. *sulks*)

that's how bad it is. ):
even getting busted at ___'s place. RETARDNESS. omg uhh. SUCKS SIOL.
really.

i need to start studying when september arrives.
(who wants to study with muah? lol.)

crap lahh.

on to better things in life. (:

hmm....

WALL.E IS OUT IN CINEMAS TODAY. :DDDDD

omg luhhs!!! xDD
*points to the left!*

cute right! ^___^v
i hearts wall.e uhhs! hahas~! ;D ~<33

i seriously thought of buying the merchandise at Toy'R'Us sehh!
wahahahahas. xD
the toys and all.

(going really gaga over wall.e AND eve!) *giggles & smile*

but, i wanted to watch it TODAY derhhs.
with my mum.

but she went out with her friend instead. (so no reviews. T.T)
ohwells. i don't blame her.
she has her own (entertaining) life to live.

i just feel rather disappointed though.

SEE HOW MY LUCK'S RUINED?!?! *pouts then emo-s at a corner for a while*

omg. and i don't want anything to happen to my wild wild wet outing this sunday!!! O:
SERIOUSLY. ><"
no rains please!
or having too many ppl! (quite unavoidable, but heck uhh.)

.........
lol. i'm having so many actions today.
hahas. trying to make my blog 'alive' lorrs. lmao.
aiya, very random uhhs. xP

but i'm seriously upset abt the whole everythin's-not-going-MY-way thing!
RAHHH. *scratches the screen~*

ohyeah. i went out today with mum... and continuing...
we went to simei to fix my mum's cybershot phone. lol.
at eastpoint. ^^

the phone's similar to ricky's one! ;D
my mum said that if her phone's fixed...
she'll let muah use worrs!!! xDD
OMG. O:
(can use same phone as him? oooh~ ^^,)

butbut~ i rather wait for a better phone uhhs. ((:
wahahas. aka~~ the Samsung OMNIA phone!
(crap shit sia! goodness!
do you know how freaking ex the phone is?! >__< $628! -with contract ehh!)
*faints*

hahas. :P
or can i get the W760? or or~ the Samsung Touch phone? <3
kekes. i love them all uhhs! xD

lol. say one go watch wall.e, then no time liaos.
so... she went down to the mart to buy some stuff, while waiting for her friend to pick her up.
then i, myself, went to the toilet & then go play one game of para.
(gosh, it was dinner time... and i still had a lil' crowd! *claps*)

went down to meet my mum...
and then we walked briskly to century square's taxi stand.
hahahas. it was like, 'quick, quick! faster!' but i'm just lagging behind. heh.

hmmm. maybe my luck in the virtual world just sucks beacuse i'm a techy noob/retard.
cuz... i apparently have my luck back at having eye candies.
(yeah, that department. kekes.)
saw like 9 he-caught-my-attention~ guys. (basically, good looking or cute. hah.)

this guy working at the.... ermms. S&K shop outside TM located at covered linkway to CS.
he... caught my eye. LOL. X: -as i turned my head to the right. heh.
&&-- he kinda made the "kiss" sound just to call me again! LMAO. ;))
heard & turned ard to see him standing at the other entrance luhhs.
(can i like go back to that place tmr after school? uwahh~! xD)
SHHHH. X:

it happened to me yesterday too. LOL.
at the void deck opposite my block.
a grp of supposedly bengs & lians uhhs. some of the guys gave me whistles siol... LOL. X:
i didn't turn lahh. too close to turn liaos. wahahahas. xP

is it because of my tube top? O__O
(i wore a black one yesterday cuz i went out... and today, a white one.)
omg. someone tell me is that true.... ROFL. ;DD

anyways... all i can do now... at home... is just SLACK norr!
what to do...? )':

ohwells. it's bad uhhs. haiish. lol.
nvm. i go disturb ricky again. (with my msn scripts.)
muahahahahas. IT'S FUN.
MSN LIVE PLUS de SCRIPTS ARE F.U.N. :DD

so yeah....
i gtg luhhs. ^^v
cya peeps.
still love you guys even though i'm upset. lol.

do you know what 'ecchi' means? ;P

2008-08-25T15:31:00.003+08:00

roar! ;DD

*advertises*
go to: www.failblog.org
wahahahahs. xD

guarantee you'll have a happier day after looking at those photos & videos of FAILure.
:DDD

damn funny lahh~! ^^
and i'm going to link it up here in my blog.
(so i can entertain myself once in a while. kekes.)
and for all you ppl. xP

ricky did link it up! (:
go check his blog. imma nt bluffing. *grins*

hmmmm.
this just goes to show that... NOBODY'S PREFECT.
...in this world.
HAHA. xP

*ends advertisement*

weeee. LOL.
i'm having a long weekend this week.
no sch today. and tmr. ((x
'cause prelims are OVER!!!!!

for me.

wahahahas. ^^v

and today... i have the urge to love again. LOL.
am i turning a lil' desperate or what...?
O___O
like for guys???
LMAO.

hahas. i miss the feeling of being in love.
and i hate being single!

yet... i'm afraid of what the future will hold.

i wake up this morning...
without any emotions.

and i haven't been feeling like this for a very long time already.

(the last time i felt like this was when like sec 2 or 3.)

it's like...
i am missing someone, yet i don't know who he is.
it isn't any one of the guys i know.

hahas. just feeling very random today.

OHHHHH.
i freaking hell missed the closing ceremony of the Beijing Olympics!
OMG. T____T
i blur until i didn't know it was like yesterday, 8pm! O___O
eeyer... i hope they'll have a repeat telecast or something...
uwahhh. i missed the opening one.
and now, it's the closing one. =="

i live up to my blurness. ^___^v

hmmm.
still trying to train my chance. (c3 minimum!)
and ricky is a very demanding teacher! O.O
(must behave... and train well. xP)
wahahahahas. i'm getting the hang of the red keys i see now. ^^
&&-- there's 8k!! D:
i'm okay with 8k. but when the songs are fast... i cmi liaos. LOL.
ricky says... i'm lvl 17 alr~
need to learn how to chance... & do 8k lerhhhs...
so yeah. and he's helping muah. xD
and i really appreciate the effort! LOL. <3
soooo~
i'm going in there ltr to train somemore.
(cannot let him down! :O)

and i'll be probably thinking to change my IGN.
(to complement my dear ricky's IGN. *winks* -SO MISLEADING LAHH.)
and also leave the guild. (:

my guild leader is most probably MIA. or even deciding to quit audi le lorr.
dunno where he go. =="
leaving the guild hanging.
ohwells. i do not care that much anymore. ><"

i heard nuer is going to take over as the guild master.
GO AHEAD AND TAKE THEN.
muahahahahas. and revive the guild! it's FREAKIN' DEAD.
DD: -LOL.
or i'll leave! i've seen some leaving already worrs. X:

anyways...
even though it's a long weekend... i've got like nth much to blog about alr.
hahas. just gonna slack at home. ^^,
play audi~ listen to music~ watch tv~
and be a rock. LMAO.

won't start studying yet. heh.
until like next week. ;))

...........

my phone's SO slient uhhhs.
where have all the ppl go?! =___=
*sighs*

.i made a blog for him. but just with 2 post. LOL.
.a short story about our broken relationship.
.the past we had and we shared.
.the details are there, but i kept a part of the story in my heart.
.when we were together... until the day we broke up.
.haiish. you will be my one and only guy i love the MOST in my lifetime.
.but you're already gone. you'll never be back by my side.
.how am i supposed to tell you that?
.you'll never think i'm sincere and serious.
.but i really am.

i'm BORED lahh. *sulks*
something random! ROFLMAO.
buhbye peeps! x))
<33 many loves from me!

<3; fireworks.

2008-08-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO~ ;D

wahahas. i'm really back today! ^^v

ahhh. and as promised... the fireworks festival event!
woots~! it was a lasting-long 15 mins show! xD

too bad my phone's quality really sucked.
and i don't have a digital cam.

so no pretty photos lahh. D:
(but i tried taking a vid... and end up having 2 short clips lorr. LOL.)

lols. but i saw alot of ppl ard me, whipping out their phones & recording the whole show down.
O: (so envious luhhs!) hahas.

anyways...
(frm the beginning of my FRIDAY.)
hahas. i slept like 2 plus on friday...
but i still managed to finish my paper. ;D
AND GOT TO SLEEP. ^_^v
wahahahahas~~

echa & me.
walked in the rain tgt. ;D
never felt that good walking in the rain.
first time. (:

slacked at echa's house for a while...
(also to escape doing the housewrok at home. HEH.)
she changed to meet her friend.
and i kinda tagged along till the interchange.
but they were meeting somewhr else lahh.
so, we parted. and i started walking home.

still did a lil' folding of the clothes...
then slacked abit. took some time to think of what i wanna wear. LOL. X:
brought an extra top out. ^^,

and then, i went out.
luckily it stopped raining! x))
to meet ricky~! ;P
hahas. we planned to watch 'Money Not Enough 2'. @ AMK Hub.
(: -it was very cold lorrs! lol.
lucky i was wearing my long sleeved blouse~ xD

and i didn't know he bought the tickets...
the couple seats one. X:
O:~! LOL.
i was... surprised! hehes. ^^,

( he actually got it! O: )

bought bubble tea in~! my treat! ;))
then a box of sweet popcorn!~ hahas.

walked ard the arcade. very small. X:
(but i didn't expect to see the drum machine there when i saw it the other last time at eastpoint!)
goshhh... it was such a long time since i saw it lahh. ^^
it was FREAKIN' CUTE. ;DD
wahahahas. *grins*
i have their theme on my phone previously uhhs.

and then we stood outside the cinema for awhile.
before going in~ (:

I TELL YOU.
the show was FREAKING FUNNY. and TOUCHING. (T.T - i really cried.)
one of the BEST Jack Neo films EVER.
i give it 5 stars! xD
the starting was great! hokkien song. LMAO.
wahahas. super funny can! i really laughed VERY HARD.
(esp. at the finding the granny's bra! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.) xDD

go watch if you haven't!!!
a very cash-worthy movie. ^^

kinda rushed off after the show. ><"~
'cause i was kinda late alr uhhs.
(rickky msged me though! LOL. xD)
in the end. THEY were later then me. wahahahas.
( i meant jou & joey! ) blehhs. xP
and i was like so worried if we'll be able to catch the fireworks in time uhhs.

we didn't eat uhhs. hahas. all not hungry siol.
so we walked to marina square. ^^
(wanted to check out if he was there... well. no. D:) sad uhh.

went para-ing! xD
i'm happy to have a crowd... even though it wasn't as big as it was during national day.
hahas. not much dudes either! O:
LOL~ xP
but i had fun. so did they! (watching me... LMAO.)

then we walked to 7-11 to buy drinks & sweets. ^__^
hahas. and then, to the open space near the marina bay & the esplanade.

stood there and waited for the fireworks to start, with everyone else.
hahas. hot & crowded. X:

but then, it was worthwhile! xDD
GREAT FIREWORKS.
omg. better than national day derhh lorrs.

SERIOUSLY.

i love those looking like shooting stars uhh!
&& the sprial looking ones! also the purple & heart-shaped ones!
of course not forgetting my all time fave fireworks! xD
--the shimmer ones that look like golden palm trees! ^^v

slacked for a while more...
soon, joey left to join her mum.
leaving us. hahas.
we kinda walked across the Food Republic.
then, we kinda heard some guy singing I'm Yours by Jason Mraz.
i went hyped when i heard it! ;DD

LOL. stood outside looking at him playing the guitar & singing uhhs.
awwww~ <3
it was really a nice song uhhs. xD
hahas. but the guy was like. middle-aged. HAH.
ohwells.

then, he suddenly started singing Lips Of An Angel by Hinder!
LOL! and jou didn't want to leave anymore.
like. O___O -eeeps.
hahas. i wish i could stay but i can't.... so, i dragged her off. hahahas.
i have a tight time limit uhhs. *sighs*

played a last game back at marina square.
the crowd... woah. LOL. big. xP

and then jou walked me to the station. ;)
from there, we parted ways.
and i took the train home.
bought myself a McFlurry to eat on the way home in the bus.
in the end, i got locked out of the house. =="

RETARDED right?!

LMAO. pressed the doorbell, nobody answered.
kao... all sleep like log liaos.
lock me outside. T___T
RAHHHHH.
had to wait until my mum came home uhhh.
(heng, there was ricky to accompany me to talk.) kekes.

took a bathe.
then msg some dudes. LOL. hahas.
and. KO. xD
i fell asleep. X:

that's my friday for you! ^^

abt today.
nth much ehhs.
just stayed at home slack lorrs.

tried audi-ing.
DAMN LAG. UNTIL I GOT REALLY PISSED.
and i deproved LOADS.
really cmi siol. esp.... my chancing! DDD:
and got ricky all annoyed too. :(
><"~~ eeps.
imma gonna train more! i swear...
hahas. been playing BU until i forget all my 4k too uhhs. ooops.

having my fun on msn.
wahahas. talking to all sorts of ppl. LOL.
mainly guys. X:
esp. this guy. frm the states.
COOL uhhh. ;D
(he's here in singapore worrs. JUST come siol. hah.)
X: - the thing is that....
he is... ermm. looking... emo-ly CUTE. xD
(those i-wish-he-was-mine-cuz-damn!-HE'S-CUTE kinda look. xD)
OMG lahh. jou's envious uhhs. xP
weeeee~

gtg already! cya peeps. <3

i'm BACK.

2008-08-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

LOL. only back OFFICALLY when the prelims are finally over.
which is like tomorrow uhhs.

let's see.

it's been quite a while since i updated.
hahas. don't know what to say siol. X:

yeah! got back my phone!
was in a happy mood yesterday(?)
lol. maybe. ^^,

and i'm in the need give out my love(<3) vibes! ;P
who wants them~?

hmmm.
i think i'm going to do BADLY for prelims.
yeah, cuz i know myself. (didn't really study much.)
it's like i don't know why we have to study so hard...
just to get a cert. a piece of paper that determines your future. X:

and if you don't do well...
you'll be looked down upon by MANY.
= not good for health. physically & mentally. O__O

haiish. so...
i'm trying to seek opinions. (:
to see what we are studying for.

a better life in the future?
to have a better choice of your career?
get better guys?

LOL. so stereotypical.
*shakes head*

counsel me anyone?

(:

anyways, i've taken on a great liking being a CLUB DJ.
really serious about it.
just that... the 2 turntables are going to be EXPENSIVE.
plus a mixer.
goodness. and then, there's the space limit. (in my room.)
shucks.
(this is THE problem.) *sulks*

.
.
.
SERATO SCRATCH LIVE ROCKS. <3

LOL. xDD
and the ppl who KNOWS how to work them like a pro!~
really! ((:
they have vids on youtube lahh. hahas.
thanks to feroz. (for telling me AND inspiring the spark in me. LOL.)

now, all i need is the CONNECTIONS. X:
hahas. lol~

hmmm... have been following the music scene.
suddenly, black music caught me in quite a frenzy for a while. hahas.
akon & all his production. LOL.
now, i'm back to my normal self. hahas.
lil' random here. X:

oh. and something shocking. ^^v

i slit open with a penknife, on the side of my lappy bag just to get my lappy and get online.
(it was locked. WITH KEYS. rmb?) X:
i did a ppt. for rick on that day too. O:

i've probably gone insane.
hah. and i'm just hoping that she'll never ever find out.
even though the hole is fucking big. X:
seriously.

AHHH. shhh.

oooh. X:
the 2-mth period is finally over.
and i've given up ALL HOPE on him alr.
because, by now, he'd already moved on... and perhaps, with another girl.
and if i still have not... it would really SUCKED, wouldn't it?

so... yeah.
besides... it's been so long.
the feelings shld also be all gone by now too. x(
ohwells. i might still think of him every now and then...
love him like i used to, secretly in my heart, every now and then.
and probably till the day i die. X:

AHHHH.
yeshhhhhh!
WALL. E ~~~!! xDD
OMG. it's coming to our shores in 28 august lah!
and i think it's going to be a SMASHING movie uhh! xD
box offices are going to be booming with business! (:
hahas. 'cause this show is a very cute one....
to me...

errr. more like...
just a very simple love story. between 2 robots.
and what they'll go though to be together. ^__^v ~<3

and most of all, the kids will LOVE it.
( toy'r'us are like selling their toys like right in front of their doorsteps can!)
and parents of kids WILL definitely bring their kids to watch lahh.

similar to Money Not Enough 2.

wahahas. cuz i went screamin' and squealin' when i saw the toys today~
(and at the CUTE trailers at their home page previously.)
*giggles* - really uber cute nahh. ^^

events happened loads last weekend. (random note.)

and i'll be packed with activities this friday uhhs! xD
movie date with ricky~!
LOL. then... there'll be fireworks at marina bay siol! DD:
(i'll be going to watch!! i don't care! xP)
wahahahas.

just a short update...
i'll be back the day after tmr uhhs. most probably.
lols. so got more things to update! x))
rahhh~ ;DD
love you guys loads! <33
see ya ard! ^^v
kyahhh~ i'm feeling really random....
izzit due to over-stress? LOL. idk.
lalalalalas~ *poofs*
don't chase horr! xDD

here's one word. or more than that.

2008-08-14T15:32:00.005+08:00

lalalalas~
(looks likes i'm gonna say more than just one word lahh.)
like jayden's idea ehh? LOL. xP
well, the credits of this idea to him!
(don't say i never credit him, kays?) X:

anyways...
the prelims have officially started.
and i'll be very busy studying for the next few weeks.
(yeah, right. but i'll try my VERY BEST to REALLY STUDY.)

there're some lil' events coming up though...
17th aug- vicson's bday. (:
18th aug- MY EL O LEVELS ORAL. O__O
also... it's edmund's bday. we aren't even on talking terms anymore... *sighs*
19th aug- my phone's BACK. xD

after that, 3 more days... and,
PRELIMS OVER! ;DD

blahh. iiex see twits at maii tagboard! lolxz!

GOSH. X:
i shld NOT DO that. heh.
it's so not me. :S

i miss my phone.
i miss being in love.
i miss him.
i miss the good life i had previously.

X: -i'm just being random.

ahh.
for entertainment purposes. ((:

www.notpon.com
I SWEAR THAT YOU GUYS WILL DO THIS RIDDLE UNTIL YOU WANNA TEAR ALL YOUR HAIR OUT, I TELL YOU.
....
LMAO. xP
i nearly did siol. X:
got stuck at level 5 or something... ><"
it's SERIOUSLY TOUGH.
UNLESS~~~ you're a html genius.
(unfortunately, i'm.... NOT.) -hmph.
do this when you're SERIOUSLY BORED.
and have ALOT of time to spare. ^^,
139 levels total.
only 167 are CERTIFICATED for finishing the game.
omg. and it's not even O-N-E percent yet. DD:

GOOD LUCK.

(i will seriously call you a PRO if you go through ALL the levels WITHOUT help.
like NO HELP AT ALL.)

hmmm.
i'll be back!
(maybe with photos too! stay tuned!)

SLACKEDout.

2008-08-11T16:49:00.003+08:00

lalalas~

i'm at home! xDD

LOL lahh.
today's a school holiday! ^^v
thanks to NATIONAL DAY being on saturday!
wahahahas.

and i'm actually slacking with my lappy~ ((:

(when i should be studying like a NERD.)

since i'm like so free/bored....
i took the time to go update myself on the other bloggers' life.
all those at my blog roll~ xP

it's been a LONG while since i've been there lahh.
so, i popped them a visit! ;D

(sounds like i'm talking... famously.) LOL. X:

anyways...
i see that they're all very busy with life~!

and as for me... D:
my room's in a mess.

my love history/life's in a wreck.

my studies... aren't like what you except a top student would be doing or having.

RAHHH.
what's going on with me and my life?
*complains once again*

instead of sitting here and typing it all out,
ranting non-stop about it... i shld be doing SOMETHING to CHANGE MY LIFE.

SERIOUSLY!!!! D:<

~but i just dunno where to start!

zzzzz.... =____=

sian.
i'm gonna be stuck in this situation at least till the Os are over lehhhs.

someone please give me suggestions to change my life...?
(other than going for a complete makeover, cuz it's such a standard answer.)

here's a link i got from my present giver! xDD
LOL.

it's all abt the big big talk or FIGHT (as some would name it... whatever.) between Xiaxue & Dawn Yang.
i've been hearing abt them... views on them and the fight lahh~~
whatever is happening at the blogsphere. DD:
they have even links for them! go check it out or something.

http://www.theliesofdawn.blogspot.com/

it's just basically someone SLAMMING her. (:
digging out all her secrets.

ahahas. wonder if i can find one for xiaxue. LOL.

(lazy go find. HAH.)

ahhh. actually... this thing has been going on for such a long time le lahhs!
O___O
isn't anyone bored of it already?!
diaos... ohwells.
i shld shuddup in case i get into trouble unwittingly.

hmm....
so, abt yesterday? lol.
nth much actually.
basically, i just summarised it all lorr.
LMAO. xP

after blogging SUCH A DAMN LONG POST...
i rewarded myself to playing audi for a while!! xDD

had the sudden urge to play BeatUp. ^^ (aka BU.)
played the songs i loved...
and sorta trained too~

i'm going to play some more later! xD
train train train~~ ;P
for this event coming up at the end of the mth! ((:
(just nice prelims over!! xD woots~)

andand~
has anyone heard of...

FLOORFILLA?

^^v
i think their songs are great lahh!
freaky techno-ish~~! <3
CHECK THEM ALL OUT AT IMEEM. xDD
i found the remix for 5 anthems.
it's pretty fast lahh! DD:
lmao~ ;)

and i've downloaded the party mix & the 6th anthem (but only 2 mins! ==") on limewire luhhs!

that shows how in to Floorfilla i am.

i personally love the 2nd & 4th the best! xD

wahahahas. thanks to someone that i got interested in this. ^^,

hmmmm. should i go private my blog?
or create a new anonymous blog where i can REALLY scream/rant/scold/slam/talk/chat abt?

hehes.
anyways...
i'll be pretty much slacking at home...
then i'll tend to think so much until i emo...
until i rmb everything (good & bad) abt my past...
then, that's really bad.

cuz i lazy to study.
or maybe i shld STUDY to shift my focus bahhs.

BETTER. (:

or~
maybe i just need company.

:D

ROFL. ;DD

anyways... dinner's arriving.
and i'm done crapping today.
LOL. feeling so random too.
i just can't keep myself to think properly today.
sooooo~ yeah. don't mind me ehh? xP

PRELIMS SUCKS. DDD:<

cya ard peeps! <3
bye~! ;D
*runs*

full of events! X:

2008-08-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

ahhhh. i heck the html for that previous post lahhh.
RAHHHHH.
shit this blogger.
i'm getting irritated le lahhs. )x

LOLS.
actually~
those 2 post are kinda late...
hahahas.
thanks to blogger... i can do this late posting thing! LOL.

(so blogger has its' gd and bad times... X:)

anyways...

i had my fair share of fun in the day. (:

played para after echa left~
(we were deciding if we shld eat at whr~ LOL.
which took us like SUCH A LONG TIME. lmao.)

then i danced the afternoon away! ~
(not night... LOL. ;P)

made a new friend!
he plays para too! O:
and he's frm siglap sec lehhs.
(they had their sports day at the stadium lorrs... same day! X:)
too bad he's younger than me.
and he's just average. (:

ooh. saw my para buddies too~! ^^v
so glad to see 'em there lahhs.
thought i would be dancing alone again... ><"
and really didn't expected they would be there worr. xD

lols! i enjoyed your company, guys! ^^v
(and i know i owe someone munnay. X:)

muahahas. i will return! i SWEAR. X:

lols. i was practically BROKE on that day lahh!
zzzz~
shld have gone home to take more $$$ out.

but still...
i went out with my present giver on national day's eve. ^^
wahahas. xD
i got a free show at the cinema @ EHUB. ;D

he did do a review of The Mummy: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor.

hahas.
it really sucked that bad? D:

but i thought it was okay! ><"

LMAO.
well... the show kinda ended quick. X:
and the storyline is just like so predictable lahh.

i kinda just got scared a lil' here and there cuz i just wasn't prepared lahh! D:
lolololol~ xP

so maybe... it's NOT that good, i guess. hahas.

saw my english tutor at the MRT station while waiting for him to finish his drink!
(my fave drink esp lahh! RAHHH.)
did talk to her for a while lorrs. ((:

i enjoyed the day out with him uhhs! ;D

hmm....

night arrives, and my mood changes.
started feeling guilty & depressed.
idk why really. haiish.

i'll still & can remember the date.
not forgetting it one bit.
i tried my very best to put it out of my trail of thoughts...
yet it got me at the end of the day...
ohwells. X:
*sulks*
it would be our 3rd mth anniversary.
that is if we were STILL together...
*sighs*

tried calling jou. hoping that i'll feel better if i could talk to her.
rahhh. but she didn't pick up the phone lahh~ ):
ohwellls.... soooo~
i just stone the night away lorrs. until i fell asleep. heh.

anyways...
i enjoyed my NATIONAL DAY with jou! <3
weeee~~
i went on a date with her just after a phone call~ ;DD

dressed in a checked red&white with black suspenders dress!
with my ever-favourite emo knee high socks and sneakers~ :DD
so patriotic lahh.

ohhh. we bought 3 freaking mentos frm this guy.
which cost like any amount.

but to me...
each one was like GOLD.
so expensive lahhh~ DD:
LMAO. 2 bucks each lehhs! O____O
ohwells...

wahahahas.
suddenly, i felt like i anti-ed guys this few days lorrs!
LMAO.
lalalalas~ xD
just didnt try talking to them only lahh.
looking is still a MUST for me! x))
random! xP

went to marina square 1st.
to find that guy she's been eyeing.
haiiyo. but he wasn't there lahh. so sad luhhs. D:
went back there quite a few times...
ohwells. >__<"

and then we went to the arcade!
(YESH. national day = a cause for celebration = go out = GUYS.)
lols. in short... it means the arcade will be full of dudes.
and nt forgeting the girls. (:
plus the ahlians & ah bengs oso lahh. ^^

danced.
a crowd came.
lols. ^^v
i just love the attention lahhs. ;)

the guys dancing there were okays lahh.

and i felt generous that day.

went out to check the timings at the cinema.
to see if we could watch The Dark Knight.
but... blahhh.
all the gd ones are all sold out lahhs. x__X

kept visiting the toilet too lahh! ROFL.
it's abt my fringe too lahh.
when i perspire, it curls. and that SUCKS.
roar. ):
blehhs. imagine all that dancing lahh.
so my fringe is like.... O:
argh. had to keep fixing it. hahas.

bought our own food.
sat at the stairs to eat.
it was raining lahh. X:
(what a spoilsport the weather is.)
it was the air show and all happening at that time. ^^
hahas. the parachuters, the helicopters bringing in the flag & the fighter jets!
i know it's the singaporeans' favourite. (:
except for jou. LOL.

apparently. we knw this guy lahh... X:
online. ahahahs. xP
talked a lil' on him. and his fetishs. ((x
LMAO. okays.... SHHH.

anyways... continuing~~
we went to the Singapore Flyer to check out the fireworks.
and damn... there were alot ppl there too lahhs.
hahas. X:

and the wheel was BIG.
my neck kinda ached looking at it lahhs. lol.

sat somewhere on the wooden floor, waiting for it to start.

couldn't really see it lahhs.
the road was blocking lorrs. =="

thoses ppl in the flyer, GOOD LAHHH.
they have the BEST VIEW lorrs! DD:<

LMAO~ not fair uhhs. X:

it was like...
fireworks!
pause.
some people leaving.
then, some MORE fireworks!
pause. and people leave again.
BOOOM~ ((:
some more! LOL. xDD

ahahahas. too bad for those who left early lahh! xP

slacked there for a lil' longer... after everything finished.
a grp of guys & girls came. to sit beside us. LOL.

and then... songs started to play!
all those feel-like-dancing songs lahh.
and i really started to dance. a lil'... hehes. ;DD

had a lil' attention. LOL. DD:
jou was just watching me dance. ^^,
hehes.

and then we headed back to marina square once again. hahas.

(ohh. saw darren&his girl there. X:
didn't really say anything oso lahh.)

anyways...
i went back to the arcade to have my last game! xDD
and this time... my crowd was HUGE.
alllllrights!!!! *squeals* <3
damn~
and there was this guy in all white!
which reminded me of mervin... lol.
he was standing in front row to watch me dance! :S

and then i took a rest! ^^
watched the others danced...
and there was this guy who played the DRUMS really like a PROOO lahh! xDD
omg! *bows*
he's nt bad looking either worrs! xP
*claps* -for his great performance! ^^

after that~ i went back to watch the others play....
there were the grp of malay guys trying to dance para lahh!
so cute sehh! xD
esp the white one! (echa, you WISHED you were there, i tell you.)
muahahahas. *grins*

noticed alot of malays were out too. LOL.

hmmm~ after dancing...
the crowd stretched from my left, to behind the para machines, till beside the House Of The Dead 4 machine lahh! LONG siol! O:
also, i had ppl clapping for me lahhs! xDD
i did bow! ^^v
and this guy went, 'good!' and showed a thumbs-up to me.
awww~! ((x
thank you! <3

weeee~~!
i kinda hopped out the arcade~ feeling all bouncy and happy! xDD
the guys were like pointing at me luhhs. for idk what. =="
and then to the toilet to fix my ever crappy fringe lorrs. X:

LOL. that's abt it! DD:
damn long larhhs. z__Z

hahas. no more time to say abt today lerh lahhs.
heh. nth much oso anyways.
just stayed at home lorrs. wanted to go out one...
for the mission thing. blahhh~
no mood lorrs. X:

so i'm just here blogging lorhhs!
telling you guys what had happened these two days lahh...

the previous two posts were probably the shortest ever. lol.
maybe?? idk lahh. being random luhhs.

see if i can blog tmr.
and then, i'll just crap abt today.
hope it won't bore you guys! LOL. ;P

and i'm off to the toilet~! O:
LMAO. and then, lights off!
cya guys! thanks for being here! ;))
manyloves.

09august2008. 43yearsold.

2008-08-09T20:57:00.004+08:00

ahhhh~ ><" who's that old?! O:
not really old for a nation! ^^,
i know i'm... errrr. late! DD:
but i still wanna say~~~
...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

weee~~! xDD
LOLOLOLOL.
happy 43rd birthday singapore! ^^,

happy birthday to you~
you're 41 plus 2!
if ERPs are reduced...
everyone will LOVE you!

OMG. xDD
i love you! <3

*screams*
i wore red today just to support my love for you!

*screams some more & runs*
cya ltr! (:

feeling good today. really.

2008-08-07T16:12:00.003+08:00

ahhh. i'm back.
hehes. ((:
and i just downloaded the new songs in auditionSEA. xD
oohhhyeah. ^__^v

i did put up the website before! and~~
i shall put it up again! xDD
must bookmark arhh! *advertises*
hehes. x))
-only for audi lovers! <3

it's where i get ALL my audition songs from! xDD
there's even the old songs too!
(just scroll all the way down, SLOWLY.)
wahahahas. :P

i just didn't download like EVERY single one of them lahh~ ><"
too many liaos! D: -lol~

>>> www.auditionmp3.co.cc! <<<

alrights~! ;DD
wahahas.
was dancing to the new songs in the bathroom.
(yes... i brought my lappy with me to bathe. LOL.)
my lappy is my only source of my fave songs mahhs! xP

lalalalas~
and horrr... DAMN my own menstrual cycle luhhs...!
i want to complain! DDx

(but complaining is just gonna make me FEEL better only lahh. blehhs.)
can't even solve anything. S:
ohwells. anyways~! X:
it's been tiring today lahh~
~~menses.~~ CRAP.

then still got PE.
O___O~
omg~~ X:

PE = exercise! = moving ard LOADS. = TIRINGGGG.
DDD:

LMAO~
but from now on, i offically declare that...
I LOVE P.E!!!!

damn! it was our last lesson for this term lorrs.
*sighs* -after that, it's our prelims.
ohwells. T___T

but i had fun! REALLY. ;DD

we had fun basically! ^^,
hahas. LOL. and we played captain's ball at the carpark/parade square.
it means.... A HUGE COURT. O:
oooh~ plus mr. lien says : NO BOUNDARIES!
no boundaries lehhh!!! xDD
ALRIGHTS. xP

adding to the excitiment was having TWO BALLS in the court! xD
(sounds so wrong lehhs. eeks. zzzzz~)
but anyways... LMAO.
it's like damn tiring lahh! LOL.
gotta like focus on one ball... throw away le...
then here comes the next one! D:
goodness...! X:
hahas. everyone had a great time!
and i could actually see that PE time is the only time where the class really BONDS.

we OWNNNNNNEDDDD their asses, man! COMPLETELY.
at least for the first 2 matches! xDD
OHHHHYEAAHHHH~~~

LMAO. got owned back at the last one cuz we're all beat...
PLUS got two TEACHERS help them lehhs! O:
not fair nehh! hahas. (: -still fun lahh.

(the people in the opponent's team were the good players one lehh!
those byatches and their guy friends. X: all quite fit one ehhs! O.O)
but they no tactic! HAH.
team spirit not there norr. xP
and we're considered the weaker lot.

HAH. who says we can't win?!
ownage~~~ ((:

and the rugby ball got cursed by echa~
X: -it broke her favourite finger! DD:
LOL. (:

i felt extremely good today. ^^,

but i just want to stone again~ X:
so cya! X:

*poofs*

too early for reflections?

2008-08-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

i'm bored.
and this week is like so slack lahh.
lol. even though it's the prelims' mth already...

half the week's gone.
lol. and 13 more days to getting my phone back. (:

one day.
i shld go do up a will.

LOL. X:
random lahh.

and these few days...
i have very mixed feelings. X:

lemme crap a lil' bit.

i don't know what's up with me.
or my heart.
or what's with my life.

i feel happy at times...
but everything seems so superficial to me.
it's just so surreal.

and i wonder if it'll ever last.

loving someone else is tough.
(and i don't think i'm capable of it already...)
treasuring the people & the things around me isn't an easy task either...

then, comes the sad times... when i emo & all those shit.
keep on probing on my mistakes...
and not move on.
then... emotion overloads, and tears come rolling down my cheeks.
argh. i hate myself when i become like that.

get angry & i lose my control.
can't think straight/rationally.
kick up a fuss & behave like a brat.

sometimes...
even though i tried to find out who the heck i was these past 2 years...
i still don't really know who i am & what i am here for.

to live this life for who?
myself?
if it was for myself... i would have long given up.
and probably ended my life years ago.
just wondering why & what actually kept me going...

the ppl around me? those who cared for me?
maybe.

or for love?

but my heart has been broken too many times.
and it's turning into ice again.
sometimes... it melts.
then freeze... and melt again.
hah. is that what you call the word, fluctuation?

yes, i'm thankful for the people respectively, who made turning points in my life.
those bad or good.
from them... and what i've gone through with them...
gave me lessons each.
and i mature each time i go through an experience.

still stuck at a child-at-heart behaviour.
because that is what's keeping me optimistic.

hah. and this is also probably why i'm still living!

wishing for that day when i can put down everything...
and leave this hectic world to live in peace.
and just stone myself away~. X:
(well, at least i'll be worrying less for myself & the others.)

or just turn back time to change my history.
maybe things will turn out better rather than this.
omg. blehhhs. T-T

ahhh...
i don't want to think so far yet.
like what i'm going to do after my poly years.
that's already too far for me...
well, that's me for you.
i just take each day as it comes...

for now...
i'm just contended with what i have.
i don't ask for more...
but i wish everything that's beneficial for me will STAY.
and those aren't should LEAVE.

ahahas.
'i'm not afraid to keep on living.'
an avatar pic i came across.
LOL. i shld strengthen myself to be like that too~ X:

ahhhh.
Say (All I Need) - One Republic.
the MV is shot in PARIS worrs~~ ;DD
&& the lyrics are meaningful. (:
a very good song to reflect on!
i've heard the band interpreting this song's meaning too...
they say... this song tells us to be contended with what you have or something liddat.
hahas. x))
well... i am now. ^^v

lalalas~
ahhh. after crapping...
or just voicing out...
i feel better now. lol. X:

i wanna audi for a while... ;)
and then... someone remind me that...
i have to study! O:
AND to wash the damned dishes.

LMAO. it's my daily duty as a daughter lahh.
what crap/nonsense.

but it's morally true.
what to do....?! ><"

lalalas~
i just wanna stone and slack and laze around lahh!!!
yet i know i can't.
rahh. D:<
blehhs. being sixteen sucks.

well... sometimes. LOL.

anyways~ i'll get going!
cya peeps. thanks for staying till here with me. LOL. ;P
now, i'll just make myself scarce.
*disappears* ~O___Ov

emo: yes or no?

2008-08-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

as you have seen...
or noticed...
my blog colours have changed. (:

to just 4 colours.
white.
black.
pink.
and...
black.

hahas.
machiam copy my nuer's fave colour liddat lorrs. xD

LOL. but i had the urge to have this colours lehh.
hahas. X:
ohwells~ (:
i chose the colours cuz they have meanings~!
at least to me lahh... heh.

white is just to complement the other colours.
i'm feeling all sad & emo this few days...
and then... yet i hope for that i'll have a better tomorrow each day.
*sighs*
that's grey, black & pink for you.
lol.

hmm....
yesterday's SS paper and science practical sucked lahh! DD:
omg... i didn't complete all questions for both can... T-T
(SS is sure fail one lahh. confirm.)
just hope my science practical will pass worrs! ^^v
*cross fingers*

anyways...
today's english papers were okay~ (:
(though i didn't finish paper one lahh. omg! ><")
hahas. on biofuels for paper two.
i oso not geog student ehh~ lmao. ;P
but i think it was relatively easy bahhs~ heh.

this week's the National Day week...
so abit more slack ahh~ hahas. X:

my blog oso haven't really gone MIA either lorrs. LOL. X:

just played a lil' audi.
and still using my com at risk lahh.
LMAO.

can't wait till i get my phone back.
2 more weeks! ^^
and there will be photos up!
PROMISE! ;DD

ahhh. i gtg lerhhs. D:
very scared that i'll get caught or something lahhh.
besides, i still hv sch tmr worrs.
omg. that reminds me...
THERE'S AN EMATHS TEST TMR.
i haben really go study yet.
crap.

i'll just get ready...
set...
*poof!*

it's august & just full of surprises. / i love you, domokun! <3

2008-08-02T18:26:00.003+08:00

lalalalalas~! xDD
yupps! imma back! X:
SHHH. i'm just here for some quick updates.

hahas. ((:
apparently, my mum let muah use the lappy today.
so, i'll just blog! heh. ;P

some (quicky) updates! ...on me and the things happening ard me! :

-i met up with jason on thursday and ricky, today~ (:
they aren't bad looking though.
say... average looking? xD
hahas. i had my share of fun with the two of them... LMAO.
sounds wrong siol. X:
(hey, i'm still single and i hv the freedom to choose kays!)

-&& THANK YOU, RICKY~!
arigato uhhs!! *grins*
i really love my domokun loads~~!! xDD
damn, he's SOOOOOO CUTE NEHH~ *swoons*
LMAO! ^^v
*hugs domokun tightly* <33
he's sitting on my lap watching me blog! LOL~ ;DD

-my mum ACTUALLY LET ricky into my house siol.
OMG lahh. O:
i was really surprised that she would let him in ehhs!
i mean, we aren't doing anything wrong... LOL.
we really STUDIED.
but the thing is that... i've always thought if i were to bring a guy home...
i just wonder if she WILL let anort...
or what my mum would think lah~. ><"
then, nag nag nag. omg. =="

-imma still not studying PROPERLY.
it's just looking through my txtbks...
flipping the pages here and there.
OMG. i knw i shld be studying like really hard NOW.
but idk what i even want now. =="
haiish. idk sometimes what am i doing to my life lorrs. ><"
it's like i'm abt to destroy my life once again. X:
argh. my mind's in a mess. seriously.

-i just SCARED THE SHIT HELL OUTTA my mum.
heh. my shirt dropped down... and i couldn't reach it.
lols. i know it was dangerous lahh. but i hecked it anyways...
and still used a chair to prop my body outta the window.
so, my body was like halfway out sehh. X:
and that particular scene SERIOUSLY FREAKED my mum out.
LOL. ><"~ i'm sorry lahhh! Dx
but if i were to die today... i wouldn't have any regrets. (:

-because... he called today.
it seriously took me by surprise lahh! DD:
LMAO. X: ... ^^v (heh.)
i thought who the heck would call me arhh... ><"
hahas. and i thought that he'll never call me again~.
it was painful yet pleasant to hear his voice again...
and to have those flashbacks... (:
we all do have changes, don't we?
those were really the times i would never ever forget.
if only time could be reversed...
ohwells~. 20th august isn't here yet anyways... heh.
i'll just be waiting for your call.

-there's a Garden Party happening today @ the Central Park! xD
omg. imma wanna go lehhs!
it's like soooo damn grand can~~ ((:
&&-- i love the lights hanging on the trees! esp. at night siol! ;D
it's SOOOOO PWEEETTYY at night arhhs! ^^v
maybe i shld tell my mum to let me go there for a while... heh. xP

-i'm addicted to WHENIGROWUP.
lmao. yeahh~! xD
i might just cheorograph my own dance moves instead of learning the routines.
probably similar to the vid? hahas. ^^,
i think it's WAY hotter. ;)

-i can't wait for my phone to be back.
it's coming this 19 august. 17 days more lorrs.
but i've gotta switch back to my samsung phone lerhhs...
echa wants the phone back norrs. *sulks*
... ohwells. she needs it anyways. X:
and as long as there's the sms function... i'm contended. HAH. xP
blehhs. anyways... i'll be getting a new phone on 12 nov. xD
(can't wait!)

-i'm offically BROKE.
my savings are almost depleted.
and i'm starving myself this week lorrs.
but not everyday lahh! sometimes...
i would skip recess and lunch arhh...
ate very lil' for dinner too. X:
oops.
i'm just kinda desperate to save money lahh.
but the ironic thing is that... my savings are almost gone!
ROFL. =="
aiyoooo~ it went to overspending on food...
and playing too much games, i think. ><"

-i really wanna go out to watch the fireworks during national day!
and the kallang wave event thingy the next day lehhs~~ DD:
dunno whether if my parents would let mahh... eeps.

that's about it bahhs! ^^,
it's actually kinda long right? HEH. xP

now... i'm going to eat my dinner.
then, i'll audi for a lil' while.

RAHH. iLy, domokun! xDD *hugs again*

i miss jou~~ && PLEASE CALL ME SOON. DD:
ahhhh. *sulks*
we've gotta meet up after the prelims kays...!? xD

okays. that was random. X:

LOL.
i'll get going...
cya peeps!~ LOVEYA. ^^

wheniGROWUP~... ;D (BLOGgoesMIAonceagain.)

2008-07-29T20:09:00.001+08:00

downloading songs now~ LOL.
when i should be studying lahh. =="

lmao. X:
i'm starting to love this song!
When I Grow Up by PCD.
their MV ROCKS too~! xD
when i grow up, i wanna see the world, drive nice cars, have groupies~
and i thought..
have ~~boobies~~! OMG.

LMAO~ ><" hear wrong sia! until i go check the lyrics~! LOL! X:

ahahahas! and i found out that many ppl have trouble figuring it out whether it was groupies or boobies! ROFL~! :DD

(so i'm not the only one ehh...)

and DAMN... the dance moves are totally hot.
imma gonna learn them!
from youtube. duhh. LOL.
probably a way to de-stress for PRELIMS. x))

....

anyways... this is probably my last entry for this mth too. D:
after this, i'll get my ass off here. SERIOUSLY.
to start studying. X:

i even gotten out my study plan liaos!
it's like studying/revising & having exams all at the same time for almost one whole damn mth!
OMG lahh.
therefore, i would MOST PROBABLY go MIA quite a number of times nxt mth. ><"

mode: hiatus.

okays~ back to blogging!
LOL. i know i haven't been updating myself at the blog polls at the side there~DDx >>>
haiish. i promise i soon will! ><"

and i'm currently trying to save munnnnayyy~
so. i kinda starved myself today.
and ate instant noodles & porridge. hahas. X:
imma sure get scolding... but i'm doing for a cause!
(LOL. sounds like some BIG thing liddat lorrs...)
no lahh. just for my savings... and something personal. hehes.

BY THE WAY.
I'M STILL SINGLE HORR.

not attached lahhs! ==''
lols. i'm single but my heart's taken.~ ((:

ahahahas. xP

my mum's not home again...
and i'm using the lappy~ MY LAPPY.
muahahahas! ;))

(i did use yesterday too, but nvr blog luhhs. kekes.)
i found the key to the lock for my lappy bag! LOL. X:
but i won't be here for too long lahhs. ><"~
SHHH. kekes.

talked to ricky...
blog-hopped abit...
listened to my fave songs...
checked my friendster...
(and ended up visiting his friendster... he updated his profile~)

-[ emo-s for a while... ><"
haiish. Bye Bye by Mariah Carey.
the lyrics are meaningful~ )x
and this is really for the people who just lost somebody.
like me.
and i will never say bye bye~ (:
because...
the memories will continue to live somewhere in my heart.
and the love will always be the same... it'll never change.
argh. keep on listening, and i'll start to really cry liaos. )': ]-

done. phew~
LOL. X:
now, it's RAIN! ;D
lmao~ i basically love music lahhs! ^^v

and then...
imma going to do some art for jou, ricky & echa. <3
kekes. won't reveal what's it yet. ;P

hmmm.
also, my tuition for maths and science have been cancelled.
sometimes... i wonder if it's the right decision.
but since i've already done it... ahhh.
heck. i just have to study even harder now.
and all by myself. lol. X:
ohwells.

nth much this week oso.
all revisions and papers... =__="
lols. all i need is to be sleeping early this few days...
been very tired in class lehhs.
can't pay attention nor do my own revision.
someone please remind me to sleep early so i can study well & focus! rofl.

ahhh. my songs are all downloaded.
random. xD

going to eat soon too. x))

LOL.
and my audi~ going MIA too!
siann nahh~ ):

and my internet explorer has problems lahh.
it's working like the OLD internet explorer.
the one where you have opens windows and open more windows...
RAHHHH. DD:<

because the tabs aren't working!
it hangs up my whole screen and it turns BLANK WHITE. =="
omg uhhs. pissed. X:

anyways...
grats to prince and his cpl~ LOL.
shldn't have slammed her. but i think she still is one anyways.
SHHH. X:
don't really have a gd impression of her.. but...
whatever happens to their love life isn't my business le lahhs! Dx

hmmm.
what else can i crap?

OHYARHH.

rickky has a new nicckkkyy~~! ;DD
....
it's~~
SANTA.
muahahahahas.
who ask him laugh like santa nahh!
hohoho~ =="
LMAO. *grins*

BUT. he's vertically enhanced horrs!
not horizontally. hmph.
stupid guy at his blog.
RAHHHHH~ shhhhooooo~ go away!
*takes a broom and sweeps him out*

kekes. xDD

andand...
*whispers*
ev'i tuc lla eht eerht stcatnoc i desu ot trilf htiw.
esuaceb i raews taht fi i reve teg ykcir. ll'i od ti.
m'i suoires! yllaer!
s'ti osla esuaceb i tnaw ot yats lufhtiaf ot mih.
dna i t'nac esol rehtona erar hctac ekil mih.
i t'nac.
i tsol ym xe eud ot taht nosaer. dna i t'nod tnaw ot taeper ym ekatsim.
*sighs*
eeps. X:
*end of whisper*

X: -it's not a hidden msg, but it's something you shld decode. LOL.
*hints* ~MSNwillhelp. i think.

muahahahahas.
okays. i need to go eat liao lahhs.
won't be here much often as i'm starting to become a bookworm!
ROFLMAO. xDD
weeee~ ohhkays! so...
i'll see ya all nxt mth! buhbye<3~!

he just hit me with his <3~! D:

2008-07-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

and i'm in 'hospital.' LMAO.
lols.

suddenly, i feel like emo-ing...
it's not because i-am-sad-therefore-i-will-start-emoing that kinda mood.
haiish.
i'm in love once again...
and missing someone really hurts.

*pokesmyself*

ouch.

LOL.

i just finished watching this show on cable TV, channel 55.
the show's called 'Heart Of Greed'.
(better know in hanyu pingyin in chinese, ' Tang Xin Feng Bao'.)
it's a great show!~ (:

but the last minor part of the whole story really touched me.
till tears flow outta my eyes... )':

it's the part where Zhi-an wanted to leave to South Africa...
and Chang Zaixin was actually sad abt him leaving.
the night before he finally proposed to Chang Zaixin...
she could finally put Alfred, her ex, down.. and move on.
and then... the two of them were talking~
blahh blahh blahh~ abt the lovey dovey but in a serious tone kinda manner.
lmao. but...
omg~ i was like soooooo.... touched.
it's like they've been through so much.
(in the show, at least uhhs. lols.)
and it made me realised that we shld really cherish our loved ones while we still can.
also, say something you really want to them fast...
before you start regretting for the rest of your life. ><"

and that's what making me feel like this.

i'm reminded of the past once again.
and i realised that i didn't cherish him when i had him.

now that i've got myself another guy~~
i'll cherish every moment when i'm with him.
and that sometimes... i still can't believe he's mine.
(well, almost mine. D:~!) LOL.
but... whatever it is, my heart's always with him as long as i live.
and even though i might not know how to love...
or i do... lol. X: (idk wahh imma saying... ><")
i just want him to know that~ i'm true to him.
and no matter what happens, i'll be there for him. ^^,

...
anyways... i went out last night to the lan shop to play audi with him! ;D
kekes. SHHHH.
but i did buy my mag, CLEO. ((:
played till like 11.35 liddat then i finally decided to go home.
lan was REALLY LAGGING. ):
can't really play a proper game of ballroom lahhs. ><"
aye~ but at least i gotta play with him! ^^v

i might not be audi-ing today.
maybe play for a while... idk. LOL.
me wanna accompany rickayyy on msn~~ *grins*

heh.
nth much today oso anyways.
my sundays are forever this boring. LMAO.
by tmr, i'll go studying lerhhs. X:
musttt starrttt lerhhhhssss. (drags the words~)

just found out that prince's ex just ditched him.
played cpl with her yesterday night...
talk with her new beau in such a happy tone/mood.
say want to change nick~ blah blah blah.

omg. like a complete byatch. Dx
i can't believe she just did that to him...
got married in audi for a week then break. =="
like wtf lahh. she went to break us apart in audi to get him back.
she wanted him back so much to do that...
and then now, she just leaves like that?! O:<
leaving damage control to its best.
damn gd lorrs. hmph. never seen a girl as wicked as her. X:
still say they are the perfect match.
whatever.
*shakes head*~

tried calling him to ask if he knew abt it anort.
seem like he didn't want to speak either.
so, ohwells. i can only be upset with her. lol.
*pui~!* -lousy.

anyways...
lols. august is coming... X:
siann. exams. ><"

and imma hungry again. ahahas.
LOL. xDD
*poofs off to find some food*

and nt forgetting to pei rickayyy tuhhhs. ;DD
LMAO. cya guys~!
<3manymanyloves.
XOXO:~Zaryl<3!

~it is you? (LASTdayoftheircamp. Dx)

2008-07-25T18:12:00.002+08:00

MSN IS DOWN. OMG. DD:
ehhhs. i wanna talk to rickkyyy~~~ X:
hehes. lols. *sighs*
nvm~ i blog! ^^v
then ltr go audi! heh.

soooo. it's friday! LOL.

(and it was FULL HOUSE at the lan shop just now uhhs!)
when i didn't have my lappy. oO" -hahas.

and that prelims are coming too... O:
tian arhh. i need to REALLY start studying liaos... X:
it's just like one week away.
and i shld NOT procastinate. ><"~
LOL. (can someone push/drive me to study?) xP

ahhh. i'm sorry, prince.
you're damn nice to me... and oh-so-sweet. xP
then again... truthfully, ever since i saw you with her...
i've given up half of my heart alr.
cuz i think you guys make a great cpl...
& i dun want to seperate a cpl who has such good de 'mo qi'.
and that if you ever leave, i'll wouldn't be totally sad.
but it'll be good if you can find someone who deserves your affection for.
and it would be her... not me. (:
by then, i'll wish you happiness & all the best in wadever you do. ^^,

...
anyways... i can't go ctrlA at ricky's blog lehhs. ):
i wanna see the hidden msg he did too~
uwahhh. *pouts*

rofl. hahas. i wonder if he DID see mine~ X:
lols. because i... because... i... *zips lips*
-comfestmmfehhlingsfuuhmmhheearhh.-
LOL. that's how it sounds lahh! xDD -when you zip your lips AND try to talk! LMAO. :DD
try guessing. hehehs.
here goes my confessions... x))
blahhh. he didn't say anything yet but...
i can see AND feel that he feels the same way about me... (:
maybe the timing isn't right yet. oO"
(prelims arriving lerhh mahhs. X: -then need study! cannot hv distractions! Ox)

but~
i'm glad i've made the first move.
ahahas. SHHH. X:
and now that i've known him...
it's like i'm falling in love once again. ^^

i know the obstacles ahead...
and... i'm ready to face them again. (:

lols. random note:
i'm like listening to al the sappy love songs again lahh.
it's like the cycle of love that keeps on repeating & repeating~~ LOL.
to me, living in the world would be quite meaningless if there's no love in my life.
hahas. ((:

if only words could tell you how much i feel for you,
then that's not enough.
because to me, you're more than just a friend...
and i just can't pull myself away from your spell.

hahas. X:
for you.
my first online poem for someone orhhs! soooo...
my english isn't that good...
and i'm not that expressive~
and it'll sound kinda weird...
but here goes anyways! ^^

Remember the first time we met?

We were completely strangers.

And it was only to a certain extent,

That nothing else really matters.

Thoughout the endless of time,

You're always on my mind.

No matter where am i,

Your heart's the warmest place i could find.

In all its' glory,

this is my love story.

So, as our hearts fluctuate between hot & cold...

Let our love story slowly unfold.

that's it. ((:
i took the time to do this, a few periods before the bell rang.
really RACKED my brains to do it uhhs. ><"
it's been a long time since i did poems.
and this is specially for someone who's new in my life. ;)
kekes.

...
*sings*~
is it you? is it you?
maybe you are the one i've been waiting for~
could you be the one for me? could you be the one i need~?

LOL. okays. i'm done. X:
still trying to log into msn lehhs. =="

btw... after a few more posts, ppl~
*ehhhemmm* ~xP
i'll be MIA. ^^,
to study for probably the whole of august! O.O''
cuz the prelims timetable is out...
and my examination days are like basically spread out through the whole mth! ><"
SIANNN. T-T
then... my blog will go on hiatus mode too. *grins*

but i'll be back! :D

hahas. xP
ohhh. my bros' are finally back from their camp.
heh. hope they had fun like i did 3 years ago...
rofl. ><"

argh. later still gt tuition. and it'll be my last lesson lerhhs.
must tell her oso worrs. o.o"
it's like she's here only for 8 lessons, then no more liaos.
imma like so evil lehhs. &&~~ i feel kinda bad uhhs. X:
eeps.

heh. anyways...
the guild blog is like SOOO DEAD. ==''
i see like only a few ppl tagged lorrs.
diaos... i just went to bump it! ((:

ahhh. gotta see if anyone replied to my suggestions for the kallang wave event~ X:

anyways... i gtg lerhhs! ;DD
to eat my dinner & go audi~! WOOTS. <3loves~
rofl.. cya ppl!
manymanyLOVESfromZARYL. ^^v

dayONE...of their camp.

2008-07-23T19:48:00.003+08:00

MUAHAHAHAS.
i'm home alone now.

why?
hahas. my bros' are at camp~! ^^v
and my parents are out! v^^v
OHHHHYEAH. :DD

it's been such a long time since i was alone at home.
hahas. shall i 'colour block' today? ;P
(red&blackk~)

lols. anyways...
i've nt been writing my diary these days. X:
(yes, i did mention i had a diary... didn't i?)
and yeahh... trying to write as much as i can now. lols.
random note uhhs. ^^,

have i made my decision?
LOL. yesh, i did.
hahas. i've finally moved on after a mth...
and now... it's time to choose. again.

ermmms. nt exactly time yet... but it'll come soon.
as in my final decision. heh. ><"

hmmm.
trying to download audi in my bro's lappy.
SHHH. but then not enuff space sia... T-T
i wanna play audi with him ehhhs~~ LOL. X:
argh. give up on downloading lahh. ):

ohohoh. (before i forget!)
ie~ gotanew~~friend~~! X:
hehes. well... ermms. he isn't exactly my new friend either.
ahhh. ><" idk hw to put it! D:
LOL!! ... X: -wells... ermms. he's my audi cpl uhhs~! xDD

kekes. SHHHH.
i did link him at the side... *points* ~>>>

but he keeps going 'short-term MIA' derrhhs.
at msn. hahahas. ^^,
(randomness.)
LOL. but he's nice~ (:
like how i LOVE the fact that he actually plays the guitar~! :DD
&&-- he's just like FIVE DAYS older than me! O:
woots~! ^^,

bahh. he's just sho cute luhhs! xDD
roar~! ;P
today norr~! the sms... hehehes. *grins* -ROFL. x))

lols! &&-- i found out that we actually have quite alot in common too...
wahahas. SHHH.

hmmm. i've yet to find out more abt him though...
but... i'm starting to like you, derrick. X:

lols. still trying my best to live without my phone...
hahas. cuz it's hard nt being able to msg like i used to.
(eekks. i just remembered i bombed my phone bill this mth too. D:)
oooooppppps. X:

andand~ mihSSIMi.
xDD -code word! LOL.

anyways...
i won't be here for long.
cuz i scared my mum suddenly come home lahhs. ><"
hehes. also, since i can't play audi...
i might as well just blog fast fast then get outta here. rofl. xP hahas. (:

&&-- PCD's 'When I Grow Up' rocks~!
the tune's abit weird but i like the what-i-wanna-do-when-i-grow-up thing~~! xDD

kekes... blehhs. i'm getting random.
but it's not 12 yet! O:

my mind's in such a mess now.
because i have to choose again... LOL. X:
lols... and i'm actually thinking of someone... heh.
SHHH.

when i sort out my thoughts for this week...
i'll re-blog out the details or something. HEH.

kkays. before i go typing like this...
asfoewtodnzcnmxzverBF;ISDSDsjfbjb*@&!^*#*!^

*gasps* ROFL. (slamming the keyboard! Dx)
hahahahas. i better get going!
cya peeps! ((: <3loves~!

gloomy days ahead. X:

2008-07-19T16:59:00.001+08:00

hello(:
i'm back again to blog.
lols. and it's raining outside now. D:

still living well without my phone.
lols. i just miss my audi songs... ><"
haiish. now can only hear 'em on my lappy every weekend.
X: -better than nth.

and for the whole of this week...
it's been like... CRAP.
no phone esp. hahas. ohwells. ):
so this weekend must enjoy myself and get high! xD -woots~!

hmmm...
lost one alr. oO"
or maybe 3. lol.
dunno whr those 2 go. come and go as they please. hah.
used to it lerhhs.

leaving one only. and i rmb our pact alrights. ^^
but then, his ex... ermms. lols.
idk worrs. he's really nice to me...
and if we were to get tgt... it'll be even better? hahas. just guessing.

and there's SPA for the pure ppl.
heng, i dropped liaos. *grins*
testing skill 3 uhhs. hahahas. xP

lols. see me talk crap!
you've like
been echa,
away i will
for still wait. because i still love him.
such a lols. just hanging
long time~ on to the hope
and i miss you... that you'll return
so much uhhs! Dx someday...
who the heck sounds silly of me...
am i refering to? but i guess i just can't
guess! xP seem to move on. haiish.
hahas. oO" well, a part of me just can't do it. )':

MY PHONE LAHH.
rofl. lmao. lol. xDD

okays. back to more impt stuff.

i've the intention to cancel tuition lerhhs.
i feel like it's wasting my time... and my parents' money. D:
i'm busy like almost every single day. and i have very lil' energy for tuition sometimes.
besides... i'm going to try self-studying soon.
since prelims are coming... X:
blehhs. still in discussion with my dad uhhs.
he's like nt willing for me to give up tuition when the exams are arriving. =="
ohwells... ><"

didn't call eugene yesterday. hahas. X:
that pinchable face. LOL. Oo"

anyways.
went para-ing yesterday.
not much guys there. ahahahas. xP
danced like blehhh. =="
i felt enjoyment only for a short while nehh. Dx
lols. not much crowd too. so not much guys. ROFL. ;P
only 3 guys caught my eye...
one of my worst days of para-ing. aye. )x

after this... i'll log out of msn and play audi. *grins*
and i heard audi got patch... OMG.
i heard that there'll be thai songs inside. FIVE somemore.
lols. gotta listen to them if they are great anort. ahahas.

&&-- you shld go check out at youtube!
abt the biggest online dance battle!
M&M VS ACDC. ;DD
i vote for ACDC. <3 -kekes. ^^,
wanna get their shirt ehhs. D:
lols. &&--
i think their dances moves are way slick & damn cool.
love them all!
(if only i could be there to represent them too. LOL.)

ahhh.

one of my secrets.

i find guys in all black are hot. (:
or in half oso hot. ^^

but it'll be best if his face is ultra hot/shuai/cute/good looking. xD

also... i'm starting to plan for national day.
lols. yeah...
just dressing up for the event uhhs.
though i knw prelims would start lerhhs. xP

ahahahas.
ohhh. before i go...
i might forget some updates i'm supposed to make.
if i can rmb... i'll put them up tmr. hahas. ((:
and also... find my hidden msg if you can. dunno whether easy anorts. lols.

wonder if prince is online at audi lerhhs. hahas. X:
still listening to RAIN. both here and outside.
if you get the idea. hehes. xP

won't be able to stay long online too. ):
need to save electricity lahhs. the damn bill is like darn ex last mth...
so yeahh. better save as much as possible. lol.

aye. and it's time for me to go...
so... i'll cya soon!
buhbye~! <33loves.
XOXO-ahsky3.

bring in the RAIN. (:

2008-07-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

ahahas. voxy found my hidden msg.
not fun liaos. ROFL. xP
but it was easy mahhs.
i maybe doing it again... LOL. not today lahh. X:

i'm hungry. ):
&&-- i'm just lazy to get my ass outta here. xP

listening to the two new songs i just reviewed.
very addictive. ^^,
and not forgetting the hot ass, RAIN. ;DD
seriously! the six pecs & height : perfect! heh. :))

anyways...
today... is LIKE SHIT.
phone.
kena confiscated again. siannnnn lahhhh~ OMG.
DAMN HIM. =="
going to keep my phone liao then he stand beside me. _I_
ask me give the phone.
bleeps. i haben use my phone for one mth then kena confiscated again.
(screaming vulgarites alr.)
ask me go find him after sch... HE NOT THERE.
kao. i go there 3 times. he 3 times not there.
2nd time meeting with the principal. =="
RAHHH. i tell you, i was like sooooo pek chek after that... until 12.45...
until now... OMG. D:<
*flames showing at the back*

.... ROFLMAO. LOLOLOL. oO"

blahhh. to happier stuff...

LOL. i finally printed out my timetable.
gosh. i like for dunno hw many days no timetable liaos...
keep asking ppl when's the nxt lesson...
they must be sian of me liaos. hahas. X:

hmmmm.
today is the Olevels MT Listening Comprehension.
and it's cool worrs.
LOL. why?
the listening thingy was actually broadcasted nationwide worrs!
wahahahas. so cool lehhs. (i thought it was on a CD thing. oO" -ahahas.)
on 92.4fm worr. ROFL. Symphony 93.4fm.
ahahahas. all the classical music... diaos.
it's weird cuz it was ONLY broadcasted on THAT channel/station.
blehhh. it'll be better if it were on the other channels/stations.
but i think why the SEAB chose 92.4fm is bcuz ALMOST NO ONE listens it.
ROFLMAO. that's what i think. xP

and the paper was relatively easy to understand. (:
i might just do well lorrs. ^^v
*cross fingers* xP

AND.
some news for you guys.

lol. i'm on no one's side for the copying of blog title thing. =="
i just went to check it out. and gave my comment... lols.
blehhs. i dun even care liao nehh. =__=

and ppl spotting me at the arcade. ahahahas.
well... okays. X:
not saying i don't want the attention lahh... heheh.
i'm just happy that i gt kinda recognised. LOL. ((:

gosh. and i'm not hot or cute or whatever shit. =="
omg. don't say anymore.
or my head will secretly grow big! DD:

ROFL. (:
(being thick-skinned now.)
but. i just love the attention though. ^^
weeee~ kekes.

anyways...
my love life is like improving lohhs. (:
and it's true!
yays... xD

alrights~
i have ppl like jio-ing me!
and i'm not afraid to announce it! woots!~
imma like so bhb can. ahahahas.

there's prince. oO"
heh. i knew it. xP
then there's this guy with the very pinchable cheeks. ROFL. xDD
(we met yesterday. i had an enjoyable time with him~!)
ahahahhas. i'm allowed to pinch it the next time i see him! YAYS.
lmao. he's has that baby face look nahhh~ *grins*
and he's nice... very entertaining. ^^v -heh. dunno why his ex left him.
diaos. (her eyes 'da' stamp.) LOL. xP
ahhh. i dun care anyways. not my prob. hurhur~... ;)

saw loads of good-looking dudes yesterday too.
when i was out with him. ehehehes. xP

then...
i'm nt sure if it's true...
but justin apparently knws kevvy. oO"
and then... kevvy asked me for patch. LOL. i haben answer him yet.
also got this two guys... currently on the tagboard.
rofl. imma gonna say;
HELLO~:D;D
ahahahas. you guys probably know me through watching me dance para.
lol. and i probably didn't notice you guys. oops.
it's like i get a different crowd everytime i go there... so yeah...
can't really rmb that well if i've seen you guys.
hehes. i'll be there every weekend. and friday afternoons... after sch. :D
sunday then not there. lols. xP
can go find me there.
just hope i won't get shocked or something. LOL. X:

ohhh. i spotted this guy like last week playing para... during friday evening.
and damn.. ): -he was good looking. and i didn't dare to ask for his no.
ahhh. CRAP. Dx
dunno whether if i'll get to see him again. ahahahas. SHHH. ((x

wahahahahas.
my tao hua yun is like BLOOMING now.
and of course i'm loving it...
never had this much luck before. hehes.
and i thank the stars, the zodiacs & the gods or whatever is giving me this now. xD
<3ilove...IT.
LOLS. *grins*

butbut~ aiyo. i've gotta make a choice very sooon. ><"
LOL. but just so you know, i won't be accepting any relationships now...
until my Os are done. xDD
yeahhh. (:

lalalalalas~ okays.
nth much liaos...
gotta go do my english hmwk soon. D:
blehhhs. i might just cancel tuition very soon.
and do MY own revision lerhhs.
hmmm. i think i can do it derhhs... study on my own.
need ALOT of discipline though. RAHHH. xP
gonna discuss with my dad again. X:
ohwells~ i'll get going then. cya ppl~! ^^
i'll update during the weekends again. buhbye~!

~~wavy RULES. xDD

2008-07-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

lalalalas~ (:
i'm back!

hahas. ^^,
me never go out today. D:
just stayed at home... sian. lols.
cancelled tuition too. blehhs.
i don't want tuition.

...
dinner was spaghetti again.

and today.
i'm just BORED.

though i'm just a totally pure slacker...
i lack the creativity in entertainment.
blehhhs~. even i'm boring.

and i wished i had gone to the cosfest @ downtown east.
DD: -because i loved the cosplay~! ><"
and thank you, andy! for putting the post & pics up.
(though it wasn't much. hehes.)

lols. hmmm. didn't choing much of audi oso anyways.
speaking of which... i 'patched' back with prince! today! LOL. :D
in audi. heh. break cuz he went back to his ex-cpl... who wanted him back.
lol. and then we're back. quick ehh.
with 9 hearts. and we've deproved. ):
damn. need to practice more lahhs. hahas.

downloaded more songs.
like RAIN. ;DD
and also, Forever by Chris Brown is a great song!
sounds like a very feel-good-about-love song uhhs! xDD
a damn groovy song! great for the clubs too.
damn the vid too. it's great! ROFL. i love the falling down part loads! SO COOL. :D
who's willing to fall like that from a height with me ehh? *grins*
kekes. (it's been a long time since i reviewed songs & music vids. lol.)
and this is almost like a JT mv luhhs.
Closer by Ne-Yo.
-come closer~ i wanna own you.
LOL. ;DD-
but i swear it's sounds SO like Forever too.
the beats. the tempo! omg. (but the lyrics' meanings are totally diff.)
seriously~~~! but this one isn't bad too. (:
i love this song as much as Forever too. heh.

hmmmm.
spotted a great blogger yesterday too.
was accused of copying isaac's blog title or something liddat. X:
but i went to his site. nothing of that sort at all.
well... it may sound the same. but the content is way diff lorrs.
btw... he changed his title already. hahas.

content-wise, it's really quirky.
heh. ^^,
alot of info worrs. funny ones, sad ones and very cool ones! xD
it's more like a blog for the blogosphere.
very interesting worrs. :)
imma going to put him up on my blog roll too.
check it out, y'all.
keeping tabs on him~! LMAO. ><"~

ahhh. nth else le lahhs.
lols. i shall end this here. hahahas. xD
just being very random today. and abit blur too.

and i realised that i've been using this>>> ~~~
this wavy thing alot siol. lols. ;D
fun i think. and i think it brings out the cute tone~! LOL.
see. i used it again. lols.

okays. then i shall get going lerhhs!
buhbye peeps! <3loves.

it's the weekends again~!

2008-07-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

WHAT'S WITH BLOGGER AGAIN?
don't tell me it's another glitch or bug.... DD:

i mean my prevoius post.
it ended up in one LLLOOONNNNGGG link. =="
ROFL. hahas.
double checked the 'edit html'. i didn't leave any codes... ><"
so, i'm guessing it's blogger's fault! rahhh. ):
lols... i think this one is probably going in a linkiie format. Oo"
hahas. ohwells~ X:

haven't been downloading songs luhhs.
not all are available anyways. heh.

finally persuaded my mum to unlock the lappy for muah. (as in the bag.)
hehehehes. can finally blog.
but then try editing oso cannot. and yes... i need help! anyone? ^^

anyways... my mum's toilet had been renovated. (:
it's looking great~! LOL.
since the wall i'm facing when i step into... stands out. xP
(the only blue wall. rofl.) but it still looks great. hahas.
so random.
and then... there's the renovation for the upgrading of lifts in HDB flats.
my block & a few others too. X: omg. they are finally starting it liaos.
DIE. AT HOME HOW TO STUDY IN PEACE EHHS?!?!
damn the drilling. i'm going to die of stress.
even if i don't, my life is soon going to be a living hell. O.O" ohhnooo~~ DD:
damn. why the freaking timing is so not right derhhs?! damnned be the HDB ppl. =="
eehhhh. olvl student lehhs. lols.
another time then drill mahhh. gosh...

there's nth i can do liaos. alr start nehhs. T-T

.... hmm. anyways.
i've realised i love my blog alot. ^^,
hehehs. *hugs lappy* <33~~ xDD
(rofl. since i can't hug my blog, so i hug my lappy! xP)
i've been blogging for... let's see... (clicks on the older posts~)
ah... imma lazy count. it's not a year yet luhhs.
hahas. ard 10 mths liddat?
1st year anniversary coming up soon! ^^

WHICH... reminds me of andy's 1st year anniversary with his blog~! :D
(hug your lappy, andy! with your blog on the screen! not too tight though. LMAO. xDD)
hehehes. i've been keeping watch on his blog too... lol.
i sound like a stalker. not his secret admirer though. oO"
(she's really into him siol. X: -very VERY into him.)
to the extend of making up a blog just for him.
(awww~~ ^^, -for him, i don't mean andy, i'll do that too.
and it's somewhere in the blogosphere.)
lolololols. &&-- the Xiaxue's nightmare vid! his 2nd latest entry!
(lol. he JUST updated again. damn, i love my blog roll. ^^)
ahahahas. but watched it alr on jayden's blog. (:
didn't knew andy would put it up too. LOL. xD
it's seriously HILARIOUS. omg.
"BEST" cpl match ever. EVER. lols.
no offence lahh. just joking. OMG.
it's like who would really wanna go out with him?! oO"
right. okays. i shld just SHHHH alr. *zips lips*

hehes. anyways... i'll be in audi soon after this. (:
hmmm. i'm done with all the cying & emo-ing alr.
well... i cried&emo... is because i realised that i was so foolish & stupid...
i let my heart be broken 3&1/2 times this year.
haiish. damn. i thought i could move on alr! ><"
this 4 dudes. idk what else to say.

DAMN. i'll make a change in my LOVE life soon. VERY SOON.
soon, my heart's turning into steel. that's what i meant by i'll change.
RAHH.
probably... after this. because...
i'm BORED.
my heart will only be open with daniel. and only him.
lols. idk what else to say uhhs. but i wanna stay here~! hehes. till i'm outta things to blog.
he's probably still angry with me. but... i'll still wait.
(being random.)
quietly. sceretly. and... this guy i'm with now... we're nt officially attached yet because of him.
lalalalalas~~ ;DD
seriously, i only love dan. he's just the substitute.
ROAR.
i'm willing to change for him. i'm willing to accept whatever flaws he has.
ohhh. there's a hidden msg in my blog post. X:
not saying where... but it's easy to find.
it's for someone i still love dearly.
but is it too late? will you still give me the chance to?
and as for prince, i'm won't think that much anymore.
but... if i ever go with someone else... you'll have to get someone else also.
to let me love you wholeheartedly like i used to? idk. ugh. ><"
cuz i don't want to hold you back either... X:
just rmb our pact. ;)

i remembered i just read a novel. borrowed it frm echa. ^^
and damn, the life in there was just PERFECT. if only i was Lola.
hahas. or Sadie Greens, instead. lols.
it's called... Whatever Lola Wants.
~~(a quite-erotic-but-not-so-overboard read/book.)~~
i loved it. :P -kekes.

right.
or maybe i eat 1st then go play. hehes. xDD
dinner time arriving....
forgo my para session today for the lappy~. here i am to return the favour.
(cuz i pangseh-ed my lappy for para last week lerhhs.)
lmao. kekes.
okays~! till the next time... probably tmr~, i'll see you guys here again.
bye world. X:

one&1/2 of my heart:(
2008-07-09T17:24:00.007+08:00
right.
it's those times that i'm feeling again.
i wanna jump down & end my life asap.
emo

i'll be here like only for another 5 mins.

updates:
audi cpl break lerhhs. no more wedding. T-T
(that explains my heart's HALF-broken. rofl.)
they patched. and i kinda allowed it... sooo~ yeah.
DUH. it is kinda pain. cuz i did put in feelings too, y'know.
but i'm trying to get over it fast. X:

i realised that the Olvls & Nlvls oral are still going on. ><"

i just transfered (& deleted...) more songs into my phone! ^^ -lols.

going audi after this. like in a flash. to check who's online. X:

i know i'm not allowed to say this anymore. (if nt, i'll break the damn vow i made. lol. ><")
but i think... my title says it all. DD:
still emo lorrs. somewhere inside me hearts...

ST says i'm not myself! oO"
well... that's kinda right. i've turned gloomy of all sorts. better word? emo. HAH. oops.

i feel abit motivated to study liaos. like abt... 9%? ROFL. grins

there's a Hokkaido Food Fair at TM! i'm going to check it out soon. ^^,

suddenly, i'm back into korean songs again.
esp. those frm audition. kekes. RAIN! ;DD
manylovestohim. he's hot. i swear. (:

aye. that's abt it.
it's half way through the week. xD
but i'll see you guys (as well as me lappy~! <3) again this weekend!
so~ i gtg lerhhs. cya~! DDx

ready~, set~, poofs!

Youth Day's school holiday...

2008-07-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

back. for another entry.
hahas. apparently...
there's no sch today~ ^^, -youth day on sunday mahh.
= school holiday on monday! woots~ xDD

new age, new life, new chapter.

well. i'll still stay slackish. (a more crude word would be lazy.)
muahahas. but i WILL make the effort to change my love life.
so i can probably live better for the next half of the year.
(... what am i crapping? lol. X:)
so no more mentioning him anymore!
even if it kills me due to depression. LMAO. oO"

and before i forget...

CONGRATS TO GRAY&GREY! <3 xDD
for passing your wedding licence on 1st try~! ^^,
may you guys be tgt for as long as ever. and stay loving towards each other.
good job on passing arhhh, nuer. hehes.
never let me down. LOL. ;DD
married on the 5th of July.
welcome the newly-weds! : ~~-eDc-GRAYx3 & -eDc-GREYx3~~
*draws a big heart* ~kekes.

lols. i can't remember the time.
i think it was ard 3 plus in the afternoon. hahas.
and this time...i didn't catch the flower~ xP
ohwells. at least~ i must thank them for the free gifts! hehes.
x2 dens & exp. woots.

&&-- of course, i must thank my beloved prince who gave me the bday gifts. ^^,
teh bunny, teh premium messenger item (one mth derhhs.) & teh chicken hair!

hahas. xDD
and also, we finally cpled. O:
10 hearts! LOL. that slowest song in audi. xP
i mean by finally, it's because... we tried quite a number of times b4 we cn finally cpl. DD:
seriously... we tried like more than 5 times lorrs. Oo"
we're always stuck at 3 hearts. lol.
thanks to the help of the grey cpl~ LOL. ^^,
getting sync hearts is hard lahh. X:
besides, i kinda set the standard abit higher than the original 5 hearts one...
only 9 hearts and abv then i accept. hehehes. ROFL.
though i knw i'm nt a pro in cpl dance. nor in audi yet...
the reason behind my standard is because i want someone who's of course better than me.
lol. i just think that 5 to 7 hearts is just barely passing the test only... oO"
so yeahhh. hahas. xDD

hmmm... i celebrated almost my whole birthday day in audi.
(yupps, in the end, nvr go out lorrs.)
kekes. opening up different kind of rooms. xDD
the titles with all the words of bdayPARTY. ;D
rofl. it's my bday wad.
lol. then i have random ppl wishing me a happy bday too. ((:
thank you strangers! lmao.

i was in an all-white suit yesterday. heh.
white shirt. white berms. white undies. LOLOLOLOLOL.
i feel white-ish yesterday mahhs. SHHHH. xD

so random. lol.

alot of things happened too.
1. prince wished me happy bday on the phone when the clock strikes 12. ^^
2. so did jou~ 2nd person. 1st girl. LOL.
3. my birthday. (DUH.)
4. i was at home the whole day. apparently, in audi.
5. got prezzies from prince~ xD
6. finally coupled with him. 10 hearts!
7. passed lvl 16 licence on second try! I AM FINALLY. A. CLUBBER. woots!
8. got confronted. i cbb to quarrel with him. ==" (but thanks for the msg. X:)
9. my mum bought me a chocolate cake frm four leaves. hahas. (:
10. transfered more songs into my phone!

blahhh. that was abt it. that was how i spent my day.

p/s:
i just write what i feel at that point of time.
and this whole week i was depressed. and upset. and whatever that describes sadness.
so i just trash out whatever i feel and what i'm guessing.
my mind's in a mess lehhs. but i took the blame lorrs. haiish.
i've never been in a relationship this long. so i don't know how to handle all this well.
never really had a quarrel before. and i see this has to end in a bad note.
but this. here. it's my blog, my say. don't say anything if you don't know how i feel.
i don't need proof or soucres when i'm writing what my heart feels.
and if you really cannot take it, i suggest you close this webpage asap.

anyways...
ahhh. i miss those old songs in audi~
those other artistes' songs. <33-- DD:
lalalalas~ i'm love with korean songs once again.

aye~~ tmr gt schh liaos. siann. hahas.
must start studying again.
ltr at night then i go pack my bag. kekes.

and today, i'll most probably be at home again.
or if not, i'll be at the para machine hanging out there... that is...
if my mum allows. kekes. :P
(i'm still very guai one okays...) rofl.
shits. i'm supposed to move on.
i have to stop contradicting myself. because it'll get me into trouble soon or later. ><"

i'll be here again the next weekend then! (:
<3manyloves. buhbye peepo~! ;DD
-eDc-ZaryLheartseverybodywhoheartsmeback! ^^

Happy Birthday To Me!!! <3---xDD

2008-07-06T09:03:00.000+08:00

woots.

i'm officially ONE-SIX now.
16. 16. 16. ^^/xD/;)

actually, it's not a great age to be on for a Singaporean kid.
(since we have our major exams this year... aka 'O' levels. ==")
then must study & study derhhs. DD:
lols. ohwells. this is our life. ><"

but it's okays. i'm kinda happy being 16. lol.
(it's a new age for me~) lol.
i wish to start anew with this brand new number...
but there are just some things i can't bear to let go.
i used to treasure this relationship ALOT.
uwahhh. SOBS. but now... it's all gone in hot soup.
i know that it'll never work again, like it used to... T-T
a part of me still hangs on lah.*sulks*

--i keep contradicting myself here. i know! ><"

siannn. it's like i've never moved on.
or maybe just a lil' bit. Dx
idk.
*sighs*

i shldn't be sad today! Oo"
must try to stay happy~~ X:
LOL. ^^,

i woke up early just to blog today! xD
hehes. i'm just happy that i've got a new number. lol.
and although he isn't celebrating it with me, i'm just glad that he was once mine. ^^
if i had a choice, or a wish granted, i would want him here with me!
and let me relive the memories of us tgt... even if i have to go through all that pain again.

ohwells.
if only lorr.
when time machines are finally invented. X:

what am i going to do today? ><"
ie... also dunno ehhs. ROFL.
it's all the same things in the morning for me.
cannot be spared frm doing sia : HOUSEWORK.
omg. =_______= :blehhhhs.

pretty green eyes~~ so full of sparkle and such light,
let me remind,
you chose not to cry.
it's all right,
for your lover has come home...
by your side i'll always stay,
never have to be alone.

never have to be, never to have be alone.

ahhhh~ i love the lyrics. ^^
(it's just the short one. kekes.)
it reminds me of him too. lol. he said that i'll never have to be alone.
where did his promise go to? oO"

lol. xD
anyways. continuing...
imma gonna audi this afternoon. hahas. ^^,
and create a 'birthday party' room. ((:
heheh. WOOTS. ;D
maybe going out for awhile to party myself at the para machine.
rofl. who wants to sponser me? xP

and then... probably go shopping. alone lorrs. X:
then stay at home again....
SAD RIGHT??? DD:
T-T : nobody celebrate with me mahhs.
then i gt nowhere to go oso. )):
hahas. used to it already lahhs. imma alone again lorrs.
omg. i going into a very zi bei mood liaos. X:

hmm...
i'm going to get a cpl in audi today. lols.
he's apparently my good friend.
who's also currently waiting for me... O:
lol. i used to like him too. but it was just for a while.
and now that he does... i don't know where i want to stand again.
we knew each other for abt a year or so.
it's only recently, we exchanged numbers. lol...
and started talking then. (by then, i was already single. ><")
that time, he was still attached lorrs. lols.
and nw, i felt like i came in between them. ):
even though he said that he didn't love her anymore. OMG. D:<
lmao. i still dunno if it's a gd idea to cpl with him.
willing to wait... but how long? *sighs*

anyways... :D
i'm recieving the lil' gifts lohhh. hahas.
i think.

wahahahas.
and i'm going to the bathroom asap.
(because for the WHOLE of yesterday, i bathed once! OMG. why?
the damn toilets are under renovation! more to my mum's bathroom though.
so cannot use! omgomgomgomg. i feel gross. it's that time of the mth ehhhs!
damn, i need to be clean!)
so yeah... i shall head straight to the bathroom after i finish this.

then i'll eat my breakfast.
and probably do the things i want to.
and then~ MORE SLACKING TIME!!
wooohooohooo~ ^^, <3lovesmyself.

http://forums.playpark.net/showthread.php?t=188293&page=6
i found the guild's forum @ playpark! ^^^^^^ (ROFL.)
lols. ^^, -funny ppl there.
&&-- i see his ex there. X: ohwells.

*poofs* i'm off~! to enjoy my birthday today. kekes. <3 cya~!

myBIGDAY. t.o.m.o.r.r.o.w.!

2008-07-05T13:10:00.001+08:00

boo(:
imma back for another post.
and i feel extremely ecstatic today!

(actually, not only today sia. yesterday oso worrs!)

ever since i FINALLY xiang tong lerhhs....
i feel like a new spirit! xD
LOL. X:
wells... nt litterally luhhs.

hahas.
i've finally decided to move on.
(probably only 20% of me will still be willing to wait. heh.)
not because i have a rival...
(and i knw her. =.= ) well, okays, maybe a bit of her...
she has been with him for HALF A YEAR lehhs.
me nehh, only 43days = 1mth 12days.

and then... i know that they've been in contact.
she has been probably asking him for patch even before i got tgt with him. until nw.
that's giving me the reason to wonder if all this time...
if i was just a substitute for his ex.

and...
that's why i'm backing out.
siannnnn.

my heart has been broken thrice this year.
SERIOUSLY BROKEN. T-T
i swear that the guys who breaks a girl's heart should have their necks broken!
all evil things in this world. ):
i don't want to be in love already!
RAHHHH. D:<

...at least for now.

so yeah. i'm moving on. i'm tired of feeling sad already. ><"

&&--
thank you arhh, nuer. for sorta helping me... ^^,
really appreciate it uhhs.
ALSO. i'll be there @ your wedding licence/party on time derhhs. ^^
i wish all the best ltr at 3pm~! xDD
(put pressure on you; MUST PASS HORR.)
LOLOLOLOL. :DD

ohhhkays. back to happier things~!

LET MUAHHH ANNOUNCE THIS!!!! xDD
....
I'M TURNING 16 TOMORROW.
PEOPLE. SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~!!!
LOL/ROFL/LMAO.

(imma so bhb. hehes. X: -here's some more of it.)
i want many many presents!!
a cookies&cream ice-cream cake from swensens!!
and a black/gold PSP worrs!! xDD
wahahahas.
like i will get them lorrs.

i'm not a very popular person in the class, nor in the school.
in my entire school life.
so, yeah, i don't get as much prezzies as those other kids do.
but, that's okay. cuz i had friends to rely on.
now... they're all gone.
even my last lifeline is also gone.
i'll be spending my bday alone this year. again.
(last year, i still had paul. lol. but to me, it's a diff thing.)
lol. gonna have to get used to it. DDx

anyways...
i have a bday wishlist. hehes.
well... other than those i've just mentioned...
i do wish for~~

4 more 20k acash prepaid cards.
i already got the card on the 1st row, 2nd one frm the left. hehes.

(picture from http://www.auditionsea.com/info/news/game_newsdetails.aspx?id=33)

lols. one photo only lahh.
you knw hw much time i would need just to put the many photos.
(if i ever have them. LOL. ><")

imma big fan of audi. so i would love prepaid cards! ;D
hahas.

and~~ 2 new pencil cases, a sling bag, tote bag, backpack & new clothes!! *grins*
lololol. xD

oooh. my godmother is back in singapore to wish me a happy birthday! ^^,
she called my mum.. hahas.
i'm just glad that she remembers my birthday~~. ((:
hahas. though we wouldn't be going out to celebrate it...
(cuz my mum's busy ltr on. roar.)
we'll meet up soon when we have the time. x)) -yays~!

alalalalalalalas~ imma so random now!
so happily random! xDD

even though i ltr got tuition at night & i've not completed her hmwk yet.
muahahahahhas. xDD -SHHHHH.

anyways. xP
this week...
i've been super slack. wahahahas. ever since i dropped to combined.
lol. i have more free periods now.
physics is like TOTAL SLACKING TIME. lols.
(ishldbestudyingandallthatshitbutiduncare.)
chem... still okays bahh.
they are still going through skill 3 of SPA. O:

then, there's my OLEVELS MT ORAL on the 2nd July. oO"
i was sooooo nervous can.
even though the passage was relatively easy to read...
i was nervous & tense, and blahhh, i kinda gt it screwed up abit. X:
and then the convo was like....
ermmmms. say, stop, think, say. DD:
omgomgomgomg. liddat sure fail one derhhs. sure get a C. lol.
china ladies lehhs. 2 teachers orhh. ><"~~
*shakes head* die die. cmi liaos. DD:

ohhh yeah. i'm still doing okay with my new tutor now.
lol. probably she's still quite new, that's why her teaching is like abit weird.
i probably know abit more than she does when it comes to explaining.
or maybe,i just don't need tuition anymore! wooohooo~

lol. anyways...
i might mass downloading the audition songs later. heh.
for now...
i'm going off to audi lerhhs.
btw, did i mention i've changed my ign lerhhs?
weeee~~ it's -eDc-ZaryL. come find me at free 2 worrs~~ ^^,
(if you do play audi. for today. heh.)
till the next weekend or something...
buhbye~! <3loves.

JULY-07 is HERE~~! xDD

2008-07-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHTS.

JULY IS HERE. xDD
yyyaaahhhhoooo~!
kekekes. ROFL. i'm just glad july has arrived.

which means...
(BIG HINT TO ALL. i know imma bhb. BLEHHH. *grins*)
hmmm.
in another 5 more days... IT'S BEN XIAO JIE'S BIRTHDAY.
(it means it's my birthday. i'm typing in hanyu pinying again.)
hehes. xP
lol. apparently, it's youth day too. which brings to monday, a school holiday!
PEOPLE, THANK ME.

ROFL. LMAO.
(since when did i become so bhb one arhhs? O:)

wahahas. it also means i'm expecting presents. LOL. X:
well... i like receiving them. but i hardly get them. ):
or worse still, NONE at all.
T-T :SOBS.
but it's okay if i don't recieve them anyways... (contradicting myself....)
i'mm used to it already.
-well... that's because i treat my birthday as an impt date/occasion.
likewise for anniversaries. ^^,

(still rmb how my 14th b'day went. OMG. just the bad memories. DDx)

anyways...
my new tutor for my maths & science just came yesterday.
lol. ermmms. not to badmouth her or anything... strictly no offence at all.
but she's the first tutor i get, who's below my height. oO"
(and i thought she would be tall & pretty of that kind. read: sterotype chiobu.)
LOL. ><"~
she looks okay. and she's nice. quite friendly...
hmmm. dunno if she's the strict type. (like my previous one. D:)
will be seeing her again this friday night.

ermmms. right.
and today...
slept half the time in class. X:
slacked the whole afternoon, after sch.
instead of going for science remedials. =_=
bcuz... after eating lunch, me & james, we realised they started the class alr.
so, couldn't be bothered to go in.
lols. then go study area slack for awhile...
3.45pm came.
we headed back up for physics.
but then they say like got no class or something, so all go home lorrs.
damn diaos lorrs. wasted my time.
hahas. but i loved slacking. so it's okay. :D

uploaded quite a number of audi songs lerhhs. ^^
very happy. (not genuinely. still emo marhhs.)
but other than that, i've been replaying all the audi songs in my phone.
hahahahas. x))
(as well as the emo ones. those i-want-you-back-in-my-life songs. errrmmms. lol. X:)

hmmm.
MT oral, TOMORROW.
after school.
die. imma very scared that i will fail.
(cuz i think, everytime i take CHINESE oral, i would just pass! ><"~!)
eeeeks.
outside-of-school examiners. O.O
and my chinese speaking foundation isn't very gd either. DDx
omgomgomg. i'm starting to freak out even more!
(even though there was oral practice during MT lessons.) argh.
i think i need to speak as much CHINESE as i can.
like turn into a cheena person or something. rofl. ;P
*squeals! ...pauses & calms down~*

lol. now, internet explorer is in full screen.
(accidental pressing.) oops.

met up with kev yesterday.
he. NO CHANGE AT ALL. everything is still the same.
for me. I CHANGED ALOT. after him. lols. he was my turning point lehhs, actually.
my entire love life changed because of what he did to me.
seriously. X:
anyways...
hahas. we were talking abt the (funny) past we had tgt as a cpl the night before...
lol... i just wonder if he still has feelings for me... O.O"
erms. right~...
hahas. i'm just going to stick on & wait for that one very guy i'm still loving now. (:

hmmmm.
i've got nth much to say lerhhs.
that's all abt it.
i will still wait, no matter what. for him to take me back.
i don't care how many times imma gonna repeat it.
but again, i don't care. D:<
lololols. idk if he's still here reading luhhs. that's just all i wanna say to him.

as for tonight...
i'll either be slacking at bed.
or doodling.
or practicing oral with my family members.
or probably, even studying & doing hmwk. HAH.

LOLOLOL. xDD

SO. see ya all this weekend, most probably! <3
buhbye, loved ones. (:

june's ending...

2008-06-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

it's time i shld have a new blog.
but not now. lol. gotta wait till my Os are over.

random note. lol... hello there, btw.
kekes. imma back to blog again.
i won't be here for long either because i've gtg at 5. =.=
mum's orders.
(disobey, and there goes my lappy visit nxt weekend.) DD: ~!!
LOL. X:

so, yeah. that's the point.
anyways... it'll be a short one.

....
nth much going on today. sunday... hmmm.
yeahhh. pretty much the same i think.
stay at home slack. oO"
had tuition in the morning....

imma just very lazy to do my hmwk. i CBB worrs.
(cbb = cannot be bothered.)
hahas. sure kena scolding derhhs. but i don't really care le lahh.

apparently, my life's like so rocky now.
just 9days ago, my love story ended.
and up to now, my heart has been going up & down like it's on a rollercoaster ride of feelings.
but amidst all this shit i'm taking by myself... i still will be willing to wait.

just dreamt of him again last night.
where... he finally called me back. we had a talk...
like it was continued from the last call we had.
&&-- i cannot really rmb the details.
but i could feel that he wasn't angry with me anymore.
so, it gave me the hope. and yeah, no matter what it takes, i will wait. (:

btw... thank you, shawn. lol.
you JY & GL too. X:
we'll wait together. lol! oO"

oohooh.
i found this website that has downloadable free auditonSEA songs!
OMGOMGOMG.
imma DL-ing like mad now. xDD
wahahahas. (okays... it's more like a blog. lols.)
anyways... i'm going to very busy transfering songs. LOL.
so~~
i'll get going lerhhs. xP
buhbye ppl~ X:

last week of june--FULLOFEVENTS.

2008-06-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

it's been a day and a week since we've broken up.
imma still am very depressed, although i don't show it.
so, i'm still feeling horrible every now and then...
that's inevitable. ):

just dreamt of him last night.
in my dream...
i got uber jealous to see him with another girl.
seriously.
the way they kissed killed my heart.
they were so close... and they were just right in front of me!
OMG. it was so real...
and idk if it'll ever come true.
i nearly break down.
msged him right after i woke up...
haiish. up to now....
he still isn't responding to me. (or my msges.)
is he really willing to give up this whole relationship we've put so much into?
T-T :sobs.
i am still not, y'know.
*sighs*

there's the guild outing, COTY event and that comics&toy convention at suntec. DD:
imma going to miss all of them.
RAHHH. stuck at home. lazy go out. lol.
and parents not willing to let me out. no money to give me anyways. =_=

so, here i am...
blogging! &&-- friendster-profile-hopping and listening to songs.
lol. downloaded the HS5 patch yesterday.
major changes in there, but i haven't had the time to go in there yet.
ermms. lol. xP -will be checking it out ltr.

and checked out ppl's profile at friendster. hehes.

hmmm.
to move on firmly, i'll need 60 days lehhs.
and to cut off all contact with him sia.
that means... it's until 20th august before i can start a new relationship WELL.
i don't even want to.
i rather be stuck in the past... oO"
(unless that new one is as good-looking, hot, nice, sweet, surprising, and loving as him.)

every guy i go through now is a substitute for him.

rahhh. ):
emo-ing once again.
fluctuating heartbeats of depression is killing me.
and i almost can't take it anymore!! UGHHH. *sniffs*

..... dots. dots. dots.

this week oso like nth much lahh.
slacked loads lorr. Dx
never really do my hmwk too. oops.

ohh. suddenly horr, this week is like so stressing uhhs.
Olvls Mt orals are coming... (mine's 4days before my b'day worr! D:)
and there's loads of revision & work to rush out.
omg. it's alr so damn shitty liaos.
and for me now... i started the school week like shit.
so, yeah, i'm feeling even worse than i shld be.
even though i have company. =.=

anyways. here's a quiz my darling nuer ask me do~! sooo...
i shall do it. lol. oO"
(seen them ard the blogs i viewed. lols.)

name 20 ppl you can think of right now.
don't read the questions until you have named the 20 ppl.

1. Serene -NUER. (cuz she asked me do derhhs. xD)
2. Echa.
3. Dayan.
4. Shawn.
5. Stuart.
6. Jou.
7. Jiajia -PRINCESS.
8. Jackson -PRINCE.
9. Sheree.
10. Mimi.
11. Daniel.
12. Myst.
13. Voxy.
14. Andy.
15. Joey.
16. Ace.
17. Edmund.
18. Clarissa.
19. Sharmaine.
20. Leon.

how did i meet 14?
-ehhh. blogosphere? through voxy. xP
if everything is possible, would 6 & 7 date?
-no lahh! siao. both females lehh. my darlings lorr. 7 is attached le lorr. =.=
describe 3.
-ermms. he's very sweet to 2. SO ENVIOUS LORR.
is 8 attractive?
-omg. i just viewed his friendster profile. still looking average.
know any 12's family members?
-ehh. nope.
what would you do if 18 confessed his/her love for you?
-OMG. she's a girl! and my friend! hello... imma STRAIGHT kays.
what language does 15 speak?
-english & chinese. 13 than speak something else. LOL.
who is 9 going out with?
-ekks. right now, i think no one. X:
when is the last time you spoke to 13?
-JUST YESTERDAY. lol! at the arcade.
who is 2's favourite band/singer?
-ermms. not very sure. (to think she's my besttie. oO") sleeq? Dx
would you ever date 4?
-hmmm. he is one of 11's best bud. not good to date him. lol. X:
is 19 single?
-should be. yes.
what is 10's last name?
-aye. idk.
would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
-i used to. ): and if i can still be with him, i would surely GRAB that chance.
what's 3's school?
-Greenview Sec.
where does 6 lives?
-she stays somewhere in between bedok reservior & somewhere. LOL. ><"
what's your favourite thing about 5?
-OOOOH. HE'S MY PUNCHING BAG WORRS. xDD
have you seen 2 naked?
-well. *ehem* during sec3 sch camp. *nods* oO"

imma very nice not to choose ppl to do this quiz uhhs.
unless if you guys want to, the just copy & paste this section.
take out my answers & put in your own. lol.
or even add some more questions. ((:
(cuz i realised not all numbers are used up! hah.)

anyways...
it's spaghetti for dinner. (:
lols... dinner time is arriving. so i shall head off to dinner soon. xP

(and cannot play overtime again! ><" -if nt.... cannot see my lappy sia!)

lols. and i hope the ppl at the guild outing will have tons of fun! ^^,
imma is also kinda sad that i can't go. T-T
sentosa lehhs. )):
second time le lehhs. RAHH. *inserts angry face*
hmph. olvls & shit lahhs.
after mid july, i'll be offically inactive liaos. need to study mahh.
sians. X:
ohwells. and i've successfully changed my ign last night. ^^,
bought the damn 20k acash card. (money fly fly~~ sobs.)
but it's SOO CUTE. xP
rofl. change nick & bought myself a top. then 1k plus acash left. LOL.
oO" -need to go save some more worrs.

bahh. i eat le, bathe le, then come back to my lappy's side to audi & play HS5.
heh. LOL. O:
(say they would be online during the weekends. all bluff me. all dunno go whr. hmph.)

tmr oso gt tuition. boring.
and i've FINALLY dropped to combined science. heng no change of classes lerhhs.

anyways, i shall see ya guys soon! ^^,
buhbye... *emo*
ermms. LOL. X:

school STARTS. ><"

2008-06-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

boo. D:
lol. can blog today! ((:

hahas.
sch reopens...
& my mum offically locks all our access to the laptops & the desktop.
BUT I BROKE THE DAMN CODE ONCE AGAIN.
ohhhhyeah. thank me, brothers. kiss my ass.

LOLOLOLOLOL. xDD

still say not that 3 numbers. =.=
HAH. xP
well... nw, i'm using my bro's lappy to blog. hehes. SHHH.
(cuz mine's LOCKED. with a KEY. T__T)
whereas he's using the desktop to play warcraft. =.=
(apparently, the other twin is out. WOOHOO.)

lol! X:
anyways...
school starts on a bad note.
i'm still the same old slackish self. )):
still not paying much attention in class...
and still dozing off in class. X:
*sighs*

well, imma still very affected abt that.
though i've tried to put it off my mind... through doodling in my notebook.
and doing whatever it takes to distract me of thinking of it...
but once i'm free, i recall it, and OMG. emo. ):
lol. ermms. really can't help it narhhs.
*rants*
so, that's why i'm still very sad these few days.
day4 without him.
i still want him back.
and i'm still waiting for a glimsp of hope to happen to me. ><"

the next heartbreak of the year.
other than that jerk. lols.
last year was that playboy i wished i didn't knew. LOL. X:

hmmm...
sometimes, i feel stupid to go through all this shit again.
*sighs* -i know all the post break up stuff... yet, this is happening to me again.

just got back my phone today.
realised how much i missed & longed for my phone...
(until i almost didn't recognise my phone for that few seconds.)
LOL. and msges were coming in periodically. (:
from grey & taizi. hahas. xP
touched my phone like a pervert siol. X:
ROFL. xDD
damn, i love my phone luhhs. <3
no more misusing of muah phone in sch lerhhs!! D:
hahas. (must rmb to upload more songs into my phone during the weekends.)
ooh. also msg him a short notice. lol... no reply as excepted.

yeah, all the past msges in the inbox brings back the good ol' memories.
but it still hurts to know what it has become of it now.
can't bear to delete them either. *sighs*
so, maybe getting back my phone wasn't a really good thing too. X:

anyways...
skipped pure sciences remedial.
very tired luhhs. go oso no mood study. ohwells.
accompained echa to meet her guy at interchange.
then i walked home... listening to music. and msging. (:

came home to see my bro playing and i rested for a while.
tired mahhs. hehes.
then now... blogging lorrs!
no audi here, so cannot play. LOL. )':

still trying to save money to buy prepaid card.
gonna change my nick soon. ><"~
(just dunno if i'll still be in the guild anort. oO")
errrmmms. lol.
hmmm. as for the guild outing coming this saturday, imma going to ask my parents soon!
LOL. (there would be an event at suntec worr!! the clubber of the year party nehh.
and also the comics & toy convention exhibition!! DD:)

anyways... i will finally get that 'chicken hairstyle' which is all-so-famous-&-popular in audi. hahahas.
soon, that bombed-up hairstyle of mine is going to have ppl shunning me. lol.
but i'll still wear it. kekes.
i like that hairstyle. and cuz, i think, i'm the only one in audi who wears it.
(haven't seen anyone with the same hairstyle as mine.)
WOOTS. I AM MAKING A STATEMENT WITH MY HAIR. LOL.
*grins* -i realised that most ppl would either start talking to me cuz of my hair...
or they'll just run/shun me when it comes to playing club or cpl dance.
and i'm getting sick of it.
:the reason behind the change of my hairstyle.

lolololol.
random note: &&-- did you know that auditonSEA has not much creativity?
OMG. most of the techno-ish/fast-paced/catchy songs in audi...
are made up many mash-up of the different lyrics here and there lorrs!
dotsdotsdots.
it's like the tunes are diff, but the bgm LYRICS are rip-offs frm one another! oO"
LOL. been noticing it since i've been choing-ing audi...
(must listen to them CAREFULLY.)

anyways...
imma like draining my phone batt lorrs. ahahas.
listening to music and texting.
aye~ got tuition ltr. ><"
*sighs* -i gtg lerhhs.
cya soon then. buhbye~! O:

last day of school holidays.

2008-06-22T17:47:00.000+08:00

back for a post.
going offline after this.
gotta prepare things for school.
and also... tmr school starts!! DD:
LOL. siann.

when sch reopens...
i wouldn't be blogging very often alr.
maybe just once or twice a week. or if imma free.

*sighs*
and i've nt completed my sch hmwk yet siol. X:
die. and then there's my tuition hmwk too. oso haben do. oO"
(ltr she coming for me lerhhs. ><"!! my mentos~~) lol...

it's day 2 without him.
and i'm still doing okay. on the outside.
my heart still hurts. ALOT.

just saw him online. in audi.
the atmosphere was freaking awkward.
grey was there too. but, blehh. i still feel so awkward lorrs.
we didn't even talked.
this was how bad it was. between us. ):

he went off pretty fast too.
wondering if he's really going off to go out or just to avoid me.

my life...
isn't the same without him.
everything changes when he first came into my life.
it changes again when he left.

really don't know what i would do without him.
& my whole love life is turned upside down. Dx

didn't actually except this to end so fast...
*sighs*

anyways...
thanks, grey. for trying to help me. (':
i appreciate the help.
lol. but he's not doing anything yet so... idk. ><"
*blurred*

been choing audi this mth.
when school reopens, i won't be playing much lerhhs. =OLEVELS.

then, there's the chinese olvl MT oral... coming this week till next mth.

which reminds me that, i'll be celebrating my birthday alone this year.
as usual. )):
thought i could spent it with him. ohwells.
alone, i shall be.
gone is our 2nd mth anniversary too.

...
y'know... i have the biggest urge to tell my mum this...
'ma, wo shi lian le.'
but then she'll be like nagging & comforting me. oO"
which is even more horrible. T-T
i figured out that i shld just shuddup.

i turn to all my friends.
and i'm glad that they're there for me.

i'm irritated that i've to keep repeating what i've done.
and everytime i bring it up, i'm on the verge of breaking down.
soooo. stop asking me anymore.
lol. maybe i shld just change my msn nick too.

feeling very suicidal now.
(DD: -goodness. *sighs*
maybe i should prepare a will for myself soon. ><"
LOL. oO"
imma prepared to die at anytime anyways.)

dotsdotsdots.
like all heartbroken ppl, i'm listening to depressing songs.

One More Chance &
Heartbreaker -Will.i.am ft. Cheryl Cole.

lol. all the break up parts & whatsoever.
getting over it easily & vice versa.
i'm stuck between both. T__T
SOBS. i'm beginning to hate my life again.

emo-ing again.
paisehh luhh. if you can tahan me until here, thank you very much.
cannot, then just leave... the red button is just at the top right hand corner.

i've been in a very bad/depressing mood.
and this is how i'm going to start my school days.
why must all the timing be so wrong?!
during exam time... then just before my MT oral exams.
AIYO. my goodness. heaven is playing tricks with me... D:
=.= - i must have a bad rep in my previous life....

anyways.
it's going to be dinner time.
and i shall rush off to complete my work.
hope the emoness will go away asap. ))x
so, i'll cya peeps again. hopefully, tmr again. lol.
then blog here again. ;P
cya peepo. <3 manyloves.

100th POST. (:

2008-06-21T12:53:00.002+08:00

wooots~! 100th post worrs! xDD
hahas. LOL.
i've been here for 9 mths already. cool. *grins*

am i feeling better?
well... maybe. D:

still emo-ing. lols.
(can't stop myself to be emo.)
*sighs*
my heart still aches as much as yesterday.

lifewithouthim: day1.

i still can do without him.
i still have life to do. i still gotta live on without him.
i know this sounds all so dramatic.
but... inside, i feel much horrible.
trying to make myself forget about all the bad incidents that had just happened.

currently, i'm trying to cope with my crazy mood swings.
(imma like happy at one point and then suddenly pissed and sad again. oO")

so, in the meantime...
no sappy love songs. no lovey-dovey shows. no PDAs.
just DON'T mention anything that will remind me of THAT. please.

i'm glad that i've got ppl ard me who cares. ^^,
they are my life savers currently. lol. :P
thank you, guys. for making me feel much better. (:

and i'm having tuition later. lol.
also on sunday too.

WHICH REMINDS ME... that SCHOOL will be starting in TWO DAYS' TIME.
oO" -right. i've nt really completed all of my school's work. X:
uhhh~oh.

btw. i haven't got back my phone yet.
mr.k lahh. never come on friday. so cannot claim. =.=
RAHH. *clench fists*
LOL. monday lorrs.

hmmm. i'm still able to sleep quite well last night.
even though i wake up with my heart aching again.

i kinda sorted my thoughts out already.
and i think that, if we belonged together, this wouldn't bring us down.
since it did, it means i wasn't the one for him. and not for me either.
the good times and the memories will be kept here.
and more of them, in my head.

to love is not to hold on.
and how many times have i told myself that already...
lol. haiish. ohwells...
ready to let go of any hopes that we'll be tgt again.
and when i succeed, i wish him happiness, and all the best in whatever he does.

suddenly...
Go On Girl by Neyo.
suits his situation PERFECTLY. lol.
ermms. yeahh. i'm the bad girl. because i've let him down.
no matter how much i apologise, it'll be of no use.
asking me to go on... would probably be the best solution.

but i had the love for him.
because he was special. i felt so much more with him.
just that problems arised were more.
and then... everything just went wrong... *sighs*
my fault. i know.

anyways... ><"
i shld stop saying liaos. if nt, i'll feel EVEN worse. X: -aye.
inside, it's this: >>> T___T
ermms. lol. but i'm trying to put up a strong front.
so my family wouldn't worry for me.

i'll shall be off for lunch.
and then prepare for tuition.
hmmm. gonna try play audi.
i just wonder if i'm still able to stay in the guild. DDx
*sighs* -ohwells.

buhbye peeps.

ourLOVESTORY. hadENDEDhere.

2008-06-20T07:37:00.004+08:00

i guessed as much.
and i was mentally prepared.

i played my self test too far this time.
and in the end, i lost the man i love.

i offically lost him at 2am this morning.

and i know there's nothing i can do anymore to bring him back.

the trust is gone. and he can't accepts what i've done.
so that's that. i'd tried to salvage the problem. i guess it was of no use.

i was stunned for words.
i couldn't bring myself to explain on the phone cuz i was filled with so much emotion back then.
i should have just done it.
damn, now, it's over.

i don't know if he's going to read this.
but today, early this morning, i'm here to say that...

i am sorry.

for whatever i have done to you. i was mean. and now, this is my retribution.

before i called him, i cried.
after he hung up on me, i cried (again) immediately.
i don't know what else i could do.
my mind would never forget a guy like him.
now that i know that he truly loves me.
but what's the use of knowing this now...

it's all too late.

he's gone.

i didn't have a good night's rest at all.
felt so listless in bed for the very first time.
told myself that i should move on since he has left.
but i don't want to.
that's because i went through so much for him.
i cried a total of 3 times just because i missed him.

(stops and think.)
haiish. this is bad. i got myself in such a big mess.
tears were shed. words were exchanged.
yet nothing could be done to save this relationship i've put all my heart into.

we said we'll make this work. but...
the efforts were in vain. and i have myself to blame.

so, i have decided to remain single.
even if i won't be able to get married.

because my heart will only stop at him. and for no one else.

before i stop here and prepare my stuff to go to school this morning,
i must say that...
i love him still. and whatever time is going to do me, i'll never forget you in this lifetime.
i'm truly, seriously remorseful for what i've done... adding this game that i've played too far.
guess i couldn't bring this outta my mouth last night...
for i've feared the worst.
because i hoped there was something i could do to solve this problem.
it's all a tad too late.

a part of me is willing to let go, as i have thought it long and have also come to my senses.
a part of me still loves him, after i knew what he went through his heart, just for me.

no use pleading. no use saving.
all i can say now, if anything here still doesn't explain well enough...
is that i really enjoyed the times when we were together.
i seriously had alot of fun. and i had never got bored.
i remembered every single details of what had happened to us this 43 days together.
i thought that i would not ever find a guy like you anymore because i was hoping that you were the one for me.
from the time we first met in audi, till the last call we made this morning.
the love between us will never change. at least for me.
because yours is already gone.

shall stop here.
and get ready to go to school.
hopefully, i'll be able to get my phone back.
and probably msg him or something. idk.
i really don't what to do lerhhs.
ohwells. cya peeps. till i'm feeling better. ):

hold back, female.

2008-06-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

i have the urge to jump down a building right now. X:
trying not to emo.
because my mood swings hits me fast and hard.
well... women are fickle-minded.
and so am i. sometimes.

so about ignoring him.
i've totally forgotten about it.
because it's useless for me to do that.
it'll nvr work.
i even tried calling him yesterday.
but he didn't pick up.
ohwells.

idk what else i shld say.
because, inside me, i feel horrible.
....
not only because i didn't get to see him on monday.
it's because his moods affect me.

these 2 weeks, we haven't been talking much.
nor have we been talking properly.
and it upsets me much.

to tell you the truth, i have never gone this far.
being attached for 41 days.

and seriously speaking, i'm uber inexperienced in this.

never ever have i gone through heart-wrenching breakups...
nor have fights or quarrels with my partner.
or having to put up with bad tempers. or whatever shit.

so, you can say that i'm still a noob in the area of love.
lol. maybe i, myself, don't even know how to even love someone anymore.
because, the image of true love has lost its meaning like a long time ago.

i've been playing with the world since i was 13.
and of course, i got into trouble with my parents time to time.
but that's not it, i even got into trouble with myself, my heart.
and now, i'm stopping at him.
then again...

i don't really believe in happily ever after.
though i know that my parent's failed marraige hasn't got anything to do with me.
blah blah blah.
but still...
i'm afraid that mine will end up like them one day.

*sighs*
perhaps i should stop here.
if i go any further, i think i'll start crapping and do some shit that will cause me more trouble than ever. ><"

gotta hold back & calm down.
(don't freak out. lol. X:)
i might just be thinking too much.
but... well. imma really not good at bgr.
even though i had quite a number of guys.
they weren't even real, like being serious about me.

aye.
lols. i'll be here for awhile only anyways.
nothing much to write.
so not a long entry.
i've been slacking pretty much today.
hahas. see ya ppl then.
buhbye. DDx

*poofs*

weddingPARTY: success! ^^,

2008-06-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

i just remembered...
last friday was friday the 13th. LOL.
bad luck? sure. i had some.
><" -i didn't get to go out with jou. T-T
siian. but i went out alone instead.
hahas. just to para lorrs.

anyways.
i had tuition early this morning.
and made it in time for mich's wedding. at free 10.
(as what her fwens call her. aka -eDc-DARKx3)

CONGRATS TO -eDc-DARKx3 & -eDc-LIGHTx3! <3
for passing wedding party on second try! ^^,
may you guys stay together as long as possible.
and love one another like nobody's business. LOL. xP

wahahahas. (just select all to see. xP)
OMG. andand~

I GOT THE FLOWER.

lols! xDD
lucky me. HAH. x33
when will it be my turn, hmm?
ROFL. it's not like i'm gonna get married next. X:
wells... that depends if he wants it anort luhhs. oO"
*sighs* - i hardly see him online in audi oso anyways.
so how to cpl like that?! OMT.

ooh. i found another 3 more songs. ^^
55 total. xDD
but i won't be putting the playlist up here yet. heh.
lazy arhhs. xP

listening to it now. heh. ((:

anyways.
i haben eat yet. X:
lols. fried rice for dinner. ^^
&&-- i shld call him soon. *sighs*
intend to ignore him derhhs till past friday. X:
but i cannot take it anymore lahh.
RAHH. but then again, he shld be working now. DDx -siann.
hw to call him sia. =__=
ohwells...

imma very bored now.
flings aren't good for your health.
super bored.
one day... not only will it bring you heaps of trouble.
and i'm starting to crap already. oO"
it can kill you! OMG. beware to all flirts out there. ><"
ROAR.

hahahas. ohhyesh. i remembered something.
must complete school hmwk asap.
and play para again soon. ^^
lols.

i shld go download o2jam.
hahas. it's been a LONG time since i touched o2jam. hehes. xP

ahhh. i shall be on my way to dinner & downloading o2jam. hehes.
so, till further notice~! cya peepo. ;)
XOXO: --sky3/zaryl. <33

my heart wants you.
it's just that, nowadays... i don't feel yours with mine.
when will we ever be as close as we were before again?

mondayBLUES...?

2008-06-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

finding auditionSEA songs on imeem. xDD
i know there's ALOT MORE out there... but so far~ i found 52.
hahas. i even included those songs i hardly hear on audi when i play.
lols. trying to find the WHOLE playlist.
the actual & most current one. xP

and now~ it gives me the HUGE urge to leave blogging now.
to go audi!! xDD
wahahahas. butbutbut~
i won't. ^^,
hehes. shall type finish first bahhs. lols.
(&&--enjoy my AUDITIONsea playlist.)

one day, i'll even do an analysis of the diff songs in audi that are good for playing.
and the people's faves for which mode. *grins~!*

anyways...
there was emaths today.
and probability is kinda hard siol. ><"
hahas. though looking at it again, it's easy.
but listing the events out and blahh, blahh, blahh... OMG.
quite hard sia. X: -lol.
got bored soon. hahas.
but got hmwk still lehhs. give until so much. =.=

and then, what's worse is that EMATHS is the FIRST LESSON OF THE WEEK.
OMG. siannn. must start doing asap.
(and yupps, new timetable is out. they just put it up today. i just saw. LOL. ;P)

T_T :CLEO june issue all gone liaos.
i wanted to get it when i've gt the cash. and now, i got lerhhs.
then no more liaos. DD:
double OMG. uwahh. so~ at the inter, i just bought the july issue lorrs. *winks*

HINT: my big day is coming very very SOON. xDD
apparently, it's youth day too. ((:
weeee~ ;D -lalalalas~ *grins*

lols. that was when i was making my way home. *sighs*
today, i made a wasted trip. wells...
it isn't really his fault. cuz everything happened with unforseen circumstances.
(it's a matter of 'yin cha yang cuo' lorrs. ><")

to think i was like so anxious to see him.
OHWELLS. lol.
luckily, still, i made it home in time... not to let my parents scold me like BLEHH. x3
hahas. lols. they just asked where i went.
to tm. X: -SHHH.

so, on my way home...
my mind was like:
(walking back.)
*sighs* -it's such a waste. MY MONEY.
DAMNIT. nvm.
*kinda pissed*
blank.
i should hv called him last night. but i couldn't. all the phones were hidden.
blank.
(at the MRT station.)
let me get my one buck back.
blank.
train is here! quick!
(in the train.)
*sits down*
blank.
ahh. changi is so far lehhs. if i had the time, i would go join him or something.
how can he not ask me to tag along! no fun for me! how evil.
blank.
*upset*
blank.
(in the train... still.)
blank.
hope i'll get home in time.
blank.
(switched trains.)
seems like all the trains are in sync today. LOLS. xD
good! cuz this is damn rare. hahas.
blank.
*sad*
wished i could see him. but, AHHH. whatever.
blank.
(saw a seat... sat down.)
*naps*
blank.
i feel like wacking the lights outta him.
blank.
what should i blog today?
blank.
maybe i shld just start ignoring him. since... i'll be doing it even more when sch reopens.
blank.
i feel like crying. LOL. X:
i just got stood up, y'knw. *sighs*
blank.
*naps again*
blank.
(alighted the train.)

and i stopped thinking abt it already.
until now. LOLS. X:

long ehh? psps~ hope i didn't bore you or anything. lol. x3
anywys...
nth much lohhhs. hahahas.
not emo-ing. don't worry. just BLANK.
because idk how i shld be feeling now.
mixed up shit. ohwells.
i go audi for a while lerhhs. xDD

buhbye ppl. (:
<3loveya.

BORED. (happyFATHERS'day!)

2008-06-15T20:36:00.004+08:00

gosh. it's the last week of the june holidays already... D:
&&-- i still have to go back to sch tmr!
SIANN.

i've been SUPER freaking bored this few days.
... until i nearly went hysterical. seriously.
(just yesterday lorrs. X:)
it's not just not having my phone that's killing me.
it's also not being able to play audi or touching my lappy! RAHH.

but i'm glad i'm seeing him tmr. ^^,
after school, i mean. hehes. <33
><" *sighs*
&& not forgetting to say~~
......

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!

woots~! xDD
hahas. to all fathers! ^^,
i just wanna thank my dad for being able to provide food, money & clothes for us.
at least, he's not like my mum who would always wack me. Dx
lols. he's the very calm guy and scolds & nags with reason.
(gotta apologise sincerly abt making him worry~ ><" -ermms. that night when i ton/went 'missing' without a trace.) *sighs* :blehh. x3
i know he dotes me. ^^, -hehes.
that is probably why when i was younger~ i chose my dad over my mum.
to who i loved more. LOL.
(it was also because the family was going through a divorce. X:)
and though he's busy with work...
i knw that he still cares for us. (:
just that... he is starting to nag more this few years. hahahas. xP
still~
iLOVEyou, daddy. <3

hahas. we didn't do anything special though. (aww...)
just visited my grandmother at my aunt's house.
and ate chicken rice for dinner. ;P
then send my cousin to tm.
and we came home.

lols. we all very moody.
my bros were like that cuz they didn't want to go for a haircut. lol.
were forced to. and now their hairstyle... they aren't really liking it? =_=
so yeahh. as for me, it's because i'm bleeping bored.
and i had my mum shooting her mouth off to my dad abt me waking up at night to play.
plus my brother whining & complaining that i used his phone. X:
RAHHH. i just wanted to call him. and play games.
i hv no intention to poke in his private affairs. AT ALL. =.=
UGH. )x -so i became like that too.

now~ (: we're all okay, i guess.
later... i'll get cubes of chocolate to eat! xDD
a gift frm my aunt. wahahas. *grins*

hmm. he's at work still. ;)
AND. i have every intention to pop up at his workplace~. ;P
kekes. though i have not been there yet...
(&&--i heard that jou had sorta seen him already! oO" -OMG.) -LOLS. :D
wells... i'm just glad he got spotted without me being there. double LOLS. xP

random note: no tuition today. yays. LOL.

anyways~ i shall be heading to the dance floor. ;)
i hear auditionSEA calling me. *grins*
wahahahas. xDD yet another short post, i suppose. ^^
hehes. and just last night... i finally wrote in my diary.
lols. :P -after 25 long days. ><"
i might be writing abit today. hehes.
and not forgetting a letter to him. x3
i know i haven't been writing to him much.
that's because... i'm busy. and lazy. wahahahahas. xDD
woopies. but nowadays, i'm more free. so i'll definitely write. ^^,

see you guys ard then. ((: -buhbye~ <33

SLACKish friday.

2008-06-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

boo(:
i am back. as fast as i could. lol.
and i leave as quick too. *grins*

hahas. a short lil' post today.
probably one of the most shortest post i've blogged. LOL.
or maybe not. lol. i couldn't care less anymore. blahh.

spotted the AuditionUS website.
hahas. i joined in. and now... i'm downloading the game.
omg. it's taking really long. and the space is HUGE.
but i think it's worth it.
because they have all the western songs that AuditionSEA doesn't have.
and it's not fair! DD:
lols. i'm just wondering how am i gonna get nexon cash. oO"
LOL. x3
i can't wait to start playing. and become a noob again. *grins*
double LOL. xD

&&-- i replied the email he sent to me.
a very long one.
got kinda emotional on this one... and i teared twice.
i shldn't have done it. but i was deprived... of love.
then again, we have communications as a problem.
i mean, technically, we have a problem. *sighs*
><" i just don't know how to him that...

i still...
-think of him alot when he's not around me.
-miss like mad. until all my heart muscles cringe & contract.
-get super duper happy when i see him on msn.
-have a sudden rush of happiness when i get to talk to him on the phone.
-love him as much as we first got together.
best of all, i can almost faint when i get to meet him.
(somehow... everytime, i managed not to faint. ;D -LOL. ^^ )

seriously... it's taking a long time. ):
OMG.
rahhh. anyways...
i had tuition earlier this morning. lols. didn't really finish my work.
to be exact, school homework.
hahas. X:
still got amaths worr. but i can't print it out! =.=
damn the printer, no ink.

thenn... i just slacked my whole day off.
hahas. blog-hopped on the many guilds' blogs. (didn't know audi gt so many. hahas. oO")
then i watched youtube videos~ on george sampson.
damn, he's just 14 and he can do breakdance AND HAVE like...
idk... the whole audience SCREAMING for him.
he's cute! lols. but he's just younger than me. xP
AND he won BGT 2008.
failed last year. but he came back with a killa dance routine. OMG.
intheRAIN. xDD
hot.
no wonder everyone screamed. ...even me.*grins*
simon cowell SAID something EXCELLENT for this guy.
it's SO RARE for him to do that.
so this is a MUST WATCH.
(this time, i'm not very nice. so go find it yourself on youtube. ;P hehes.)

ohhh. i found out that my bro has a blog.
and SAME BLOGSKIN as MINE oso worr~. hahas.
can't be bothered to link him though.
lol. he link me back and... GOSH. who knows what he'll do! X:

anyways~
i couldn't call him last night. lols.
phones were gone... and protected. i can't take to call. ):
*sighs* wanted to tell him i replied.. yet idk how to approach it. ohwells.
i've already said it here & in my tagboard. hope he sees it or something.

ahhh. after watching all those vids...
i accompanied my mum to NTUC FairPrice to buy groceries.
(heh. i got myself... DOVE. 2 bottles. shampoo & conditioner. read: expensive stuff for my hair. xDD)
woots~! thanks ma! <3 :DAMN. *grins*
hahas. bought ALOT of things... so heavy nehh. lol.
i carry all the way home in a big tote bag worrs.
whereas, my mum had a big trolley to push her part of the grocery buyings. (:
hahas. i see loads of FOOD. :DD

lol. after that... i slacked some more.
hahas. can't be bothered to do my homework liaos.
kekes. then bathe~ now i'm online! lols.

haven't been audi-ing much lately either. haiish.
more like surfing the net more nowadays.
lols. also, i've been thinking to set up a blog site for the couples in audi! xD
like a audi couple website! oso like an online dating agency kinda thingy~. (:
how's that ehh? ^^,
all i need is a VERY GOOD audi blogskin. ;P
and many more html codes to play ard with. lols.

hmm...
can't rmb my random thoughts anymore. LOL. xP
paisehh siol. hahas.
... wells. i gtg lerhhs. play abit of audi, then i'm returning the lappy liaos.
besides, i have a date with JOU tmr. ;)
wahahahas. love ya as always! <33
byebye peeps~ i'll see ya ard.
XOXO:~ahsky3/zaryl.

everyoneLOVESa--(HappyEnding).

2008-06-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

gosh. what's up with me today?
i feel flirtatious and all that kind of sorts.
lols. ><"~

the books just won't interact with me...
so i turn to him. he doesn't pick the phone call.
tried songs to appease myself. EVEN worse.
last resort. online ppl. DDx
hahas. still no use.

i'm into janet jackson today. LOL.
the songs in her latest album, Discipline, are hot. (:
i love the beats man.
completely falling in love with them. ^^
i can never get bored listening to them over & over again.
like my Black & Gold. by Sam Sparro. xD
(sorry, i just HAD to say his name. LOLS. ;P)

hahas. (:
hmmm... had tuition today.
english. AND maths. =__=
OMG. *screams* HOMEWORK~~!

talked to this guy across the globe. (ehem. *grins*)
LOLS. ~~he's hot.~~ SHHH.

AHHH. BLEEEP TO BLOGGER'S 'EDIT HTML' THINGY.

sorry, i just had to rant.

see. i just CAN'T DO HTML!!! RAHHH.

(okays. back to the topic.)
....
i still love my boytoy alot. <33
because the time spent with him is my dream/fairy tale which i don't want to be waken up from.
it's an indescribable feeling that lovers will feel towards their partners. (:
that's how i'm feeling. my love for him is just beyond words already.

blahhh. *grins*
everyone loves a happy ending.
don't they? ;D

i'm waiting for mine to arrive.

and now, he's being so evil to my heart.
i've gotta wait till nxt monday... so i can see him. Dx
but i understand why.
i want more time with him anyway. <33loves.

anyways...
i knw what i owe. lols. pictures!
(aiya. no phone, so no pics mahh.)
but as you knw.... i HATE putting photos up on blogger.
it takes me hours to do it. (the caption and alignment already kills me.)
not mentioning resizing lorrs. BLAHH.

so~ can someone help me or teach me how to do photos properly in blogger?
please... DO NOT BRING IN OR INVOVLE HTML.
because i am a html retard. rahhh. ):

lols.
you knw... imma supposed to be choing-ing all kinds of hmwk this week.
but i've been quite slack. LOL. xDD
wahahahahas. got lahh. got do english hmwk. abit here and there lorrs.
gonna do emaths one tmr. ><"
tian arhh. must choing sia. SIANNN. DDx
and maybe chem... a few days ltr. also gonna check elearn very soon.
see gt any other hmwk lorrs.

then i'll do revision very, very soon too.
lols. probably this is why my life isn't exciting anymore.
hahas. ><" -because i'm focusing on my studies 1st.
then gt nth much to blog abt lerhh lorrs. *sighs*

blogger just cut the random stuff i typed. ROAR. evil. ):
ahh. if tmr i finish my hmwk in time... i will blog them out. hahas.
that is also if i can rmb them lahhs. *grins*

gosh. i will start to random all kinds of shit if i don't get outta here now.
oO" -LOLS. xD
weeee~ because it's going to be midnight.
(here comes the wolf howling~! O:)
OMG. see see see? LOLOLOLS.
gtg to bathe, then slp. xP
cya & TC ppl. sayonara.

XOXO--:<3zaryl.

yet another typical post.

2008-06-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

another update here! *grins*
LOL. okays. i'm just being a lil' random here.

*sighs*~
i didn't call him the whole of yesterday.
was out at bugis with my mum. LOL.
but i did go online.
waited for him to come. guess it was kind of late, i think.
like i was on... till 2 plus?
not there. so... i went out. xP

shopping with mums are great.
(SOMETIMES.)
well... the good parts are that you don't have to pay for the things you want...
and better still, you can get a lil' bit more if they are in a good mood.
also... good shopping & fashion advice from mums.
because they know best. LOLS. ;D

hmm. probably the bad parts are...
you'll have to BEG them to get this or that because it's a tad too ex or something.
or you have a budget to work with, STILL. when you're out with her.
wahahahas. xDD

anyways... i got the good parts! *grins widely*
LOLS. xDD
i got a camera necklace. ^^, lol.
&&-- a new pair of slippers. but it's glimmery with all that lil' squares of mirror or something.
^^ -LOL. ;))

wanted to buy a pair of shorts too.
apparently, i didn't because i think it's kinda too ex for a pair of shorts to be like 22 bucks++.
lols. wells... it's the standard price everywhere in bugis street.
maybe it's just me nt willing to buy it from small stalls...
with me dressing up so nicely.
LOL. X:

idk why i dressed up so nicely either.
(it's the emo thing going on in me. the knee-high socks & all.)
hmmm...
lemme answer myself.
well... i think it's because i hardly head out with my mum... or just with myself.
to bugis or anywhere near town.
so it's kinda special bahh.
since i only dress up for special occasions. hahas. xP

anyways...
random thoughts:

i haven't start doing my sch hmwk. lol. ermms. oops.
gotta start soon. 2nd week of june lerhhs.

can't wait for nxt friday to come.
that's when i'll finally get muah phone back.

idk when i'll see him again.
*sighs* -the big day was spent apart.
gosh. and to think it was supposed to be special and all.
whatever happened to that... lol. maybe i'm just wanting too much.
i really don't know.

i think jesse mccartney's songs are mainly abt love...
AND a hint of some sexual appeal of some sorts. LOLS. it's all in the lyrics.

timezone finally replaced ezone @ TM.

it's just adding tim- into -ezone, changing the staff and adding more machines.

WHY THE HECK DID THEY HAVE TO MOVE THE PARA MACHINE?!?!?!
OMG. RAHHHHH. EVIL PEOPLE. *inserts very anrgy & pissed face*

dotdotdot.
=.= -there goes my crowd...
lols. it's gonna get reduced lorrs. kao. not fair.
those toy-grabbing-machines-that-you-will-never-get-the-toys-inside are more IMPORTANT.
those that will waste the people more money than the para machine or whatever they're gonna think. RAHHHH.
and not the para machine and the amount of entertainment AND people they're gonna get anymore.

T-T SOOBBBSS.
not fair(x3ooooooooo)~! X:
then now... my only ezone token is worthless liaos.
and must get a freaking reloadable card from timezone.

and the standing places/spots ard the machines aren't GOOD anymore.
surveyed the area. OMG. no good.
....
okays. only the spot at the back. but you cannot even see the arrows!!
and in front of the tekken5 machine. that few steps away frm the machine. lol.

the rest is for the audience to just WATCH.
and not like me, watch AND practice to dance.

blahhh. and the price is like the same. VIP price only minus 1O CENTS. wth.

hmmm. i feel like creating a more private blog.
even though i know the world would be watching. LOL.
it's more like less people i'm familiar with will probably know abt it or something.
other than here... this, my offical blog. hahas.
still can't say much abt how i REALLY feel. or what i can vent about.

anyways...
that's abt it.
nth much today. cuz we're not talking much.
and the spark i initally had for him is reducing.
idk why... maybe it's my studies. LOL. shhh.
but i still love him very much. just nt as enthu as before.

ohh. has anyone read this?
(it's from andystorm's blog btw.) hahas.
--AHH. get well soon, andy! ^^, (medicine all prepared.) LOLOLOL. xDD

well... i dun really bother to read xiaxue's blog...
cuz it's got too much ads. LOLS.
but this got me thinking a bit.
hmm... i think it's more like she wants to vent her anger at her ex's gf lorrs.
so she started a blog. LOL.
other than keeping a blog, so it'll not be deleted or 'thrown away', as she says.
(i mean, probably a part of her thinks that way... but she knows that she'll get into trouble or whatever shit. hah. so maybe she just don't want to think abt it that way lahh.)

LOLS. wells... that's what i can come up with. lols.
even princess sabrina linked him up.
i spotted her in jayden's post. (couldn't get the actual link. got the archive instead.)
the date is may 9th. (:

hahas. ahhh.
okays. i wanna go audi liaos.

another random note: viwawa players~! TRY WAHLORDS. (if you haven't.)
LOLS. xDD -OMG. i looovvveee the game!! ^^,
so fun nehh! hehes. it's like burn, burn, burn EVERYTHIING and EVERYONE down!
woots~! xDD wahahahhas.

kkkays. xP -imma need to stop, and try to call him, and then play audi. *grins*
love you guys all. <33
and him. x3LOVES. 32days!
weeee~~
BOO~;D
lols. buhbye~! ((:

CRAZY weather!

2008-06-07T17:50:00.002+08:00

omg. the weather in june is crazy...
almost mad, i tell you. ><"

and today's SO cold. D:
yesterday... was hot. oO"
lols. why is the weather throwing tantrums?
GLOBAL WARMING.
hah. that's what i think. (very soon, singapore will snow. OMG. i can't wait! *grins*)

please take care of yourself, peeps!
including him.^^,

anyways...
couldn't go outing. ): so stayed at home lorrs. T-T
i hope they had fun! ((:

OHYEAHHH. ;DD
i am superduperuber ELATED that he's able to walk now! xDD

lazy to blog yesterday.
was busy slacking at audi. HAHA. xD
and then... busy freaking out.
cuz... i didn't finish my amaths tuition hmwk... X:

LOL. and i haven't freak out so seriously for quite a long time already.
hahas. this morning... i was just DAMN GLAD that she didn't scold me. ^^

i promise to do my homework already!!!
OMG. i CANNOT slack liaos...
no more procastinating! DDx

haiish...
anyways... nth much on today.
tuition. lunch. LONG LONG nap. xDD
then, here i am, blogging! LOLS. ^^
might be heading out with my mum to shop.
(cuz it's been a DAMN long time since the two of us went out to shop lerhhs.
besides, i need some new clothes in my wardrobe.)

i feel quite random today.
and very musically bouncy.
(lol. idk what kinda term i came up with.. but i feel like that. xP)

haven't been writing my diary cuz i already am busy with blogging.
hahas. x3 :oops. imma just lazy. (:

anyways...

tmr's the big day!!

goosh. xDD
31days. 31days. 31 days. 31days. 31days.
i am actually quite excited about it! *grins*
my present is almost done...
well, i must get it done by today.
as for meeting up... ><"
idk if i'm able to get out lehhs. D:
haiish. X:
calling him later norr.
now cannot siol. mum at home. and i'm wondering if he'll be on msn at least.

butbut~ weee~! xDD
OMG. we've come so far! and..
wait.

oO" -i realised that...
i still don't know much about him!! X:
uhhhh. ohno. ):
what kinda girlfriend am i?! omt. omg. T-T

i want more time with him!! RAHHH.
*flips hands randomly*

heh. ;P
and speaking of him... uwahh. i miss him. <33
it's such a sudden urge. x33
blehhs. not saying i don't like it... but it's just that... he...
comes into my thoughts randomly, it shocks me. oO"
&&-- i get super emotional super quick.
so.. so.. idk why. but i'm trying my best not to cry. *sighs*

wherever he is, he will be loved every single second.
every time i take a breath in, he always be missed. (:
aishiteiru.
and there is nothing more simple than that.
beacuse i really mean it, from the bottom of the endless pit in my heart.

*sighs*
i need a hug.

LOL. hmmm...
it's almost dinner time. and my mum presents CURRY as our dinner tonight!
yummy~~! xDD
( ihopehehaseaten.)
i'm going to sign outta here soon.
nth much alr mahh. kekes.
then... need to eat dinner oso mahh. (:

i might audi for a while. lol.

so~~see you guys ard! ^-^
anymore updates... till the nxt entry! buhbye.
XOXO: ahsky3/zaryl. <3

2nd week of holidays.

2008-06-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

blehh. imma lazy to change back to verdana.
so i shall use the default font. (:

lols. blogging here once again.
and i'm going to have tuition later. =_=
english. hahas. luckily, i've finished my essay. xD
and then, there's another one on saturday morning.
my maths + sciences tuition.
(must go cramming on my 80 integration questions in 2days liaos~! OMG.)

i wonder how bad her reaction will be when she sees my mid-year results.
LOL. X:
because it's horrible... idk what else to say.
still thinking if i shld REALLY DROP.
i've been through one&ahalf years of studying double sciences.
and then left only abt 3 mths... TO STUDY COMBINED science.
i mean it's okay since combined is only half of what i study each.
(if i study hard enuff... i might just catch up.)

like if double sciences is 200%, then combined would be 100%.
lol. but it's the practical assesment i'm afraid of lehh.
because i heard frm the teachers saying that it's VERY different from SPA...

so i haven't hand up the form yet. lol. ><"
i wonder if echa would be considering to drop too.

hmm....
seriously... i'll be blogging lesser liaos. X:
it's sad. cuz of prelims arriving in august.
and i NEED to study. BAHH.
hope i'm not procastinating. ><"
LOL. siiiannned.

cramming, mugging, pia-ing, chiong-ing.
all this for olvls.
ADDOIL-JIAYOU.
lololololols. i'm just crapping.

soon, it will build up stress in my brain unwittingly.
and i'll have white hair and face full of stress-induced pimples.
OMG. then... i'll coop myself at home even more by then. HAH.
Oo" -right, that's what is going to happen to me bahhs. LOL....

anyways... to not-so-stressing things.
hmmm...
had school yesterday. had to go back for chem remedial.
told mr. baka that i'm dropping... lols.
but i was still there for his organic chemistry tutorial. (:
well... sitting there for 3hrs with no rest can kill.
and i was the 1st to get outta the room.
LOL. because of my tummy killing me. DDx
cannot take it anymore. ahahahas.

lol. when i was shitting... the feeling is...

DAMN SHIOK SIOL. ;D

LOL. xDD
then i rushed out of school to take the bus to inter...
(i was meeting him. hehes. SHHH.)

and then this ARSEHOLE of an uncle...
made muah pay $1.10 for my bus ride.
!#$^&*&%$#%#!^@*!
lucky i was rushing for time...
if not... i would scream at him and probably kill him. O.O"
hmph. ONE FREAKING BUCK.
FOR 3 STUPID SHORT STOPS.

i'm definitely pissed. cursed and sweared in my heart at the uncle.
frm i got on the bus till i reached the interchange. RAHHH.

anyways... i was kinda worrying if i would have enuff time to see him.
cuz i was SUPER tight for time.
so, throughout the whole journey...
i was thinking up a plan. LOLS.

thank you echa! ^^,
omg. i can't thank you enough for covering me. (:

hahas. lols.
waited for him to come down.
it was my first time feeling so impatient lorr. ><"
cuz... TIME LAHH.
cuz... iwasubertightfortime.
and then... 15 mins felt like probably an hour plus. X:
nearly scolded all the darn words i could think of lorrs.

oopies. not in a very good mood bahh.

and i was taken aback by his matching hawaiian shirt and shorts.
ermmm. LOLS. xDD
well... he's the first one i know who seems so daring to wear that out.
to harbourfront somemore. ((:
all i can say is : lololololol. ROFL.
(heng i was in sch uni. xP)

he had to go to harbourfront to get his scanner fixed. LOL.
and to collect his repaired camera.
so.. it was like a trade uhhs. he gives the scanner, then gets the camera.
hahas. :P funfun. LOL. i'm just crapping randomly...

anyways.
accompanied him to kfc.
lol. he ate his dinner there. i ate one piece of his chicken. xP
thankyou,sweetie! ^^,
aye~ i was hungry uhh. it was dinner time anyway. x33

and then go toilet wash hand.
DAMN. the toilets for the babies are like in another room.
which is like SO cute. and so darn cool lorrs. x))
sooooo nice.... i wished i could take a pic of it. maybe nxt time. LOLOLOL. xD

then i had to head home already. siann. )x
no choice cuz i'm seriously tight for time.
blehh... and i had to get down the next stop to switch.
so fast nehh. Dx
before i left....i passed him the letters. (:
and showed him the pendant i DIY-ed. xP
it's supposed to be a couple kinda thingy. heh.

but i wasn't done yet. so i couldn't give. X: -woops.

came home late as usual. *sighs*
but it was an improvement lorr. it's a start! ^^,
15 mins late. LOL.
i must come home on time the nxt time i go out...

talked to jou in the night.
called stu for a while to scold him. LOL.
i had a reason. but it's more of an inside joke. :P
we laughed our asses off. ;DD
ROFL.

called mine later at night for a while.
not really a good timing. but still call. i dun care nuhh. xP
hahas. i was thinking of him before i decided to call him.
lols. the best thing was that we were both reading horoscopes! xDD
cool ehh!! ^^,
i was reading his horoscope in my lil' horoscope book. LOL.
and he was reading his own online. (:
hahas. *winks* -funny.
before i hung up... 8/10. ;P
RIGHT. xD
see how great he is. ^^,

lol. and as predicatble as it can be... i definitely got caught.
hah. hung up before she could do anything. :P
lectured me once again.
and then i fell asleep. (:

woke up today.. do housework.
bathed. slacked. then blogging now! (:
calling him up later. hope we'll be able to play viwawa together. ^^
as said... ltr got tuition... then cram for amaths homework lorrs. ;P

okays then...
till the nxt time i get online... cya ppl! <33manyloves.

random note: by right... it's been 28 days. and it shld be a mth already. lol.
but then again... it's not sunday yet.
maybe it's because it's the leap year. so now... every anniversary is 31days.
not 28days. LOL. until this year's over, i think. xD

half a year's gone.

2008-06-03T22:03:00.001+08:00

ahh. it's time to change my font to verdana. (:
enough of arial.
LOL. xP

anyways...
it's been an effing long time since i came online to blog.
lols. *sighs*
you don't know how many things can happen within 4 days.
DD: -OMG.

first thing, it's my mum.
she indirectly caused all this. ):
she doesn't know how much power she has to freak ppl out.
ESPECIALLY MY FRIENDS.
=_= : seriously.
everytime she talks to my friends on the phone...
they'll all freak out. and say she's freaky to me. oO"
well... i'm already used to it.

but that's gonna limit the number of friends i'll be making in the future.
*sighs* -RAHHH.

anyways...
i was using the lappy in secret 2 nights ago.
i had the lappy back in place in time when she came home.
but the damn arsehole brither of mine ratted on me.
and my lappy got into trouble instead of me.

LOL. as in... switching the number code lock to those with keys.
DD: -OMG. i have even thought up of going to desperate measures.
like cutting up my laptop case's zips...
i DON'T CARE if the lappy case spoils.

i want my lappy!!

lol. but i decided not to cuz i was super duper pissed.
the worse thing still is that i had no chance to play viwawa with him.
ROAR. ):
*sighs*

so i decided to call him... on the pretext that i wanted to sleep alr.
of course i got caught. and my mum wanted to talk to him.
lol. he hung up soon after. and then, there she started her nagging.
abt my o lvls... and asking me why am i still dating despite this year's an impt year for me?
still pissed with her, i didn't reply much words to her.

suddenly, she just called him up...
and sorta lectured him about why did we have to talk so late at night...
then dragged on to my studies...
say go meet THREE teachers alr...
then, adding my mid-year results.
like she had all the blame pushed to him.
RAHH. kept repeating & repeating those lines...

whatever she said to him... i've heard it all.
and i've heard it all BEFORE.

and whatever had happened to my shitty mid-year results.
it wasn't his fault. why did she had to do that?! UGH.
it was the 2 guys before him and myself. never him.
oO"~ aiyo. can't really blame my mum cuz she doesn't know the FULL story.
(anyways... please don't blame yourself.
it wasn't never your fault. and it will never be.)

a few minutes later, he called back.
there and then... he said we should stop. a break up.
i totally got it. i understand why...
so i agreed.
and after we hung up, i broke down immediately.
we were so close to our first mth tgt.
and this had to happen.
indirectly, my mum caused our break up.
i blamed her for all this.
beacuse whatever she did, it certainly didn't make my life happier or easier.

for the whole of the next day...
i didn't smile. completely emo and shit sia. DDx
probably the only time i smiled was when i was with echa & jou ;on the phone.

came home later than the exact time to avoid my mum.
and straight to bed for a nap because i didn't want to talk to anyone.
called jou soon after i woke up.
just no mood to say anything to my family members.

i wanted to call him... to explain myself.
but then again...i was kinda too depressed to call him.
if i ever did, idk what i shld say towards him.

i broke down twice...
beacuse i couldn't keep myself busy enough to stop thinking about it.
seriously heartbroken.

again, if he didn't dare to call...
i would be in a SUPER duper uber sad state now.

what a clever way to use his sister's phone and herself to reach me.

hahas. just when i finished emo-ing on foolscap, he called.
lols. anyway, i'm glad that he still wants me. and he still loves me.

but our cpl in audi. =_=
nuhhh. he seriously broke up with me in audi. ROAR. ):

but we are still together. i hope we still are.
still kinda unsure at that time.
broke down for the third time while i was on the phone with him still.

jerkass. caused me all the emoness once again.
pulled this huge thing on me again. RAHH.
blehh. but i won't blame him beacuse i understand the reason why.
eeeee.
but what about my heart?! has no one spared a thought for it?
*inserts angry face*
bahh. my fragile heart. ohwells. ):
i'll get okay within this few days...

beacuse everything's happening so fast these days...
and my mind's suddenly slow in capturing those events...
i can't help but to still emo somehow, every now & then.
LOL. and be kinda shocked. X:
everything's fine now... but i still keep on thinking abt it ehh. x3

blehhs. ><"
anyways... i missed physics remedial today.
oops. hehes. cuz... i kinda overslept.
so i hecked abt going to sch. LOLS. xP

met up with echa today. to pass back her file.
jou called me up too. asked if we wanted to meet up for a while...
so i was like okays... and then i brought echa to meet up with jou. ^^
xDD -i did a good job!
'cause they kinda click well. ((:
hahas. lols.

bumped into zaki! LOL.
they were apparently SHOCKED to see him.

ermms... right. so was i.
lols. but their reason was kinda diff. heh. X:

so we went to popular to get jou's textbook.
then they followed me to para. damn. my crowd wasn't big lehhs.
siann. DD: but it's better to have some to have none.
LOL. ^^

wahahahas. zaki came back withh his friend. lols.
as if he knew i'll come for a game.

anyways... i rested for a while under the aircon as i watched him danced.
and as for jou & echa... they were chatting. (:
see how nice am i to bring them together? ^^
weeee~~ kekes. THANK ME.

LOL. xDD
i've always wanted to bring them tgt derhhs.
and i finally did! yahhoo~ ((:

anyways...
we all walked to the inter.
echa met up with her guy.
jou went home to meet up with MATT and his friend. (bandmates. ^^)
shhhh. xP

then i walked home in the rain lorrs. ;D
never felt this good while walking in the rain. hahas.
andand~ i didn't have to worry about my things getting wet!
LOLS. because i didn't bring a bag along with me at all. hahas.
but it was just drizzling. ohwells...

hmmm.
nothing much today...
finished my essay today. but... =_=
she didn't come today.

lols. so i spent slacking my ass off the whole of tonight.
except to blog now. and scarificed my playing time. D:
so be happy ppl! that i blogged! xD
bhb-ness. not only i need it sometimes.
heh. xP

OHH YEAH. jesse mccartney LOOKS like ricky martin!!
from his new single; mtv; leavin'.
OMG. i think it's because of his hair cut. X:
damn. he looks so matured now. xD -hahas.

&&--before i came home, i called him! xDD
kyahh! ~~sho happy to hear his voice again. ^^,
i seriously missed him loads.
gosh. i just can't call him at home. ><"~ uwahh. T-T
i need my hug. i need my love from him.
I NEED YOU. my dearie. ))x

*sighs* -my heart's aching loads.
i'm going to see him tmr! YESHHIES. xD
beacuse i can't wait! ^^
LOL. i have more impt things to tell him.
but not here. it's only for his ears. xP
nnooottt trying to be mushy here. nuhh!~ >.<
xDD- kekekes.

kkays. me gtg luhhs. cya ppl ard then.
till i get hold of my lappy again... cya y'all!! <33manyloves.
ieieie~MISSyou.
uwahhh. (x (acts cute, but MEANS it.)
buhbye~!

goingRANDOMinnotime.

2008-05-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

hello to all. (:
as you can see... my blog title has changed.
but it's the same meaning. LOL. ^^,

'annoyed is the word, not angry.' :that's what he said. x33

went out to find him just now.
hahas. came home late. and now, for the whole mth...
i'm grounded.
but that's not going to stop me frm going to the guild outing next friday.
i don't care. i'm going.
(rebelling time! xP) wahahahas. this is a must. hmph.
whatever it takes, i'm going. ROAR. xP

anyways...
i went there late actually. ><"
D: -had a hard time with my mum to let me out.
lols. and then, on the train, i kinda overslept...
so yeah... i know i'm late. VERY. X:

couldn't even call because my mum sure wouldn't let.
*sighs* -imma sorry uhh.

><" -i got my punishment already. LOL.
ermmms. OMG. my BUTT'S ~~bleeding~~. still HURTING me. O__O
well. enough said. that was my punishment. xD
wahahahahas. X:

(i swore i wouldn't let you do it already. in my heart. heh. BUT HORR.
damn. i still did. now... i'm going to have weak bladder control.)

OMG. did i just said that?
hahahahahahahas. so random.
up to one's imagination. *winks*

okays. basically, i definitely had fun with him.
everytime we meet, we'll always have fun.
i'm never bored, whenever he's around.
but then again... aiyo, today too fast liaos.
too tight a time limit for me today. *sighs*~ DDx

so maybe... i wasn't really myself today. x3
eeps. hahas.

till can't call him. SIAN. =__=
practically everyone at home's controlling me.
can't use phone to make a call.
can't really go out.
can't use msn.
( well. i still have ebuddy. HAH. )

LOL. this is SUPER terrible. ><"~!
it's partly my fault too. so, ahhh. just gotta make do with it.
or just find ways luhh. X:

...i'm HUNGRY. damn. eaten. but still~! uwahh.
maybe going down to cheers to buy chips & drinks.
lols. nahh. i'm gonna make grass jelly 1st. ^^,

didn't play audi after i ate. just viwawa-ed.
lol. guessed that he wouldn't be in audi, so no point going in there.
and he isn't on msn either. maybe he's busy with diablo 2.
ohwells. i saw it just nw. Z.z

i realised i have bad synchornisation. with people's timing. O:
in audi - cpl mode. in real life - phone calls.

DAMN. where the heck did my special sense or luck (or whatever you call it.) go??
T__T -i hate this. RAHHH.

wished i had the power of teleportation.
guess most ppl would love to be nightcrawler. (:

LOL. i'm just being random today.
hahas. my excuse was to play para today. hah.
but i really missed para-ing.
AHHH. NO MONEY CHOING LAHH. +_+
uwahhh~~ T-T -siannn sehhh. )':

lalalalalas~ xDD -ehhehehehes. LOLS.
bored. DUHH. ahh. guess i won't be audi-ing tonight.
and i'll try to call him. i swear i will. Dx

gtg lerhhs. switch off this damn lappy. ):
if i don't. i won't be even able to blog sia. oO"
that is DAMN sad. DD:
LOL. nth much today oso.
more like typical nothing-do-to-and-i'm-so-free kinda day for me.
EXCEPT meeting him. ^^,
THAT'S the only thing that brightens up my day. ;D

ohwells. i shall see ya guys ard then... (:
yet another short post. hahas. been blogging like almost everyday.
so, not very long lorrs. nth much also mahh.
unless i start debating for the blogsphere or something.

okays. SHHH.
(tells myself to GO AWAY AND POST THIS UP ALREADY.)
weeee~~~ ;DD -meloveseeuuuguys!! ^_^ <33
XOXOtohim. ONLY. xP
for the rest, manyHHHUUUGGGSSS.
LOL. xDD -i'm being very random now.
ehem. it's almost 12 midnight lerhh mahhs.
buhbye!! ^^

we're okay now.

2008-05-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

meow. ;D

glad that he isn't mad me alr. ^^,
yays~! ((:

because... i couldn't sleep last night.
even after we hung up.
(talked only for like 28 mins... mainly silence. so that's abt 15 mins, i think.)

couldn't sleep. so went to choing audi. O: until 5.45am bahh. ><"
tried to help someone with story mode. OMG.
i could still still chain at first.
but when i helped him, damn. my chaining skills all gone.
can't go till x6. DD:
lols. maybe i'm tired already. ohwells. xP

gonna change my pass for me audi acc soon.
scared kena heck arhh. X:

ahhh. and i'm hungry. kekes. didn't eat much.
and having fun with my web cam. apparently, the focus isn't working.
DAMN IT. DD: -nt much fun liaos. siann. ):
lols. ^^

nothing much to blog this afternoon. hahas.
brothers are out for their class party.
and suddenly, i'm not used to it; the house being SO quiet.
just only me and my mum. LOL.
(my dad's sleeping somewhere outside. construction here arhh.)
damn the noise lorrs. hahas.

hmmm. idk when i'll start me hmwk. LOL. xDD
soon, i hope.

tonight, there's english tuition for me...
other than that... i'm waiting for tmr to come. ;DD
weee~ i can finally see him again.
and then pass him all the letters i wrote for him. ^_^
woots~~ xDD

okays. for now...
i shall go choing my audi acc. ^^
xP -just this june holidays.
training for my wedding licence too. (:
<33manyloves!
tata~((:
zaryl needs her training. can't blog anymore. *grins*

[[ 21days! omgomgomg. tmr's the 22nd liaos. X:
*cross fingers* - pls let there be nth bad going on for us tmr. ><"
i really want this to go beyond 22 days. x33 ]]

...
IMISSYOUJOU. call me some time!
(but not after midnight. LOLS. :P) <33

XOXO~:sky3/charmain. ^^,
ilovemyname. xP

feelingsAFFECTEDbyyou.

2008-05-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

hello(:
hahas. blogging since i'm bored today.
staying at home. lols.
and listening to Black And Gold over & over again.

OMG. and i cannot believe SAM SPARRO is GAY.
oO"~! DD: O__O
eeekkks. it's so sad luhhs. ):
really went to check it out... *sighs*~
was hoping he was straight sia. ohwells...
i already have mine. (:

anyways.
i'm using my bro's lappy instead.
cuz he's in sch. and mum's not letting me play MY lappy.
because she thinks i'll go online.. (aka: MSN, to talk to ppl.)
and so she doesn't let me play.
BLEHHH.

so what? my bro's lappy has msn too.
even if i can't use msn, there's EBUDDY for me. xD
hah. don't try to stop me.

but then this lapy no audition!!! DDx
THAT'S MY PROBLEM WITH IT.
omg. and i wanted to choing train for my wedding licence today derhhs.
lols. ehhhmmm. it's an audi cpls thing. xP
i'm going to make the effort to pass it with him. (:
i know he can cover me. xP
(because... he seriously is a pro. DD: )
but then again, i want to put the effort too.
to make all this worth while! ^^

soooo~ I MUST ADD LOADS OF OIL. xDD -wahahahas.
LOLS. ^__^

and same goes for my studies + o lvls.

T__T - i wanna play audi~ and train... UHHH.
lappyyyy~ uwahhh. SOBS.

lols. okays. i know that i'm super random today. :P
i just miss my lappy loads.
because... it's like my source of music. --my mp3.
and it has my fave game : audition!
all my photos... and my random crappy stuff.

ahhh... ^^,
this is why i love my lappy loads.
and i'm missing it so much. X:

that's not the only thing i'm missing.
it's my phone too. D:

and the ppl i'm missing would be my girlfriends...
my princess.
(dun sad horrs. x33 -still got muahhs. xD)

and him.

but it seems like he's angry with me. ><"
i knw i didn't call. D: -and is that why he's unhappy?
or what? *sighs* he doesn't bother to tell me...
and now, idk what to do. )':
eeee. don't be mad at me! Dx
i couldn't call beacuse my mum was home...
and i thought you would still be sleeping. ><"

aye...
anyways... i've gt nth much on.
lols. except to do my hmwk luhh.
but then, i'm just pure lazy to start lorrs. kekes. xP

so this entry will be a short one.

goshh. no audi. boring siol. X:
siann. i shall get going then. buhbye...
sobs.

my~LAPPY! xDD

2008-05-27T14:15:00.003+08:00

OMG. i'm finally touching my lappy to blog!!! woots!
*hugs lappy*~ <3
weeee~ ^^,
hahas. my mum finally let me play. xD
gonna play audi and that guitar game i spotted online.
fun ehh. lik guitar heros sia.
(BEST PLAYED ON DESKTOP, WITH KEYBOARD.) :DD
wahahahas. i'm using my lappy... so it's okay. lololols.

here's the website, from armorgames.com.
http://armorgames.com/play/1576/sc-guitar-maniac-dx-3

there's the number two series on their original webby.
go try it too~! my fave song there is... this way (demo).
lololols. it's damn nice!! i love the groovy beats and...
i'll master the song!! :D

and *sighs*...
basically, i just miss him.
and i wonder he'll be reading this...
><"~ come online... because i will be. xP
hahas. just blogging now... and downloading songs...
youtubing...and listening too.

i love this song, btw.
Sam Sparro - Black and Gold. <33>
lols. ^^, -the mv for this song is damn nice. x))
cuz i love the line dance! lols.
the graphics~! and that suit. glowing! xP
and he isn't that bad looking either. kekes.
so, here are the lyrics! xDD

the remixes are on youtube.
there's the original remix by himself...
there's the Steve Pitron & Max Sanna Mix. (liking this one.)
there's also Kings of the Universe Remix. (old school music style!! xD)
many more... but i like this three. ((:

spotted this song 1st on mtv.
and then started to like it as i listened.
lols. i kept hearing this on the radio too.
so i decided to download it. xDD
now i'm loving it.
and idk why, it reminds me of him.. LOL.
our relationship... the tune, the beat, the lyrics. :)
i feel like that. lololols.
maybe you'll just have to think deep bahhs. xP

see how nice i am?
giving you ppl all the links. xDD
LOLS. (so many sia.)
and because i really love this song...
(even cried to it. because i missed him. and this song was playing in my mind...)
look, i wrote quite long abt it. x)) -hehehes.

lols. xDD
i'm just having this super laidback feeling now...
hahahas. and i'm gonna audi soon.
nth much today. and the day before. lols.
i'm gonna die of boredom soon.

(that's because i'm alr lazy to start my holiday hmwk. LOLOLOLS.)

don't worry, i will start very soon.
and i won't be bored by then. X:
T__T--got nth much to update liaos.
sian. lololols. another time bahhs.
i'll see ya ard~ buhbye! ^^

...
what a typical & kinda boring day today.
the skies are cloudy. D:
ohwells. *walks away*...

OLEVELSmothertonguePAPER. over!

2008-05-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

yays. it's over...
LOL. xDD
ehhh. the CPE released us late.
ahh. crap to those ppl who made so much noise...
(here comes the irregularity report sia. =_=)
ohwells...

and my paper today...
gosh. i just hope i won't lose more than 30 marks. ><"
can't say it's tough nor easy either.

hmmm. this morning... my mum left a post-it note on my table. (:
which made me think that... actually...
no matter how much i hate my mum...or how UNREASONABLE she is.
she still loves me.
^^,~ awwwww. <3

hahahas. i was definitely touched. ;D
and i'm glad that i have my friends' support. and his too. ^__^
thank you very much ppl~ love ya loads!
lols. and i will be very willing to lend ya muah support too. ((:

haven't been blogging this few days... i know.
cuz... i've been studying for chinese.
(see, i so guai right? LOLOLOLOL. xDD)
well... that is, i took a tad too many breaks in between all the studying i'm supposed to have.
kekes. xP -SHHH.

dunno hw to study for chinese either.
it's like hw to study sia?
you also dunno what will excatly come out or something...
and it's like compo, letter-writting, cloze passage & compre.
LOL. so i just memorise the format lorrs... (for letter-writting.)
hahas. :P

boring sia today...
cuz my lappy's confiscated. (by my DAD. Dx)
and so is my phone. LOL.

then i need to save money to go make my ezlink card... ><"
(so i'll be able to travel~ &&-- to find him! xP)
so, cannot go out! OMG.

B-O-R-I-N-G. =___=

lols. i ton at his place on friday.
FRIST TIME LORRRS. xDD

went to para 1st. lols. i saw voxy! x))
the crowd was acceptable. hahas.

throughout the whole time i was para-ing... i was thinking if i shld head down & find him.
it's like that incident... and then... aiyo... X:

hahahas. but i still go luhhs.
because.. i don't want to blow up the matter anymore.
and besides... i've already forgiven him. ((:
&&--memisshimuhhs.
so... yeah. still went there.

don't feel bad anymore. i'm okay already. and besides... i can never stay mad at you. ^^,
because you're the only one i'm going to love.

*blushes*. LOL. X:
anyways...
i just decided not to go home.
and spent my last day of fun with him at his place.

slacked loads.
played audi too. ^^,
basically, i really enjoyed my time with him. xP
*winks*~ i had my revenge on him too. MUAHAHAHAHAS.

anyways... i slept at 1 plus...
felt the kiss he gave. xP
hahahas. because, i was half asleep then. (shhh. kekes.)

the next morning... we were sorta chased outta the house...
because of the cleaner. x3
and then, we head down to the coffeeshop for breakfast.
slacked again... then i finally head home.

well... duh. of course i caused & gt myself into loads of trouble.
caning & scolding and all those shitness. oO"
damn... well, i can't really tell them the real reason why i wanted to stay out late...
soo... nvm~ it's okay. i'm gonna feel better in a few days time.

now... i'm stuck at home.
blogging. using the desktop. lols.
playing audi after this.
but i don't see him online ehhs. ):
ohwells. nvm~ i shall see you guys ard... soon, i hope.
><"~ buhbye. <33

WOKENup.

2008-05-23T14:26:00.001+08:00

boo. (:
after taking it all out on my blog... and to the closest ppl ard me.
and to myself.... LOL.
i'm okay already.
(i sure bounce back pretty fast ehh. hahas.)

so don't worry~.
because, today... i'm going to set my priorities right.
i've woken up. once again. LOL. ><"
because of my results.
no, i'm not going to sulk over it anymore.
and i'm might be switching class too. oO"
(intending to drop to combined science... which i shld have done it last year. ohwells.)

then i might just pangseh echa in class. ehhh~ ><"
unless she oso drop with me luhh.
maybe to 4F? (ehhhemmm. someone's there btw. *winks*) -not mine horr!

dunno ehh... cannot confirm now.
haven't fill in the form and all.
and then, there's a need for me to write a request letter...
also, a study plan! DD:

aye~.
after talking so long to just 3 teachers in a day...
(OOH. mrs soh knows my blog. wow. X:) -lol.
i'm going to set things straight & right liaos.
i know that i'm a bad balancer.... ><"
and i've not been a good student in class.

so... i'ma gonna tell him that i'll be taking a break with our relationship.
but it isn't a break up. x33
i will promise to keep in contact with him.
but it's better if i don't see him...
hahas. and i don't want my dad to worry about me...
like him disturbing me and my studies...
then end up lecturing him. O.O
soo~
i hope he understands.
(indirectly... i hope you'll see this.)

then after that, after today, omg. MUST START MUGGING LERHHS.
lol. not enuff time liao le lorrs. ><"
haiish. olvl mt paper this monday.
(going to pia this weekend lerhhs. woohooo. wish me the best of luck.)
3 to 4 mths left.
i'm going to pia my studies liaos. buck up and work hard. *grins*
must add loads of oil!! WOOTS.
don't want to disappoint the ppl who cares about me and my future.
like my dad & the teachers who've been teaching.

hahahas. LOL. xP
anyways... this will be a short post.
because, i'll abandon my lappy, my blog, my audition acc.
for quite some time this june...
lols.

actually, everything's still quite unconfirmed.
so, when i've finally settled down. like all my plans are in place...
i'll blog again. ((:

><"~ not much today too.
maybe para-ing. maybe not.
(gonna find him later to talk things out also...)
going officially into studyingSLASHnerd mode.
so yeah... the discipline!! xP

hmmm...
it's the holidays lerhhs. i shld be happy but i'm not.
damn exams. and the olvls.
so, lucky for those who are under 16. hmph.
enjoy while you still can.
but don't forget the holiday homework~! DDx
(damn...i have so many freaking papers to do. UGHH. =__=)

hahas. lols. ohwells... i'll spread it all out during this june hoildays.
as well as to do lots of revision...
and also... miss my phone loads. T__T
(aye, i'm only getting it back on the 20th of June. sian-ed. one whole mth.)
heh. okays...
gotta get moving my butt off here liaos.
get ready to get outta here~ ((:
anymore updates... the next entry!
weeee~ buhbye! <33manymanyloves.>

i don't know what to say to/feel towards you.

2008-05-22T18:05:00.001+08:00

--why did he have to that to me...?
why did he have to doubt my love for him...?

i know his past.
i know what they have done.

but can't he sees that i'm different?
but can't he feel that i'm true towards him?

how can i love him if he doesn't trust me...
how am i supposed to live if he were to leave me one day...

what do i have do to keep his heart?
what will i ever do if he's gone?--

haiish. hello to all.
i am indeed in a sad state right now.
as the title speaks for itself...
my thoughts are so messed up.

it happened frm last night to this early, early morning. (like 2 plus? oO'')
and he took me on such a big round...
told me so much...
asked me so much...

in the end, he wanted to leave.
AND then said it was all a (lie?) test. to see my sincerity towards him.
to how much i really loved him.

i got such a shock...
my heart felt like it got skinned alive...
and then, stabbed a million times per second.

(visualize.)
it's like this <3...
goes UP.
and DOWN.
suddenly, it SWINGS~.
then. SMASHED.

in just a few seconds...
after those lines came out of his lips.

if he hadn't bothered to explain himself immediately...
i would probably took it for real.

i'm still recovering from the aftershock.
lols. i really don't know sometimes... if this was right for him to do it to me.
to be able to let him trust me in the future.
to feel horrible first... so he'll get it. he'll understand where he stands in my heart.

[[ -- if revenge was what he was looking for...
then, congrats. he succeeded in making me feeling so hurt.
all this... one big round. and in the end, he wanted to leave.
what ever happened to his promise towards me?
what did i do to make you leave?
you know i did no wrong, yet you still see me like the others.
i can't believe he just did that to me.
now... i don't even know how to talk to him again.
if we were talking this face-to-face...
my reaction would be bigger. you do not want to imagine.
it'll be like so dramatic... X:
thank goodness... the phone died on me a minute after he heard my reaction.
if not... i'm just as better off dead. -- ]]

thanks to jou & princess. <33loves.
they made me feel much better by being there for me.

and.... here's a poem writen for me. xD
((all credits to jou!! ^^ -LOVEYABABE. you totally understand how i felt. xP))

I am bursting with emotions
And I don't know what to do
My heart feels torn in so many ways
And it is all because of you
Each night I lay in bed to sleep
But all I do is cry
You have hurt me in so many ways
I feel like I could die
My hopes, My dreams, My happy thoughts
They all have faded away
And every thing would be different now
If only you would stay
I used to trust so easily
But you made me disappear
When you left you took my heart
Now all I feel is fear
I fear that I might once again
Be caught in someone's trap
And in the end alone again
My mind I might just snap
Some day I hope to love again
Who will always be there
But for now i can't help
But wonder "O, why just could not you care?"

long ehh? xP
(tears fell when i read it.)
it's because whatever i wanted to tell him...
it's all in there.

my insercuites.
and that's why i need to know.

but then again... ):
*hides one side & wipes her tears away*

i really don't know what i should do.

...
hmmm. it's like, can i ever forgive him completely?
after the way he treated me just like that.

and i know he reads this.
so.
no matter how much you apologise, you left a scar in my heart.
still i forgave you.
however... i do bear grudges.

deep down somewhere in my heart. a part of me still can't forgive you.
and i don't know how you're going to heal me...
but let me tell you, it'll take LOADS of time for me to feel for you again...
like how i used to.
i'm sorry. but this is how i feel.

you made me shed tears for you.
my heart; in jubliation and in confusion.
you'll have to pay me back... someday.

all i want you to promise me that... we'll make this work once again.
and that you'll never leave me.
(not like what the others did to me. ><")
and i'm glad. (:

hmmm. got nth much today either.
too upset to go out.
so i chose to slack for awhile. and rant about how i felt.
to him. to everything we had.
right here. right now.

i feel the urge to call him.
but each time i do, i get reminded of everything.
it's like i keep repeating myself here...
but i wanna get it ALL out.

don't stop me! heh. :P

dinner time is here... i shall get going then.
hungry lerhhs.
(bahh. i hope he rmbs to eat. and take care of his damn foot. Dx)
aye. *runs off*
-- BUHBYE. xDD ~<33manylovesfromzaryl/sky3.

*runs back* - thank you for reading with me till here, y'all. ^^
loved your company. cya ard then~! weeee.....

when you're gone...

2008-05-20T16:33:00.002+08:00

I always needed time on my own,
I never thought I'd,
need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone,
And the bed where you lie,
Is made up on your side.

When you walk away...
I count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

I've never felt this way before,
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left,
They lie on the floor,
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do!

When you walk away,
I count the steps that you take...
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
And when you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you.

We were made for each other,
Out here forever,
I know we were, (yeah yeah!)
All I ever wanted was for you to know,
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me...Yeah!

When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
And make it OK...
I miss you...!

ilovethelyrics. <33
got it from here.
(http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/avril_lavigne/when_youre_gone.html)

it's because... i really miss him luhhs.
><" -aye. ):
we'll be meeting up soon... but still.
my heart's feeling soooo pain. X:
T__T -sobs.

blehhs.
and i can only allow myself to feel like dat for a while.
that's because i'm having tuition later. siann. Dx
maths tuition lorrs.
boring. but no choice.

and then, there's my olvls chinese paper.
BLEEP.

no time. no time! ><"
it's not that i regret being in a relationship with him...
it's about the damn timing. O:

argh. torn in between love&studies.
this sucks. but i have his support. and surely... (i hope.)
he'll understand the dilemma i'm in.

BAHH. sec 4 sucks sometimes.
then there goes my sweet 16 birthday bash...
because i'll need to study. OMG.

sobs. this is such a life of a 16-year-old kid in singapore.
how sad can this be... omg.
whereas kids in america, being the same age as us...
can already drive a car AND still have a great bday party.

life's just never fair.
and the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side.

ohwells...
another short post today.
feeling so MIXED UP still.

there's nth much on for me tonight either...
slack... or do hmwk... or TRY studying for chinese.
unless i get to talk to him. lols.

gonna feel emo very soon. ><"~
(my dad knows my results... and he isn't happy with muah at all.
now it's my mum... then comes the meet-the-parents session. OMG. diediedie.)

feeling random today also.
spend the whole damn day at the SAM. -Singapore Art Museum.
saw a new mrt station outside. lols. random note i took noticed of.
finished up the worksheet they gave us in like...
30 mins? quite fast actually. hahas.
soon... everyone started to slack. xD

lols. then... we saw bendemeer sec ppl.
hahas. a few classes came for the same reason too.
(some arts programme organised by the school.)
*winks* someone caught my eye. LOL. shhh~.

&&-- me&echa walked ard like 2 lil' tourists...
being super interested in the art works. lols. at least echa really was.
lols. i'm still okay with it... xP

butbut~ for the whole darn day i was out...
i missed him in the end. x33
meow. damn my life. LOL. oops. ><"

okays now...
enuff of all this. i shall get going.
and prepare for my tuition.

... AND. looks like i'll have to start reflecting & think much.

*sighs* -ohwells. i'll see ya guys ard then.
buhbye~! manyloves.
(walks away slowly...)

Happy Vesak Day~!

2008-05-19T19:40:00.003+08:00

it's not that i'm a buddhist or whatever you spell it.
BLEHH. it's my mum.
lols. (a yellow string is attached to my right hand.)
it's supposed to bless and protect us.
ohwells. it's my mum's wishes anyway.

went out to visit the temple? yupps.
spent nearly the whole day dere. hahas. ^^

and i felt soooo dehydrated. LOL.
kept drinking fluids.
like water... some lemon gas-sy drink... pearl milk tea... sprite...
(and ltr. MORE WATER! xDD)

so... we prayed and prayed some more.
lols. i did quite a lot too.
for him... ^^
a speedy recovery... so we could go out tgt. in a proper date! xP
hahas. kept repeating the same stuff while praying.
with all the damn sincerity i've got. :))
DD: -please get well soon! gosh... i'm still quite uptight abt it. ><"

haiish. anyways...
after that... we took 33 to some mrt station... (forget liaos.)
then 67 back to tampines interchange.
called wei down, so we could have dinner tgt at macs.
and then eat until DAMN FULL can. X:

wahahahas. EVM lehhs.
still got mcflurries lorrs. siao. i was so bloated. oO"
cannot finish the fries... so we brought it home.

and DAMN. i SERIOUSLY have a bad case of STM sehh.
*shakes head and wacks myself*
haiiyo. today gt english tuition oso forget sia!
already confirm liaos. still forget. ><"
eeps. sorry, yu wei. X:
oops. maybe another day, say thrusday night? lols. dunno. x3

(no phone. so no photos. SOBS. T__T--uwahh.)

&&-- we went home straight lorrs.
*sidetracks*
(yesterday...we also went out for dinner @ Ajisen.
and damn. i forgot to take out the card. ><" -WOOPS.
then got go play arcade marhhs. hahas. i para-ed! woohooo~~ xDD
i got so many ppl watching me... 1 min after i started dancing.
OMG. xDD --ilovemycrowd. weeee~ ^^
damn that grp of hot guys. LOLS. xDD
hehes...no guts to approach me lorrs. just cuz my hair was all tied up too.
lol. boring ppl. =__= -1st time i tied it all up. hahas. ohwells.
random luhhs. anyways...
i had my fun. was sweating like mad too. wahahahas.

saw voxy working! hahas.
then walked home lorrs. ma went out... blehh.
don't really care.

hmmm.
don't get jealous luhh, darling. ;D
i still LOVE you.

LOLS. done. back to the topic.)
so...
lols. we walked home.for digestion. xDD
hahas. and damn the weather too. so hot. lols.
i was also wearing black. hahas. x33
came home... straight go bathe.

and now i'm online and blogging! woots!
xDD --and i've been thinking of him the whole day.
even though i didn't call him. srry~! DDx
i'm gonna call him later. kekes.

speaking abt phone calls...
JOU!!! OMG. WHY DIDN'T YOU ANSWER MUAH CALLS?!
eeeks. me miss euu sho much lehhs. DD:
still dun wanna answer me... SOBS.
i shall try again... nt tonight. heh. xP

nth much luhhs... today's events are just like that.
sianned. lols. doing my amaths hmwk in sch tmr.
lazy to do it tonight. kekes. SHH. xP
besides... in sch oso got nothing much lorrs.
only that stupid chinese programme. OMG. sucks. BORING SHITNESS.
lols.

i wanna choing audi lohhs.
hahas. okays. maybe not choing lahh.
gt nt so much time to spare sia... sians. ohwells.
then i shall see euu guys ard then~~. ((:
till the next entry, tata~! <33loves.

what a sunday. (:

2008-05-18T14:25:00.003+08:00

hello~! ;D
hahas. what a sunday i'm having today.
early in the morning, i had amaths tuition. x33
wahahahas. i finally UNDERSTAND differentiation & integration.
(because i wasn't paying attention in school. xP)
the lesson was going so fast... i couldn't catch up. lols.

anyways...
i really went out.
LOL. all the way to pontong pasir. ^^
just to find him.

gosh... you don't know how MUCH i missed him. ><"
i was so happy inside when i saw him.
it's just hard to explain... hahas. the feeling is beyond words.

14 strokes of the rattan cane. just for him.
just for that short period of time we had.
it was worth it.
because... it's not like i can get to see him everyday. ):
and each time we meet... all i want to do is to treasure the time with him.
spend as much time as i can with him. :)

lols. and yesterday... *winks*
i really had a FUN time. (ehem.) *grins* -SHHH.
let's just say i was surprised. and (goshiies) had an all-time-happy-feeling.
meow. xDD

lololololol. thank you very much...
so. (when would it be my turn?) oO"
LOLS. D: -omg. that was random. woops.

lols. forsaken my para leisure time for him.
be honoured. <3

anyways...
hahahas. i wonder when will i get to see him again.
lol. cuz my mum sorta grounded me. X:
and now if i were to get outta the hse...
she'll wack me first then see how. OMG. oO"
like i'm being abused horr... lol.
i have a super strict mum. yes, i know.
and i cannot do anything abt it. Dx -ohwells.

(myphone.damnit.imisshimsomuch...
myeyesweretearywhenithoughofhim.)

blehhs. so... i will be stuck at home today.
unless we're going out for dinner tonight.
then... yeah. FRESH AIR.
hahahas. xDD

listening to sappy love songs now. LOL.
i can't help it. *sighs* --xP
i'm just missing him loads.
he's my everything.
and i still can't believe that he's mine... kekes.

glad that he didn't mind about my past and all.
like i didn't mind his too. ((:
which was a load of my mind... heh. ^_^

*daydreams* --ielurbbdaydweeming. xDD
LOL. (my baby language.)
ahahahas. so random. xP
hymmm. and miiiii. LOLOLOLOL.
*blushes*

-okays. i should really get going. if not... i'll be brusting this entry full of CRAP and randomness which i don't think i want the whole world to know. DD:-

wahahahahas. ^^,
too happy liaos. LOL.
so... anymore updates... tmr! xDD
(vesak day worr. dunno whether need go temple with my mum anort.)
lols. anyways... i'll see ya guys ard~ <33

p/s: sorrwiies. another kinda short one. lols. can read... can liao bahhs. HAHAS. xDD

my QUITE typical saturday.

2008-05-17T12:28:00.004+08:00

45 things a girl wants but won't ask for.
---got this from echa~!
1. Hug her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
(Are you remembering this?)
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
(KEEP READING)
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends, it makes her feel loved.
(Are you thinking of someone?)
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
(One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.)
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything -only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls... you know !!
(WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US~) xP
26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.
(ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER. BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT !!)
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE, hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEKS (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.
(REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT.)
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her. And mean it.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other, grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her, HOLD her in your arms as long as possible.
(MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHE'S LOVED.)
41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS. Remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
You'll never know when she needs just a little bit more love...

and including those from my previous entry. xDD
which would probably add up to more than 60 lines/things, i think.
hahas. all these would probably be the criteria for every girl's dream boy...
LOLS. i wish i had mine too.
hehes. and it's really coming true. ((:

and not forgetting to say hello to all you readers out there.
hahas. ^^,
(for my own *coughs* fan *coughs* base.)
LOLOLOL. :))

am i still emo-ing?
not really... i'm just still upset abt my phone.
apparently, it was my failt. so... yarhhs. haiish. but...
ohwells. i still can call him! ^^

&&-- today's entry would be a short one.
hahas. cuz... i'm heading out for a game of para 1st.
then i'll be meeting him... LOL.
(and also bring my hmwk to do. X: -amaths lorr. BORING.)

speaking about him.
PLEASE GET WELL SOON. DD:
i know i've said it like alot of times... (and i think i'm starting to nag. oO")
but i'm really worried for you luhhs.
see lahh. your foot... =_=
haiyo... YOU OWE ME ONE.
ahahahahs. *winks*

i don't mind going all the way to your place to take care of you...
but then again... i want you to get well soon~.
seeing you limping, (and worse still, in crutches...), hurts my lil' heart. ):
soooo~ GET WELL SOON.
take loads of rest as much as possible.
and drink lots of water. ^__^

(meanwhile~ lemme shower all the love vibes i can give out to you...) LOLS. xDD
<33manyloves.
kekes.

ohh. i hope he'll like the surprise i'm gonna give him later.
LOL. because... it's made full of paper.
well... almost.

&&--i'll get going already...xP
told you this was short.
hahas. anything... i'll update tmr~!
heh. quite typical saturday... except meeting up with him that part.
*grins* -okays... maybe i'll go audi for a while...
change, get ready and off i go~ weee! ^^

cya ard peeps. thanks again for being here. <33
sky3signingoff.

once again. status: EMO-SHIT.

2008-05-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

omg. i'm just feeling emo. and... ):
my phone. gone.
confiscated. by the sch. by mrs soh. bleep. give me one more chance also cannot.
say what the teachers in shss are caring. MY FOOT SIA. D:<
*inserts angry face*. BLEHH.
and now ppl... for those who have my number...
PLEASE DO NOT MSG OR CALL ME.
thanks. ><"~
until i get it back in... perhaps... 2nd wk of june.
or maybe end of this month. it depends.

and now...
i feel so bad. D:
i don't know why either.
towards him. ><"
eeeps. T__T

it's like... he's so nice to me.
and should he ever know all the bad things i've done, from last year till now.
i wonder if this and he would change his mind about me... ><"
sobs. (the insecurities settles in...)

my whole life is once again screwed up. Dx
i thought i had picked myself up alr.
however... i've fallen once again.

but i don't wish to be stuck forever.
haiish. it's like... my results. passed only 2.
and i don't know how should i approach & tell my parents about it.
they probably would 'kill' (like scold the shit ass outta) me.
and then, my phone.

aiya... my entire life this bloody year lahh. like~ UHHHH. omg.
BLEEP the whole world.
i want to end my life!

but then again, i'm only living for certain reasons.
for the love of my life...<3him.
and the things i've yet to accomplish.

damn all the obstacles that come my way.
why must it be so tough?! DDx
my goodness.

i'm too upset to type out the happy things i'm supposed to say.
lol. because... i'm not sharing! xP
heh. it's in my offline blog. *winks*

LOL. haiyo.
*pats myself* -sometimes...
it's all my fault. X:
ohwells... but ii hate putting myself in blame. so yeah.
shuddup. i hate my life, that's all.

hahas. x33
all i'm worried about now is my upcoming chinese o levels.
OMG. 26th May. die liaos.
10 more freaking days only lehh.
the damn school now is putting us in an intensive Mother Tongue programme. =_=

today is the 1st day... and i'm already B.O.R.E.D.
die sehh. how am i supposed to cope for the next 9 days?! ><"

*sighs* -ohh. and also... him.
i'm just worried luhhs.
me and all my insecurities. ><"
(didn't pick my calls.)
aye... 8days liao. :)
i really don't wish anything... including the bad things abt me...to change the love between us.
*crossing many fingers as i have*...
&&-- i hoping for all the best for him to be able to walk today...
(cuz he's removing his cast today~! DD:) xP

haiyo...
eeks. i'm trying to be guai can...
but only a few are giving me support.
to me, it's not enough. why don't they understand me? ):

today... i'm gonna have tuition.
STILL. after the MYEs. duhh. typical sec 4 life. omt. SIAN.
gotta go off now.
so... i'll shall end this entry in a sad tone. LOL.
nahh. in a very BORED tone.
cuz... i can't para today. sobs. ohwells. maybe tmr.
(and are we still meeting? ><"~) haiish.
cya ard ppl... just wished he was here. x3
anyways... buhbye. many(blue)loves. x)) -hehes.